Topic: I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!

Hearing the echo of the wall of the grand canyon.  Yup, you're in the right place

Go for it sister, we are with you

Thanks guys. I keep most of my feelings to myself and or shut them off but sometimes, I feel like I have nowhere to go when I do let them get the better of me (most of the time it is at work and I am stuck). I have lost a few friends thanks to fing cancer over the last 8 months, 2 in the last few weeks both were around my age with young children. I am fortunate and get pissed at myself for letting myself get upset or mad (ie feeling sorry for myself). Sometimes, my brain just wont stop and I just cant shut it off, I cant get the bad thoughts out of my head. There really isnt anything that ignites it, I just feel like bursting into tears from time to time. I hate it!

I rode my stationary bike, hit the punching bag when I got home from work and now I am relaxing (thanks Lorazepam). I do feel better and noone get hurt so hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.

Thanks for letting me rant. Have a good night.

In convertible weather you can do that, too, because all the other cars have their windows UP.  With the added derring-do of challenging the wind to catch your hat and expose you HAIRLESS.  I did it at 65 mph and no, my Tinkerbell floppy hat never abandoned me.

If you cannot scream without "disturbing the piece", sit down with a full box of tissues.  Pull them out one at a time with a GRUNT like a world-class tennis star.  It's lower volume, but allows the intensity.

Peace,

Beth

Yes, Vicki - you are in the right place. I think we ALL deserve to rant and rave. It does feel good to yell & hit something - as long as you don't hurt yourself. I'm a kicker myself and have stubbed some toes :-).  The Gold's Gym Cardio Workout for the Wii is great - you can box and get the aggression out.

Oh yeah!  I'm full of rage.  Sometimes it scares me.

Thank you for this. I was diagnosed last summer and evryone has moved on and the implication is that so have I but this shit just keeps following me around; everyday, sometimes, every minute. I've been feeling so down lately. Back on my antidepressents. Good yet ...depressing.