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Topic: Fuzzy's Romp Room

Forum: Relationships, Emotional Crises, Anxiety, and Depression — Meet and support others who are affected by these issues around breast cancer fears, diagnosis and treatment.

Posted on: Nov 30, 2011 10:46 AM

thefuzzylemon wrote:

So here I am.  Out of active treatment.  Found out that looking forward to "it getting easier" and "getting back to a "normal" hasn't happened.  Instead, I discovered that the journey only began - that I will forever fight this disease, my mental health continues to be challenged and making "changes" to avoid reoccurance just makes me feel like Cancer gets to control my quality...screwed up, right?

So, here it is...Fuzzy's Romp Room.  I'm so ready to drop F Bombs and smack stupid people for the insensitive crap that they say and do.  I'm sick of medications "getting me through."  I have had just about enough of people on the other side who just don't get it, yet feel they need to say something to make a cancer patient "feel better about themselves" or whatever that reasoning is...

I'm hoping that this thread will just give a place to be 100% open.  I do love to write, and I do love all of my sisters here.  I do not want to offend anyone, ever.  I just need to let it out...feel free to do the same.  I thought by opening up my own thread, it would keep me from offending anyone else on thread's that they have built.  I'm just such a friggin' mess and I need some help to get it together ...

Fuzzy's Romp Room comes complete with padded walls, restrictive clothing/accessories (for the really bad days) and an endless supply of love to all of ya all.  Believe it or not, I do have tons of love and forgiveness in my heart ... it's just my head that's a wreck.

thefuzzylemon
Diagnosis: 1/20/2011, 2cm, Stage IIIc, 14/15 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 7, 2012 05:21 PM Nancynow wrote:

Oh mamglam, here is a great big (((((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))).

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend.  Cancer is an evil beast...doesn't matter which type!

Take care of yourself...allow time to grieve, then concentrate on things in life that make you happy. Good luck with your scans and treatments.  Come back for hugs as much as you need to.

Nancy 

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Mar 7, 2012 05:38 PM Nancynow wrote:

dogeyed, I feel for you & understand about appointments.  I have not made an appointment with my BS or Onc in 5 months. I need to get mammo in April, so I'd better get my tushie in gear.

Your post made me smile.  I was in your shoes less than a year ago with the hair thing.  I took my wig off end of Feb last year.  My hair was about an inch long, and noticed people stared at me. Felt a little freaky.  I had multiple trims to get the chemo-damaged hair off (have less than 2 inches left of damaged hair - YAY).  Now, I actually like my hair - it's crazy!  It's still short, but more of a bob style.  I'm finding the new hair is somewhat straighter than my former hair was and I'm not sure how to work it.  I was so used to fighting waves and curls pre-chemo.  My point is: yours will be back and there will be many days you won't even think about hair. Hopefully, you will like yours soon.  I have gained weight since my diagnosis and treatments and not happy about it.  

I sent Fuzz a pm with possibilities of what she could be doing aside from taking vacation time.  Hmmm, haven't heard anything yet.  I sincerely hope she is OK.

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Mar 7, 2012 05:54 PM duckyb1 wrote:

Nancy........lost my mother to colorectal cancer......of course she was older, but lost her just the same............It is so sad how one disease can take so many.................I also lost my father 1 year before my mother, and my husband 7 years later to Pancreatic cancer, at 57, so I am very familiar with cancer, and have been down the path too many times............

It never gets easy , but as time passes you learn to deal with it a little better...........hugs to you

Ducky
Diagnosis: 2/15/2011, IDC, 1cm, Grade 1, 0/10 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 7, 2012 09:31 PM deborye wrote:

OH so sorry about you friend, too damn young.  I have had 2 colonoscopys and another in 4 more years.  Found 1 polyop the first time and last Jan of 2011 they found another one down near my appendix.  

Did find my head though. 

~~~Deb~~~NEVER GIVE UP/NEVER SURRENDER**IDC 6mm & DCIS 7mm
Diagnosis: 3/23/2007, IDC, <1cm, Stage Ib, Grade 2, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 7, 2012 10:44 PM veggy wrote:

Mamglam-

       

Here's a big bear hug for you! I am so sorry about your friend.

Diagnosis 5/26/09 *Chemo 6/9/09 - 10/6/09 *Lumpectomy 12/1/09* Grade 2b* Nodes 1/17* Triple Negative* Thyroid surgery 4/12/10
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Mar 7, 2012 10:49 PM mamglam wrote:

Thank you ptdreamers for the hug - I felt it!  Appreciated your support.

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Mar 8, 2012 12:57 AM mamglam wrote:

Thank you ladies for the hugs - I really needed them today.  The support here always makes me feel good.  It was a very difficult day for me as I heard the news in the morning and then had to go and get my diagnostic testing to check for metases.  I want to ((((((((((hug )))))))))) you all back.

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Mar 8, 2012 01:11 AM Nancynow wrote:

((((Ducky))))....that's just too many damn cancer encounters in a lifetime.  I'm sorry you & your family had to endure so much.  When the %$&#  are we going to start hearing about serious steps to eradicate all cancers (vaccine, trials for vaccines)??  

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Mar 8, 2012 06:32 AM dogeyed wrote:

ALL MY HUGS, SYMPATHY, AND SPECIAL LOVE DREAMS TO MY SISTERS!!!  GG

IBC, IDC, Melanoma/ 5 mos ACT chemo, mastectomy, rads to 10/28, Arimidex one month
Diagnosis: 2/14/2011, IDC, 5cm, Grade 3, 2/11 nodes, ER+
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Mar 8, 2012 07:07 AM LaurenM730 wrote:

Mamglam - so sorry for your loss. Sending lots of bugs, love and strength your way.

Ducky - lots of hugs to you too. You've dealth with this stupid disease way too much.

When I went to the MO for the first time I remembered they asked me for a list of immediate family members that suffered from some form of cancer. Unfortunately, the list was way too long. All the grandparents, my father, uncle... Here' to prevention, early detection, and hopefully finding a cure for EVERYONE!!!🍻

I do have to say that I had a really emotional night last night. I am part of the 9/11 health registry and they call every so often for an update. They ask a lot of questions about the last year, month and two weeks. One question was "have you been diagnosed with cancer in the pas 12 months?". I never thought I'd have to answer yes. Then they ask a lot of mental health related questions. Depression, feelings of self doubt, feelings of letting people down. Ugh, I answered yes and often to so many. I think it just hit me last night what a worldwind this has been. I sat in my room and cried for a while... So many emotions about being dx and then about 9/11 came rushing back on this stupid call. I've been avoiding it, but my husband encouraged me to take it... That day was the last thing I needed to think about while im home recovering...

Thans for listening ladies...

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Mar 8, 2012 10:50 AM mamglam wrote:

(((((HUGS))))) to you LaurenM730.  I am sorry that you had a difficult evening dealing with your emotions.  I hope that you are feeling better and anytime you need to come here and tell us what you are feeling (thinking) you are welcome to do so.  My shoulders are available anytime!

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Mar 8, 2012 03:19 PM duckyb1 wrote:

Lauren........thanks for the "hugs", and back at cha girlfriend...........you too have had a difficult time............but we are in this together, for the long haul.....................We will comfort each other.........

I got a "thumbs up" today when I went for my 1st mammogram after being diagnosed........this time last year I was waiting for surgery............God is good...................

Ducky
Diagnosis: 2/15/2011, IDC, 1cm, Grade 1, 0/10 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 8, 2012 04:27 PM Makratz wrote:

((((Mam))) so sorry for your loss.

Happy for you Ducky!

Linda...♥♥♥ Never, never, never give up ~ Winston Churchill
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Mar 8, 2012 10:15 PM jeaniept wrote:

Thanks so much for replying, Dogeyed. Smile I am due to see my plastic surgeon, breast surgeon, who did the mastectomy, AND my pain management doc all by the end of the month, and you've given me some good thoughts, and questions to ask. Good luck with your situation. May we all get answers!!

Jeanie 

Jeanie
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Mar 8, 2012 10:40 PM Bluebird-Essa wrote:

Hugs for all of us and to all we have lost.  My mom from cancer, and my grandma and aunt.

Not feeling so rompy tonight, but here's another cutest ducky in the world,  thought it would be appreciated, don't you just want to kiss it?

 

I looked up and there was the moon. Hello, she whispered....
Diagnosis: 7/15/2011, IDC, 2cm, Stage IIb, Grade 3, 1/11 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+
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Mar 9, 2012 07:08 AM dogeyed wrote:

LOV-ESSA, sweeeeeet duckie!!!  In fact, it just might be...could it be... FUZZY???  I mean, if it looks fuzzy, they eyes are fuzzerly, and quacks like a fuzzy wuzzy, it MUST BE Fuzzy.  {{{{{FUZZY}}}}} 

JEANIE, gosh I hope those docs can figure out WHAT is going on.  I heard another woman talk about how their boob hurts right in the middle, just like you and me.  Maybe it's a standard technique they use to sew up, I have heard of stitches getting infected, of all things.  I'm just glad to hear you'll be seeing all those folks before the month is out, they gotta DO SOMETHING!!!

LAUREN, awwwww, I feel for you.  I think it's good to tap into your cancer emotion, it takes a while to get it all out.  I still get rude awakenings now and then, they just upset me for a few days, but I know it's all part of the deal, the ups and down.  I'm just SO sick of it, tho!!! 

IBC, IDC, Melanoma/ 5 mos ACT chemo, mastectomy, rads to 10/28, Arimidex one month
Diagnosis: 2/14/2011, IDC, 5cm, Grade 3, 2/11 nodes, ER+
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Mar 9, 2012 06:21 PM grannydukes wrote:

ups and downs!!!!!!i think i was side ways yesterday!!!!I guess it was the full moon cause i see lots of sistas complaining(most who never do)

lets make it a betta day.hugggggggs everyone K


Diagnosis: 4/15/2010, DCIS, 4cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 1/6 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2-
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Mar 9, 2012 06:46 PM deborye wrote:

Undecided nobody commented on my colonoscopy quote.

((((WHOLE ROOM)))) 

~~~Deb~~~NEVER GIVE UP/NEVER SURRENDER**IDC 6mm & DCIS 7mm
Diagnosis: 3/23/2007, IDC, <1cm, Stage Ib, Grade 2, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 9, 2012 08:10 PM sheila888-♥ wrote:

Sheila♥
Diagnosis: 4/8/2005, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+
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Mar 9, 2012 08:23 PM Nancynow wrote:

Hi Ladies!  

Deb, that sucks.  BC isn't bad enough, you have to worry about polyps too.  Soooo, it was a joke about finding your head....up your a#$% ?  Sorry, there have been so many sensitive people posting on the forums this past couple of weeks.  I'm almost afraid to post now, not wanting to offend anyone.  Well hell, you deserve a big hug ((((Deb))))

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Mar 9, 2012 08:26 PM Nancynow wrote:

Sheila, wondering about Fuzzy?  Me too.  She last posted 12 days ago.  If she's not back by early next week, I think we should start a separate thread titled "Where is TheFuzzyLemon?".

I am freakin worried. 

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Mar 9, 2012 08:31 PM sheila888-♥ wrote:

Nancy...Yes I am.

Don't be afraid to post if a thread is sensitive than stay away from those.

Hugs

Sheila♥
Diagnosis: 4/8/2005, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+
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Mar 9, 2012 08:40 PM grannydukes wrote:

I am worried too.Does anyone know how to get in touch with her.Damn we really need a buddy system.....I do have one and i know some other sistas do.WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU FUZZY??????

Diagnosis: 4/15/2010, DCIS, 4cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 1/6 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2-
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Mar 9, 2012 08:54 PM sheila888-♥ wrote:

granny....I taped a note on the wall with all the info where my computer is...to my daughters...that if I can no longer  post for any reason they should post it for me .

Sheila♥
Diagnosis: 4/8/2005, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+
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Mar 9, 2012 09:00 PM grannydukes wrote:

I have a fewphone numbers on the wall just in case....and they are outlined in my phone book with a big hi lighter.And my kids know all about the sistas who i have the phone numbers of..

lets not jump here....just wish we had this buddy system.could save us a lot of heartache.maybe its time to pm one of your BBF on fb and exchange phone numbers and/or email addresses.


Diagnosis: 4/15/2010, DCIS, 4cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 1/6 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2-
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Mar 9, 2012 11:00 PM Nancynow wrote:

I like a buddy system.  A couple of sistas here have my contact info too....not that I'm planning on going anywhere!

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Mar 10, 2012 10:51 AM LaurenM730 wrote:

I like that idea. Its worrisome when someone is around every day then just stops posting. I'm going to leave the info for my DH. It's a bookmark so he shouldn't have any trouble with that. Or maybe...😉

Thanks for the support on the other thing. It's rare that I think about "that day" these days, with so much other crap on my mind. I guess it was something to make me forget about recovery for a few minutes...

Hoping everyone has a great weekend!

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Mar 10, 2012 04:11 PM duckyb1 wrote:

Agree ladies.................Fuzzy never left this thread...........she was always here commenting, and making us laugh..................it just doesn't seem like her to "drop out of sight" all at one, without saying where she was going, or what she was going to be doing...............and we have no way of finding out anything else, cause we just have vague "info" about each other.............as close as we are..............we are far apart..........we need to do something about this...........Frown
Ducky
Diagnosis: 2/15/2011, IDC, 1cm, Grade 1, 0/10 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 10, 2012 06:32 PM chabba wrote:

Perhaps we could each of us see that at  least a couple of people who frequent  most of the topics we do have a contact phone number for us, our home if there is someone there, a relative or friend who would know for those who live alone? 


Diagnosis: 5/25/2010, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 3, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Mar 10, 2012 07:32 PM grannydukes wrote:

i think a buddy list could be fun and helpful.like pick someone who you like(im sure thats not hard to do) or someone who is kinda new and send them a pm.sistas helpin sistas.Im sure there are some sistas on this thread that do not have anyones phone number or email address.this is so not right.a 1 on 1 basis...you might never use it but its good to have.

WE CARE!!!!!!!and we can have some fun with this too.what does everyone think?


Diagnosis: 4/15/2010, DCIS, 4cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 1/6 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2-

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