Topic: Need to Talk
- Posted on: Jun 12, 2009 09:17 am, edited Jul 24, 2009 11:11 AM by GmaToni
Joined: Jun 2009
Posts: 174
Hello All,
Just reading through all your posts has helped me to at least calm down a little. (?) I was dx'ed just 3 days ago. I am 44, adopted and have been through hell in the last 5 years and now BC !!
My daughter was in an awful MVA and sustained a severe head injury. She was 6 mon pregnant and my first grandson lived only 9 days. The man that hit her hasnt been charged yet and it was a year ago in March. My daughter is a walking miracle. She was NOT supposed to live. I was in a similar accident and fractured my (R) hip, pelvis and numerous ribs. I had to stop working 2 1/2 years ago. My husband was injured at work 2 years ago. The years have been very difficult and my daughter is still recovering. Now this? I am ready to give up. I am a very strong person and realize I have to fight but am so tired of heartache.
So far all I know is the grade of the tumor is lower than they thought. It is small, the size of a pencil eraser and it is IDC w/ hormone involvement. You really do not know how bad it is until the final path report comes after surgery, I imagine. My fear is the same of so many other women here.
I have been through so much that the lower my chances for recurrence, the better I will feel. I am actually considering a mastectomy instead of lumpectomy. It is on my right breast an inch above my nipple. I see the surgeon on tuesday (6/16). then schedule surgery, I guess. My breasts are large and droopy. Size C cup but still heavy. I am so lost, scared, devastated and actually in a little denial. God doesnt give us any more than we can handle? Hmmmm....
I want to see my children grow more and actually hold my next grandchild.
Thanks if even one person listened to my pity party. All of you are strong, beautiful women.
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 15, 2009 11:02 am, edited Jun 15, 2009 11:05 AM
by GmaToni
GmaToni wrote:
Dawn - I did get your email this morning. Thank you so much. Called the doc just now and said "give me some drugs!". So hopefully will help some. Call your doc today. I explained what could have happened w/ your path report. My mom is a poop, but generation has alot to do w/ it. Boy are you in trouble, I am a huge texter ! If you dont like too let me know! No one understands. When my adopted mom (consider her my mom-my birth mom is not my mom) had breast cancer she was in her 60's and had full left mast and took tam for 1 year and she is great. No recur. Her mom died of brain cancer when she was 47 - my mom was 15 I think. She did mean well w/ her comment but...... Dont we all have enough to deal w/ life alone than to add such a terrible disease on top of it? Sharon- You are a peach, I look forward to reading your posts to me each day. Just to take the time touches my heart. All- I am sending caring thoughts and prayers every minute of my day. Hugs to each and everyone of you. Gma - Toni Sharon- I hear ya girl.... Moms....... .. |
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yellowfarmh… Joined: Feb 2005 Posts: 853 |
Jun 15, 2009 11:07 am
yellowfarmhouse wrote:
HI. just wanted to send some cyber hugs your way. you've been through so much. I'm 44 years old and a 4.5 year survivor. You are in the scary time right now. It seemed to get a bit better for me after I and docs figured out treatment plan because then I had a goals to shoot for and treatment to go to. I cried a lot , had so many people praying..... people were ( and are ) so wonderful . This board is an awesome place to be. Got me through many scares. Praying for you to have a good day. blessings, Wendy blessings and love to all my sisters here!
Dx IDC, 3cm, Stage IIIa, Grade 3, 4/9 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+ |
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desdemona22… Joined: Dec 2008 Posts: 557 |
Jun 15, 2009 11:47 am
desdemona222b wrote:
gma - Good morning - good to see you are feeling a little better to day. My best advice at this point is to stay away from the Internet. I did exactly what you're doing and just drove myself NUTSO with it! I know it feels like you've got more control when you read everything you can on the Internet, but at some point it becomes obsessive behavior that just scares you to death. As someone else said, try to take it one day at a time. Easier said than done, though, that is for sure! Dx 11/17/2001, DCIS, <1cm, Stage 0, Grade 3, 0/0 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2+ |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 15, 2009 02:36 pm
GmaToni wrote:
des, wendy and all, Thanks for your continued words of encouragement and hope. Gosh, not sure what Id do w/o you guys. The nurse just called me from the mammo center that I had my xrays and biopsy. She is what they call "a friend" thru this for women. She will go to appts even and take notes and just be there for you when you need her. She will call doc offices even when you are wondering where test results are, ect. I did find out a bit of different info.... The cancer is hormone + not negative which I first thought. Better I guess..... how any of this can be better I dont know so...... Hugs to you all thru your day. Gma Dx 6/9/2009, IDC, <1cm, ER-/PR- |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 15, 2009 10:38 pm
GmaToni wrote:
Well another day gone by. Tomorrow I see my first doc. I dont want to go. Called my primary for some drugs and he wants to see me first. How dare him, doesnt he know Im busy? (jokes) Just wishing for easy right now. Hugs to you all and prayers, Gma |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 16, 2009 07:09 am
Sharon51 wrote:
Hi Gma, with you in spirit today as you go and see your first Doc. who by the way........can likely give you the meds that you made an appt. to see your primary for. Just hang in there as best you can and don't forget your list of questions! Gentle hugs. |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 16, 2009 09:38 am
GmaToni wrote:
Sharon - Thanks so much. Gentle hugs bcak to you. Well guys, I did finally get a call from my birth sister. My birth mom passed away 5 years ago from lung cancer. I was devastated.She was a heavy smoker and had COPD. Just not what I wantrd to hear. Last night was the first time I had a panic attack. Was sleeping fine and woke up in a panic. It was truly awful. I was sure I was not going to beat this and my whole body was riddled w/ cancer. Took bout 20 mins to escape the tight feeling in my chest. I just kept remindind myself what all of you women have been thru. This site and all of you have truly been a gift to me from up above. I dont even remember how I found you all. Just to talk and get it out - mostly getting a response tho - has been my lifeline. I am so scared for today. The good news is we are having some remodeling done today and they will be here - just for the day. By 9 or so. Will have to keep it together for that. HaHa... Please have a wonderful day and my thoughts and prayers are w/ you all, Toni (gma) |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 16, 2009 09:57 am
GmaToni wrote:
Dawn- thats great ! 3:00 ! Ill be getting done while your going. Maybe we'll pass in the hall ?!?! Again, I am so tickled for you and your news. Funny how are stats are almost the same. Just dont have all of mine yet until surgery is done. God Bless you Girl! All of you, that is ! Gma |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 16, 2009 12:15 pm
Sharon51 wrote:
Gma, I'm so sorry you got such upsetting news about your birth mother. I am glad your sister called you back though. And one never knows.......maybe some connection might be made with the two of you through all this mess and uncertainty. The panic attack!! Oh gosh, now that is really awful too. I'd never had one before until last year.......and thankfully just had the one. Interestingly it was when I was supposed to be doing a relaxation exercise........I can tell you (as you well know).........it was so scarey. I thought I couldn't breath........apparently I was still breathing but you sure could have fooled me. I sure hope you ask the Dr. you are seeing today for something for anxiety. Good luck with the drain removal Dawn. For me it was uneventful and fingers crossed it's the very same for you. Gentle hugs all. |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 17, 2009 07:24 am
GmaToni wrote:
Hello Everyone ! Well, I had my 1st doc appt yesterday. Is it wrong of me to think he is really HANDSOME! Good luck, maybe? He is the same doc that saved my daughters life (prob said that but am repeating myself alot lately)Thats how I came to the decision to see him. I just didnt remember how handsome he was. I feel a little embarrassed. UUmmm. Sure, go ahead, feel my foobies ! OK simmer down.... Any hoo, we gotta get a little charge outta all this right? My hubby and daughter went w/ and so did the clinical breast nurse, Nice. I do feel a tad better after going. The lump is very small and he still cant feel it. Grade 2 and hormone +. Waiting for HER hormone results still. Doc was so kind and gave many options. Lumpectomy vs. mastectomy. 6% chance of recur between the two. No family history far as I know. Birth farther had none on his side 20 years ago. Got alot of soul searching to do... I can see the onc as well before surgery if I want to. No further tests need to be done. Just need to really realize this is happening and do some searching and then off I go to fight my battle. Today, so far, my attitude is strong. I will fight this. I will win.(is that the valium talking?) I will make it through this. HEY- what does DH stand for in posting? thought was daughter but now I think its husband. Which is it or am I way off? I am sending much love out to you all today. The more we give the better we feel and the answers to our thoughts and prayers poor in. +++HUGS+++ Gma |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 17, 2009 07:40 am
Sharon51 wrote:
Gma, a Dr. with beauty and brains........all the better. Glad you got something to help you cope with all the anxiety that goes along with this stuff. DH is darling hubby (husband). DD is darling daughter. Enjoy the feeling better moments. Gentle hugs. |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 17, 2009 07:26 pm
GmaToni wrote:
Sharon - so nice to hesr from you every morning ! Sure keeps a girl goin'. Dawn- You keep me in such good spirits ! Always nice to talk to you, missy! Goodevening everyone!!!! Should I be moving into another forum now? My surgery isnt scheduled yet and I still need to "TALK" but I dont want to take up precious space for those of you that are just being diagnosed and really depend on people responding right away in this "Just Diagnosed Section". Well Ill say a few words anyway. Today I pretended I didnt have cancer. Has anyone done that? I did take a small amount of drugs in order to do this but today was my denial day. Unfortunately all the thoughts are rushing back in now. I have so many concerns and questions about type of surgery, see an onc first, why no more tests. How did everyone come to a decision. I know iy has to be right for me and I need to soul search... AND my appt with the first doc was just yesterday.... but all of you are so knowledgeable..Let me know if I need to move ok? Or tomorrow I will type my heart out right here!! Hugs to you all, Gma |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 18, 2009 06:46 am
Sharon51 wrote:
Gma, you go to any forum you'd like........as time goes by you may find yourself migrating towards other topics. But by all means.........keep typing here or wherever you want. I don't think I had a 'denial' day for myself. But now that you mention it, it sounds like not a bad idea at all. Whatever works. I used anti anxiety meds. Lots here do. Continue to write down your questions as you think of them. I hope today is kind to you. Gentle hugs. |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 21, 2009 09:46 am
GmaToni wrote:
HEY Everyone, Checked out for awhile Emotionally- been a few bad days. I wish I could just pool all of you together to help me find a solution to what kind of surgery I want. I know its mine to decide and my body but... this has been so stessful and so scary. Im scared the cancer is all over my body (mets) and sometimes I cant get it outta my head. then the next minute Im telling myself, just take it one day at a time. There is nothing you can do but pray about it and the answers will come. When it was time to make a decision to pull life support from my beautiful grandson, just over a year ago, I prayed and prayed about it and the answer came. In fact, the day we were terminating life support, my lttle one decided to go home on his own. His kidneys shut down and there was no brain activity. I think he knew it was going to be difficult for me to live w/ Did I do the right thing?" This decision for me is just not coming. Its there 99% of the time then gone. I will be doing the surgery after the 4th of July, first available and its only 4-5 weeks post-dx. Do you know some women go on vacation and then come home and have surgery? (if in the summer) Arent they afraid there would be node involvement by then? Or doesnt it work that way. I am starting to sound like an idiot now! Take Care and Hugs- GMA |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 21, 2009 10:58 am
Sharon51 wrote:
Good post Dawn. Toni, I'm so sorry you are in such turmoil..........and that's when you need to come to the boards for support. I had a single mod. rad. mast..........and have not regretted it. (1/14 pos. node.) To be honest, I never even asked if I could of have a lumpectomy. Didn't do recon either but the remaining breast is small. As one of my old neighbours said when I was feeling self conscious shortly after surgery........."it's not like people had been going around saying hey look at the boobs on Sharon. It's more like.........does Sharon have boobs?" That made me laugh and after that I went out less covered in layers trying to conceal things. Anyway, I digress. Sending you prayers for strength and gentle hugs. One step at a time. And take some deep breaths. |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 21, 2009 01:27 pm
Sharon51 wrote:
Dawn, what a sweet thing to say. I think you express yourself very well. I think we all do when we really feel passion. And sometimes when we feel so much passion........it's difficult to express it. How's that for NOT making sense? Both you and Toni have a road ahead but many here have travelled this road and will help you find your way. Gentle hugs. |
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my3girls Joined: Nov 2007 Posts: 3,493 |
Jun 21, 2009 02:33 pm, edited Jun 21, 2009 02:38 PM
by my3girls
my3girls wrote:
GMA, I just read your post. I see you have some wonderful ladies here to support you! This website is such a great place to be, esp. for the newly diagnosed. I had to respond..because I was in such awe...at how strong you are, inspite of all of the trials and hardship you have endured!! You are an inspiration! I can't imagine the pain of losing your grandson, and also dealing with the severity of your daughters injuries...and then now this! I also was moved that you are adopted. I think adoption is such a gift..not only to the parents..but to the children that have a loving home to grow up in. I speak from a personal experience. My daughter had a baby at 17. She was scared to death...but she was not ready to be a parent. Being a single mom myself, I was more than willing to help raise him...but I knew that this was HER decision. She really wanted a good life for her son, and wanted to go to college. So, she did the most selfless act..and gave him up for adoption. It was so difficult on everyone, but we knew it was the best thing for him. The upside of this story...he is now 4 1/2..and it was an open adoption with loving WONDERFUL family...who make us a part of his everyday life!! It's the best of both worlds..and we feel very blessed. Just had to share that with you. It sounds like your tumor is very operable for a lumpectomy. Mine was in about the same area of yours, except the opposite breast. I had 8 rounds of chemo first because mine was much larger, and they wanted to shrink it first. It did shrink some, then the lumpectomy was done. The margins were not clear, so another was in order, that or a mastectomy. I opted for the mx..because of the way my breast would have been left. I also am busty..a full C small D. I had the mx in Oct. 07, and then reconstruction in Feb. 08. I wish you all the best in your decisions. This is by far the hardest part of the BC journey...where you are now...learning, finding out..and the worst part...WAITING. Come here often...vent..ask questions..etc....it will help you so much with dealing of your thoughts and emotions..which are all very normal. Will you have to have chemo treatment or radiation? Do you know any of that yet? I am 2 years out from dx...and...feeling great...you too will be doing the same. Gentle hugs to you!! I am in awe of your strength!! Lisa Worry is for "shit"! Live, Laugh, Love! //unilateral mast//reconst. 2/4/08
Dx 3/6/2007, IDC, 3cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 0/22 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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dlb823 Joined: Aug 2008 Posts: 2,055 |
Jun 21, 2009 03:25 pm
dlb823 wrote:
Hi, GMA ~ You already have wonderful support here, but I just wanted to add a thought I had after reading your most recent post. You mentioned praying for an answer -- which I firmly believe in. But I also believe that sometimes prayer is answered by people who give us that one kernel of knowledge we're seeking -- that one bit of "missing" information that makes the answer clear for us, so that we suddenly know what we're going to do and can be at peace with our decision. So, I just want to encourage you to keep talking to people -- the women here, possibly a second opinion doctor, your spouse, etc... -- because I feel that you are possibly missing some bit of information that will help you reach a decision. In my case, for example, after I'd had a lumpectomy that showed some additional problems that ideally needed to be addressed with a mast., I was miserable trying to get my head around that possibility. Then I saw breast reconstruction photos and realized a reconstructed breast didn't look bad at all -- in fact, they looked amazingly normal. The same with deciding about uni or bi-lat mast. At some point, I had a realization about nipple sensation being more important to me than the fear of developing bc in my other breast. And similar things happened when I was deciding about chemo and rads -- both of which I had a very hard time agreeing to do because they seemed so against the natural lifestyle I've always lived. But at some point, someone gave me information I hadn't heard, or an analogy or a story that made the lightbulb go on for me. And that's one reason this board is so invaluable -- because it gives us a chance to hear from hundreds of women who all have something unique to contribute. As far as someone going on vacation before they have their surgery, I think the option to do that depends a lot on the type of bc you have. With non-aggressive in situ bc, it can't move to a lymph node. On the other hand, a woman dx'd with a more aggressive bc -- even though it's been there for many years to become large enough to be discovered -- probably shouldn't wait an extra three months. So I think the answer is to take the time you need -- but not more than you absolutely have to -- if that makes sense. God bless you, and I'm sure you will also reach a decision that you know is the right one for you. Deanna "The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears" Native American proverb
Dx 2/1/2008, 1cm, Stage IIa, Grade 3, 1/16 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 21, 2009 05:11 pm
GmaToni wrote:
Hi Girls - Sharon and Dawn, you are truly bright lights in my life. Your encouragement is enlightening and keeps me strong (as much as I can be right now) You were the 2 first ladies I met and I cant tell you what it means to me that you continue to post me. my3girls, What a beautiful story of your daughter and the child she gave to a loving family.God bless her. I do not know where I would have ended up if my birth mother would not have placed me w/ loving parents. She became pregnant again within 3 mos of my birth and kept that child. She (B mom) had a difficult life. I am also a C /sml D cup and I am leaning toward MX. If I dont do reconstruct I may lean a little.!.! LOL ! I need to do more research. Yes, w/ MX I would do chemo but no rads. W/ lumpect, rads and chemo. Any more suggestions? Deanna - Nice to speak w/ you again. I do try to find answers but end up reading others posts that scare me. Sissy girl I am. So to get such a nice post from you was uplifting. As I mentioned above, I am leaning towards MX on the right and need to do some research for reconstruct. Any more suggestions or stories you have heard I will welcome them w/ open arms. I need to get my mind in gear and face this one thing - I have BC ! I will continue to keep my mind open and look for that message I need. Gentle Hugs and Love to You All- Toni |
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hollyann Joined: Nov 2007 Posts: 2,391 |
Jun 21, 2009 06:10 pm
hollyann wrote:
Toni, what a courageous woman you are!.....WOW you are so lucky you had 2 moms who really cared about you.....I am so sorry you didn't get to see your birth mom just one more time though......You certainly have a lot of support here..I just found this thread.....Sorry I didn't see it sooner..... I remember when I was dx..I was a total mess but not as bad as when my older sister was dx 5 months before me......I became an insomniac especially after we lost a different sister to bc 4 months before my dx.....(I know it's confusing)....But anyway, I was such a wreck I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, and when I did sleep I would bolt straight up in bed in the middle of the night with panic attacks......I kinda settled down after my own diagnosis (dx) because I knew in my heart that I had bc more than a year before but just refused to have my mammo.....I was dx 4 days after my 43rd birthday........My PCP sent me to a breastr specialist after I told her about my sisters.....I had had an MRI on December 15th of 2006 after my mammo came back suspicious.......Because fo the hlidays of course I didn't hear anything back til January 14th....My breast specialist said I needed a core needle biopsy which I had the next day and then the day after that (the 15th) she called me at home and told me those 4 awful words..You have breasst cancer.....I was stunned but not surprised....... Because of my family history I elected to do a bilat mast...And because I had enough stomach fat I did an immediate TRAM reconstruction on both breasts...It was an 8 1/2 to 9 1/2 hour surgery but well worth it..I was in the hospital for 4 days....2 more than required because of fever........I was out of work for 2 months........... Hugs and love, Lucy
Dx 1/15/2007, IDC, 1cm, Stage Ib, Grade 1, 0/6 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 22, 2009 08:48 am, edited Jun 22, 2009 08:51 AM
by GmaToni
GmaToni wrote:
Goodmorning Everyone- Lucy- Thanks for the sweet story honey and bless your family. You have been thru so very much. I dont have any history of BC so my surgeon suggested that having a bilat MX woukd be too much surgery for me to endure. I am leaning toward uni MX (right) just due to stress that we have gonee thru and maybe I will have less chance of recur for a longer period of time. I just need to start thinking of reconstrct. Any more stories you can send my way would be great! ++hugs++ Yes, I am leaning towards MX more than ever now w/ reconstruct. Would have to have both sides done tho cuz of huge big boobies.Never evr liked my boobies. I think I would be alright w/ no reconstruct but again "big left boobie would be left". Already have so many medical conditions, would cause more pain than I need.The Lumpect sounds easier but the fear of recur would send me to the funny farm and the whole rad bit sounds terrible. If our "heartache and tragedy" occurences in the past 5 years would not have happened, I think I would be able to "maybe" not be so scared of the future ?!? I am better today and back in my battle mode. Knowing Im going to be strong and am strong to deal w/ this. Knowing I will survive. Just knowing all you strong beautiful women has made me realize that we are many. Many that will go on living and thriving and enjoying life. Its a pleasure to hear from you all and I think of you everyday. God Bless. Toni Edited to Add: Good morning Dawn and Sharon - the two women in my life that probably want to "choke" me with all my blabbering nonsense. I am doing a good job whining though, right? Have a beautiful day! |
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my3girls Joined: Nov 2007 Posts: 3,493 |
Jun 22, 2009 09:10 am, edited Jun 22, 2009 09:12 AM
by my3girls
my3girls wrote:
Toni.. You are sounding stronger and more positive everyday!! I am very proud of my daughter and her decision. I will see my grandson on Saturday. I am having a huge party at my house for my youngest daughters graduation..and they are coming! Of course grandma has t-shirts for 4th of july and bubbles for them. (He has a 7yr old brother...that is also my surrogate grandson)! Love them both! When it comes to reconstruction....there are lots of options you can explore. Depending on what plastic surgeon you find, and what type of surgery he will do. Lot's of women on here have had the DIEP it's a surgery that uses your stomach, but spares the stomach muscle. I didn't have that..I had the TRAM FLAP, my ps, doesn't do them, for reasons of his own. I am truly thrilled beyond belief with my outcome! My foob looks so real!! He also did a lift and a reduction on my good side. So that is something you can do as well. Do you have enough tummy fat to make a foob? Being a single woman, I wanted reconstruction to feel whole again...and maybe someday find that special man! lol My dx is very simular to yours. Did you say yours was er/pr positive? I had the chemo, but after mx..no rads needed. However if I had opted for the lumpectomy..I would have had rads. Enjoy your day...stay strong! xoxo Lisa Worry is for "shit"! Live, Laugh, Love! //unilateral mast//reconst. 2/4/08
Dx 3/6/2007, IDC, 3cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 0/22 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 22, 2009 09:59 am
GmaToni wrote:
Dawn - OMG...I can see you and Mollie. Good thing people dont drop food around me while Im sleeping. I would be even heavier. Hence-Lisa-Yes, I do have an xtra 50 lbs on me so plenty of belly fat! Wish I could be there w/ ya Dawn. I know..... Ill just forget about all this BC nonsense. Its taking up so much time anyway ! LOL ! Again, thinking of you today. Lisa- Yes, am ER/PR +. Oh enjoy your babies they grow so fast. My little grandson would be a litle over a year by now. Thats his pic for my avatar. He had passed away by then and they have this nice service called "now I lay me down to sleep" at the hospital. They take pics of your loved ones after all the tubes, ect are off. Just wish i had a pic w/ him and his mommy together but she was in a coma when he passed. Love and hugs to all Toni - the undecided one |
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hollyann Joined: Nov 2007 Posts: 2,391 |
Jun 22, 2009 10:11 am, edited Jun 22, 2009 10:14 AM
by hollyann
hollyann wrote:
Dawn I am In Alpharetta maybe we can plan a get together to help kill time til the family is home...... Toni......So glad to see you feeling better today!....Toni, how old are you?...I am 45 and was 43 when dx......I too have my down days and whine like the dickens!.....We all have earned that right!....... Oh Toni, how sad!....That is one beautiful baby!....Now he is an angel and playing with the other children......My best friend lost her son in the ninth month of her pregnancy due to him having an enlarged heart from her contracting measles her first tri mester......Her doctors kept telling her it was jusr a rash!.....I TOLD her it was measles but she just wouldn't listen....I was with her when her son Kevin died in utero and it was so sad........ I hope all you sweet ladies have a great day!......... Hugs and love, Lucy
Dx 1/15/2007, IDC, 1cm, Stage Ib, Grade 1, 0/6 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 23, 2009 06:36 am
Sharon51 wrote:
Good morning Toni. Just checking in to see how things are going. I remember trying to keep busy and it was difficult but I guess I just went through the motions with a lot of push from family and friends. It helped. Sweet avatar Gma. Toni, Dawn, gentle hugs to you both. Gentle hugs to all. |
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 23, 2009 12:52 pm
GmaToni wrote:
Dawn - Oh where oh where has my little Dawn gone, oh where oh where could she be ? Miss ya babe! I know you are very busy but keep in mind that you are always on my mind ! Love you dearly. Sharon - I will take your gentle hugs and will give you some too! Good morning to you as well. Although it is afternoon there now? Thank you for my avatar comment. I feel he will give me the strength I need to get throught this. The day he passed, my DD (his mommy) started to breathe on her own w/ the respirator. Miracles all around us. Always, Gma |
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my3girls Joined: Nov 2007 Posts: 3,493 |
Jun 23, 2009 03:21 pm
my3girls wrote:
Toni...that is the absolute dearest picture ever! I am sure you will cherish it always. That had to be so heart wrenching...I can't imagine. Having your daughter breathe on your own the same day her son passed...is truly God's doing. Hope you are doing well today. xoxo Lisa Worry is for "shit"! Live, Laugh, Love! //unilateral mast//reconst. 2/4/08
Dx 3/6/2007, IDC, 3cm, Stage II, Grade 2, 0/22 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 9,508 |
Jun 23, 2009 05:12 pm
Sharon51 wrote:
Hey Dawn. |
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happytobeal… Joined: May 2009 Posts: 21 |
Jun 23, 2009 05:22 pm
happytobealive wrote:
Sorry to hear about your cancer. I too have stage one cancer. I assume that's what you have? I've been doing a lot of reading and I had a lumpectomy and will be following up with radiation. From what I've read from creditable sources is that it's just as affective as having both breast removed. Once they're gone they're gone but reconstructive surgery is also an option. I can't say I would have ruled it out if I had children. I wish you the very best. Talk to the women on this site. I'm just a newbie and like I said I don't have any children. Take each day one day at a time. I've slowed it down a bit myself. When I start projecting I catch it fast and I say to myself. NO! Stay in the day! That old saying rings true. "Today is a gift, that's why it's called the Present" Take a deep breath, stop and smell the roses today, tomorrow and all the days after. Hugggggggggggggggggggggggggs Angela Angela
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GmaToni Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 174 |
Jun 23, 2009 06:22 pm
GmaToni wrote:
happytobealive- I am unsure of my stage, no surgery yet. Grade 2 canser (yes, ladies, I spelled it wrong and I love it) >1cm and hormone +. Surgery July 6th week for me. Life is most definetely a present. Ive been blessed w/ so many wonderful things and people in my life. So have you. Thank you for your post and the wonderful book suggestions youve given on the other board. Welcome, please come and talk anytime. Dawn-Sorry your DH left today. I have been thinking of you all day and just knew it was a hard day for you. Kids be home soon and hubby, seems long but boy the waiting you ahve already done was so hard...A Merlotte's t-shirt? I am jealous. Yesterday I bought a new nightstand for my apnea machine and all my"shit"! Sorry, dont mean to offend anyone. STRONG personality! So good to hear from you and yes I was singing. No I dont have any food. Could it be cuz I keep buying stuff for myself? I dont care, never have in my life so why not start. Runnnnn Forrest, Runnnnn...... Holly, Lisa - Love talking w/ you, dont stop! Sweet hugs- Toni |
