Topic: Need to Talk

Hello All,

Just reading through all your posts has helped me to at least calm down a little. (?) I was dx'ed just 3 days ago. I am 44, adopted and have been through hell in the last 5 years and now BC !!

My daughter was in an awful MVA and sustained a severe head injury. She was 6 mon pregnant and my first grandson lived only 9 days. The man that hit her hasnt been charged yet and it was a year ago in March. My daughter is a walking miracle. She was NOT supposed to live. I was in a similar accident and fractured my (R) hip, pelvis and numerous ribs. I had to stop working 2 1/2 years ago. My husband was injured at work 2 years ago. The years have been very difficult and my daughter is still recovering. Now this? I am ready to give up. I am a very strong person and realize I have to fight but am so tired of heartache.

So far all I know is the grade of the tumor is lower than they thought. It is small, the size of a pencil eraser and it is IDC w/ hormone involvement. You really do not know how bad it is until the final path report comes after surgery, I imagine. My fear is the same of so many other women here.

I have been through so much that the lower my chances for recurrence, the better I will feel. I am actually considering a mastectomy instead of lumpectomy. It is on my right breast an inch above my nipple. I see the surgeon on tuesday (6/16). then schedule surgery, I guess. My breasts are large and droopy. Size C cup but still heavy. I am so lost, scared, devastated and actually in a little denial. God doesnt give us any more than we can handle? Hmmmm....

I want to see my children grow more and actually hold my next grandchild.

Thanks if even one person listened to my pity party. All of you are strong, beautiful women.