You would think I'd get used to this. This will be my 5th biopsy within one year. Last year, calcs lead to stereo which diagnosed ADH. That lead to an excisional and wire biopsy. B9. Due to high risk ( mom had bc, adh) I am on a 6 mos. mri/mammo schedule.
Mri in May lead to a MRI guided biopsy due to a suspicious area. B9. My mammo on tuesday showed two new clusters of calcs. All I could do is cry. Stereo. biopsy tommorrow. This anxiety is just killing me. I couldn't get out of bed today. Took a xanax and pulled the covers over my head. I feel foolish when I see what these other brave woman are going through, but I have such severe health anxiety and this is putting me over the edge.
My surgeon said the worse it could be dcis. My heart is constantly racing and hands shaking.
I really thought because my mri was good, this mammo would be fine. Maybe these calcs are from my excisional biopsy because they are near that site? They are clustered and i think birads 4.
Thanks for letting me vent. I have no one to talk to.
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covertanjou
Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 153 |
Nov 5, 2009 04:03 pm
covertanjou wrote:
Shabby, I am so sorry you are going through this. You're right: it is awful that you have to keep having biopsy after biopsy. The stress involved in that is horrible! The good news is that all your other biopsies have been B9. I hope this one is too. Know that you can vent here anytime. Mary Diagnosis: LCIS, Stage 0 |
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ICanDoThis Joined: Apr 2008 Posts: 822 |
Nov 5, 2009 04:03 pm
ICanDoThis wrote:
I am so sorry you are going through this. If I were you, I would be certifiable. Please, vent all you like, and let us know how the biopsy goes. Does your doctor know that this is making you nuts? Sue - Proud to be Krista's Mom
Diagnosis: 12/28/2007, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 1, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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cookiegal Joined: Sep 2009 Posts: 326 |
Nov 5, 2009 04:08 pm
cookiegal wrote:
I have friends who have had numerous biopsies, and it is stressful, a whole different type of stress. The worst days I went through were waiting for my biopsy results. But the fact your doctor says the worst it could be is dcis, is encouraging. Good luck!!! |
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HKitty71 Joined: Apr 2008 Posts: 138 |
Nov 5, 2009 04:11 pm
HKitty71 wrote:
It is alright to be a mess and freaked out. To have to keep going back for biopsies is a pain in the butt and the constant stress just wears a body and mind out. It is the constant not knowing that drives us all nuts. Remember we are all here and have been where you are and if you have hard time getting people in your life to understand how you feel remember that everyone on this board has been where you are. Amy Diagnosis: 4/3/2008, IDC, 2cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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g94u67 Joined: Jun 2008 Posts: 311 |
Nov 5, 2009 05:07 pm
g94u67 wrote:
Hi Shabby, I can totally understand about being freaked out and "a mess"! I've been struck w/recurrence and am going through TX again myself and while it does get a little easier to swallow the anxiety and worry never go away. All I can say is that praying, reading my bible and the fellowship here have been a tremendous comfort. Worrying doesn't get us anywhere though so try and stay busy with other projects and I must say, stay off the boards a little while because they can surely freak you out. All the best to you and yes keep us posted! Prayers & Hugs, Jeannine Live, Laugh, Love and Keep Smiling`I may have cancer, but it doesn't have me
Diagnosis: 7/2/2008, IDC, 2cm, Stage IIIa, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2- |
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shabby6485 Joined: Apr 2008 Posts: 201 |
Nov 5, 2009 05:33 pm, edited Nov 5, 2009 05:37 PM
by shabby6485
shabby6485 wrote:
Thank you all so much for responding to me. I know you guys know how this waiting feels. I also feel like a cry baby when others like (Jeannine, hkitty, i can do this, suzny) are going through so much more than I. I will pray for everyone on this board. |
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barb3246 Joined: Aug 2008 Posts: 86 |
Nov 6, 2009 08:55 am
barb3246 wrote:
Good luck today Shabby! I know you'll be fine. PM me if you need to talk. |
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leftyAKAnan
Joined: May 2008 Posts: 2,871 |
Nov 6, 2009 09:16 am
leftyAKAnancy wrote:
Gentle Hugs and good vibes going your way, dear shabby. I am 63 yrs old and have had several biopsies and aspirations in the past (before I was dx). Each time I was a total mess and the waiting is worst than torture. Yesterday I had a 6 month follow up mammogram and I was wringing wet the fear. Fortunately, I was given the all clear and come back in a year (unless I feel something). Your body can take a lot, but your mind needs to process the information. Fear, anxiety, crying jabs, anger and frustration are expected and normal (if there is such a thing). Write our names on a piece of paper and carry with you. We are here to lean on and know we care and we understand. Nancy Diagnosis: 5/2/2008, IDC, 6cm+, Stage IIa, Grade 3, 0/3 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2+ |
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chele Joined: Oct 2009 Posts: 53 |
Nov 6, 2009 09:17 am
chele wrote:
I'm so sorry you're having to go through this! Diagnosis: 11/2/2009, IDC, 1cm, Grade 2, ER+/PR+ |
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adrienne2 Joined: Nov 2009 Posts: 32 |
Nov 6, 2009 10:42 am
adrienne2 wrote:
Hello Shabby,
Now, I'm not always successful in doing this ![]() I wish you the best results, Shabby. Hang in there. adrienne |
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Cynbatt Joined: Jun 2009 Posts: 40 |
Nov 6, 2009 03:38 pm
Cynbatt wrote:
Adrienne -- that is really excellent advice. I'm scheduled for bilateral imaging next Thursday and the waiting is driving me nuts. Thanks for the wise words. |
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adrienne2 Joined: Nov 2009 Posts: 32 |
Nov 7, 2009 07:25 pm
adrienne2 wrote:
Cynbatt, I hope your test results are the best possible. Until then, do something fun, and get plenty of exercise -- it will help distract you. My results were the best they could be: the MRI showed nothing visible in either breast except the lump we already knew about, and it showed nothing in the lymph nodes. I'm having a wide excision and a sentinel node biopsy on Tuesday. Now, if I can just get good results from those procedures, I'll be a very happy camper. Then I can start worrying about follow-up treatments :) Best of luck to you, adrienne Diagnosis: 10/21/2009, DCIS, Grade 2 |
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shabby6485 Joined: Apr 2008 Posts: 201 |
Nov 7, 2009 08:30 pm
shabby6485 wrote:
thank you to all of you! i look so forward to replies. i will pray for each of you. |
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