Posted on: Jun 7, 2012 07:47 AM
I was wondering if anyone else feels overwhelmed much more easily than prior to all of this. I am heading toward 5 years, but I find that I can't sleep and I worry about everything (kids gradesm dog's food, guinea pig's water, kid's sports, firends) all of the time. Before this I could let things go, but now I am easily brought to panic and lose a lot of night's sleep. I hate to go to bed because I know my head will start racing as soon as I lay down. I guess I am just looking for confirmation that I am not crazy.
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Jun 7, 2012 03:22 PM everyminute wrote:
I get overwhelmed sometimes, I did before diagnosis too and then I went through a period of time that all I could worry about was cancer related issues, now I am back to my general worry and stress of trying to control the world. It helps when I sit back and realize that during the time where I stopped trying to control everything - everything worked out ok, some things even better.
So I make a list in my head, if I can't sleep I will actually jot them all down on paper or on my iphone and then try to let them go.
We really should try to meet up when I am down in DC (maybe August?)
Jun 7, 2012 04:27 PM Celtic_Spirit wrote:
Actually, I feel less overwhelmed than I use to. There's something about opening a can of whup-azz on the Grim Reaper and living to tell the tale that's extremely liberating. I spent six months wondering if the cancer had spread to my liver (the followup CT scan confirmed it hadn't); the car needing a new clutch, the cat vomiting on the carpet, someone at work being an a-hole...these are but tiny grains of sand compared to the boulder I overcame.
Jun 7, 2012 07:37 PM mary625 wrote:
YESSSS!!!!!! I think about this all the time--how overwhelmed I feel. I feel that my mind is so stressed and tired by the treatment and is not quite up to the task of balancing everything I used to balance. Now, I've added a new role--cancer survivor--and everything that comes with that like exercise and diet requirements, doctor appointments, etc. But none of the other roles have gone away or lessened. I often don't know how I'm going to do it and sometimes just shut down. I am working with a therapist who has identified stress and is treating that. She says I have adjustment disorder--too much to adjust to, in my words. I don't know if I have anxiety or PTSD. However, I know that if my father-in-law, who was just placed in palliative care, dies, I'm taking my leftover Ativans. That seems to go along with anxiety.
Jun 8, 2012 08:10 AM SpunkyGirl wrote:
(((Hugs, DC Mom))),
I think if it's keeping you up at night, there's no shame in seeing someone that can help you. It's so much harder to deal with the demands of this world if you haven't gotten a good night's sleep. I'm so thrilled for you that five years is right around the corner. I hope that you can get some help on this so that you can get some sleep and get away from worry.
You and I never did catch up, and I'd love to see you. Let me know when you and the kids are available for a weekend, and I'd love to have you up here.
Jun 8, 2012 02:18 PM DCMom wrote:
Thank you so much for reminding me that I am not alone in my insanity. I took an ambien to sleep last night and wow what a good night's sleep is worth. Went for a 4 mile run with my husband and felt great doing it with kids on bike. It's not that I always feel overwhelmed I just feel like when there is a stressor....Oh my I just can't get passed it the way I used to.
I'm training right now to do the Run Amuck at Quantico with my kids. We're doing a couch to 5K training for them (although we started at week 3). I'm really looking forward to it. Thank you all so much for being here for the occasional panic venting.
Bobbie, Mary, and Kerry- Three people I have been inspired by all the way along! Thanks for the encouragement during my meltdown. I would love to meet up with you all! Our summer is kicking into high gear with summer sports camps, but we need to make a visit happen. Funny Mary sometimes when I run Burke Lake I even watch for you since you once said you ran there. August it is so once you know your schedule just pick the day and we can make it happen.
Kerry- I can't believe you are the marathon woman! Wow...it's all I can say...Wow
Jun 8, 2012 08:11 PM mary625 wrote:
DCMom--I don't run, but I am a hop, skip and jump away from Burke Lake Park! If you ever want to meet up, PM me.
Jul 16, 2012 02:25 PM shelly56 wrote:
It's no wonder the oncs and surgeons and radiologists don't want to talk "future prognosis" with anyone !! Have had two friends in the last month have recurrent BC, one now is in her spine, one now in hip bones. This sucks and I mean REALLY ! One DX was not as severe as the other friend but the second friend's DX is almost carbon copy of mine. Am 3 years out but I keep asking when am I going to get over this hill?? When I hear about recurrence rate is 1 in 4, I'm thinking more like 2 in 4 maybe.
What strategies do you do to keep this from overwhelming your thoughts?