I have an appointment to get 3d nipple tattoos on August 3. I had a double mastectomy without reconstruction. My 'close' was quite good. My chest is pretty darned flat. I have a slight hersheys kiss on the inside of the right scar, but I like it. It seems to be flattening out by the day and if it stays as a kiss, I am OK with this.
Last month my Man and I went to a yoga retreat center that we have gone to several times over the last few years. They have a whirlpool, that I have loved and is the big draw, beside the yoga and food. I never wore a suit before, so I made a point of not wearing a suit now. Needless to say, when I entered the pool and dropped my towel, the room went silent. Two nights in a row. Laughing, talking, I enter...crickets. I am not really one to recite an autobiography like, 'I am a cancer survivor and this is my decision, I feel comfortable with it and hope you do too'. So that was really difficult.
I came home, made an appointment to have nipples tattooed and here I am.
Now? I don't know.
Visually, I think it will be soothing to have the look of a normal body. Everyone has nipples.
But then, I am flat. I do not look like I have breasts, I don't. I have scars, my unaffected side is still red, which will fade and become skin colored, but scars. Nipples on top of scars?
Vinnie Myers (the tattoist I have the appointment with) has one double mastectomy without reconstruction in his portfolio: vinniemyers.com/artwork/205832...
Her scars are more red than mine and her surgery not as flat.
Last week I was in a restaurant and I leaned forward, revealing my chest. I caught the eye of a man as he saw. In this scenario, I think having nipples would sooth me.
So to nipple or not to nipple. should I go for it? I am an artist and the visual is important to me, but I also think embracing my new form could mean not suggesting nipples and not caring what other people see and how they react.
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