When I felt a pea sized lump in my left breast sometime ago, it didn't register in my (pea sized) brain that it needed to be checked! Why didn't I visit the doctor ages ago? I felt the lump again thursday night whilst having a good grope after removing my bra...what a relief (when you take your bra off, not finding the lump) :-)
This time was different though, after I felt and prodded, I was left with a noticable ache, it wasn't painful but it felt strange, I can't explain the feeling I had for the rest of that evening. I went to see my nurse yesterday who felt the lump too and said I ought to see the doctor. I saw him in the afternoon, he has given me the number of the breast clinic, I have to phone them monday for an appointment and will be seen within two weeks.
What I'm concerned about is I've had an itchy nipple for some months and put that down to the detergents I wash my clothes in and when I squeezed my nipple sometime ago, a clear liquid came out. I thought this was down to breast feeding which I might add, I stopped 15 years ago? why have I been so bloody ignorant, I'm 39 years old and I'm the first one to tell people to get checked if they're worried about their health. I'm really worried now, I didn't ignore the lump, It just didn't enter my head what it could be. I feel really foolish and am hoping and praying it's just a cyst. My breast feels odd today, not to touch but just weird, like a very faint burning sensation inside. I think I'm being paranoid and it's just on my mind because I know there is a lump there now, but when I look back at the changes I've had over the months, I'm thinking how stupid I have been for not doing something about it sooner. All sorts of things have been going through my head today and I'm feeling really anxious.I wondered if anyone else experienced the changes I have? I'd appreciate any reply, just don't be cross at me for being so dumb. Thank you.
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somanywomen
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Feb 6, 2010 08:07 am
somanywomen wrote:
Sammie39, You are certainly not dumb, I think we all feel as though we should have done something sooner....But What???...Most of us found our bumps and went about our daily lives and then said oh yeah, maybe I should have that checked....We have all heard that most will turn out benign and hopefully yours will be in that group!!...I think that living in the U.S., that there is not enough daily INYOURFACE preventative information about BC...Yes, we hear about how important it is to get our yearly mammo (those over 40 at least), but why isn't there more abrubt statistics of the rising number of women of all ages facing BC...It is terrible that the U.S. is one of the top countries with more BC per capita and word is just not getting out to those of us that may have acted sooner if we had had those statistics put in our lives on a more agressive campaign...Good luck "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans", John Lennon
Diagnosis: 9/28/2009, IDC, 1cm, Stage Ib, Grade 1, 0/2 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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AnnaM Joined: Oct 2005 Posts: 1,768 |
Feb 6, 2010 08:12 am
AnnaM wrote:
Nobody could possibly be cross with you, Sammie, and you are certainly not dumb. I did not feel any of what you are describing, but I do know the mind can play tricks on you. It's a good thing you went to see your doctor. Ask if they can schedule you as soon as possible when you talk to the people at the breast center. Be honest with them and tell them about your fears. Waiting is always the worst part. I hope you get very good news, and soon. I'll be coming back to your thread to hear from you. Know you are not alone. Anna Bilat. MX 9/2005, 0/9 nodes and 2/2 nodes; IDC, <1cm, Stage IIb, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+; 4x A/C, 4x Taxol and 1 yr. weekly Herceptin
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Lisa1962 Joined: Sep 2009 Posts: 314 |
Feb 6, 2010 01:14 pm
Lisa1962 wrote:
Sammie39, I'm so sorry that you are having this worry, but I so agree with somanywomen & AnnaM---all of us find things with our bodies at times, think it's going to go away, and sort of forget about it until it grabs our attention again! I am with AnnaM---when you call the Breast Center on Monday, be sure to mention the itchy nipple, as well as the discharge that came from it, along with your lump---They may very well be able to get you in sooner. Just to give you some positive thoughts---I had a 3 week breast scare back in the fall---had digital yearly mammo, called back for magnified mammo, then had breast MRI, then MRI guided breast biopsy. The Breast Center that coordinated everything was great about getting me in quickly for all of the testing---They understand the worry that comes with all of the uncertainty! After 3 weeks of sitting on pins & needles, I got a B9 diagnosis---B9 fibroadenoma---the lump was very deep in my chest wall, and I could not feel it---it only showed up on the testing. Please don't blame yourself---you are taking care of this now---when we know better, we do better. I will be thinking of you, and hoping & praying for only B9 results! Please keep us posted here......Sending B9 wishes, Lisa |
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 7, 2010 06:25 am
Sammie39 wrote:
Thank you somanywomen, I'm shocked to read that the U.S doesn't seem to advertise the importance of checking and testing. In the UK, there are charities and campaigns to support and help fight BC all the time. Your story surprises me because there are times when people who have a serious illness in the UK, can be sent to the US for life saving treatment that they don't have here. It's a funny old world. Thank you for your reply somanywomen and wishes of Good Luck. I am already saying the John Lennon quote to myself. Thank you! |
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 7, 2010 06:32 am
Sammie39 wrote:
Anna, I appreciate your words of support, thank you. It's been a very long weekend and I have been getting upset, especially at bedtime, though not in front of my 15 year old son. I've never looked forward to making a phonecall as much as I am this one tomorrow morning. I know that sounds a bit silly but I have become increasingly anxious since friday and am desperate to get things moving. I will take your advice and hopefully I won't have to wait another two weeks for an appointment. I will be back with good news, fingers crossed. Thank you again Anna. |
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 7, 2010 06:49 am, edited Feb 7, 2010 06:57 AM
by Sammie39
Sammie39 wrote:
Thank you for your reply Lisa. I hope you are feeling well. I don't understand B9, though I'm sure this will all become clearer when I go to the clinic. I have been having discomfort since last night. It's not painful, it's just strange. I'm hoping it's all in my mind because I'm aware of what it could be. Today my shoulder blade feels heavy as does my breast and I have a burning sensation in my nipple. I feel a bit grubby as well, like I haven't bathed for a week, lol. It's the strangest feeling...I had a cyst in my twentie's, I don't remember it feeling anything like this. I'm convinced it's a little bit more serious than a cyst. Women should trust their instincts but this is something I hope I've got wrong. I understand there are different kinds of BC, I just hope mine is an innocent bump and all these weird sensations are all in my mind. I will let you know the results when I know! I am already feel the love and support and I haven't even had a diagnosis yet. Thank you again Lisa. |
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KerryMac Joined: Jan 2009 Posts: 2,627 |
Feb 7, 2010 06:59 am, edited Feb 7, 2010 07:00 AM
by KerryMac
KerryMac wrote:
Sammie - only 2% of palpable lumps in women under 40 turn out to be malignant. Chances are you will be fine! But you are getting yourself checked out, which is the important thing. Don't beat yourself up about not going sooner, whats done is done. Let us knoe how you do! Kerry - Dx Oct 2008, Stage IIIa IDC, ER/PR+ Mx, Chemo, Rads, Ooph, Arimidex, Zometa
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AnnaM Joined: Oct 2005 Posts: 1,768 |
Feb 7, 2010 09:08 am
AnnaM wrote:
Sammie, B9 means benign, that is, not dangerous, not malignant, etc. That's what all of us want to hear. You are six hours ahead of us here on the east coast, so your wait is now almost over. I am thinking of you! Bilat. MX 9/2005, 0/9 nodes and 2/2 nodes; IDC, <1cm, Stage IIb, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+; 4x A/C, 4x Taxol and 1 yr. weekly Herceptin
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 9, 2010 04:52 am
Sammie39 wrote:
Kerry, I looked up cysts etc yesterday and was quite relieved to see that there are several different types of breast lump/conditions, all fairly innocent. This has taken a huge weight off of my mind and I'm thinking positive now. I will definately report back when I know more. Thank you Kerry. |
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 9, 2010 04:59 am, edited Feb 9, 2010 05:00 AM
by Sammie39
Sammie39 wrote:
Hi Anna, I couldn't stop laughing at 'myself' when you explained what B9 was, I did say in my first post I had a pea sized brain, lol. Of course B9 is benign, tut, tut how daft am I, lol :-). I called the clinic and explained my symptoms and how worried I am but the earliest appoinment they could offer me is the 18th Feb! The woman said I can call tomorrow to see if there's any cancellations, I will do that but as I said to Kerry above, I have taken comfort in the fact that there are several different types of reason's why the breast may develop a lump, so I think that's what will keep me going. I confided in a good friend yesterday who told me she had a lump removed 13 years ago. I'm meeting her tomorrow and she will help me stay positive too. Thank you Anna, I'll be in touch soon! |
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mollymo25 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 21 |
Feb 9, 2010 05:26 am
mollymo25 wrote:
Hi Sammie39 I was at the clinic yesterday i found a lump about 5 weeks ago, i waited till 2 weeks ago to confide to my husband who rung the Dr's for an appointment. This was the next day week gone Thu and was referred to BC clinic by them, I'm surprised you had to phone i would ask your GP why they didn't referrer you!! I'm 41 and had my 1st mammogram and ultra-scan yesterday, they didn't see my lump on either but the consultant could feel it straight away so he done a needle biopsy and i get the results tomorrow. The waiting is the worst part, all my family are been very supportive even though im been very angry with everyone! WHY im not sure, but you have been pointed in the right direction i send you big ((((Hugs)))) xx Sam x
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jinnypel Joined: Dec 2009 Posts: 73 |
Feb 9, 2010 06:04 am
jinnypel wrote:
Wow thats quick results on your biopsy, mine took a week (but that was back in 2006 in Donny, so maybe things have moved on since then.) Remember things in the UK work differently than in the USA, we have different waiting periods, different routes we follow sometimes (hopefully with good results at the end no matter where we live.) It's strange that your doc told you to call in yourself, I would have assumed that he would refer you to the breast clinic, although I had mine refered and still waited two weeks, so I assume it makes no odds. Don't worry when I first read the B9 (I thought Be Nine ... well I'd love to be nine, but I am nearly 40!!!!) It's helpfull to read the abbreviations for newbies, right at the top of the forum page, so you can accustom yourself to all the different abbreviations they use on here, I printed mine out otherwise it's a minefield when you're new. Yes soooo many different things could be wrong with your breast, yes it's natural to think the worse (I always do). That way we can prepare ourselves, and if it's good news then there's no harm (my opinion here!) And if it works out that it's not, we are all here to help. I'm in the UK so if you have any questions regarding treatment etc here, then don't hesitate to private message me. Jinny xxx (wishing for B9 results for you!) Don't dwell on the past, you cant change it, don't try to see the future, you can't predict it. Focus on the present because it means your alive
Diagnosis: 7/28/2006, 5cm, Grade 3, 0/24 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2- |
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mollymo25 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 21 |
Feb 9, 2010 08:17 am
mollymo25 wrote:
Jinny Gosh it would kill me having to wait a week!! near 3 days is bad enough xx Sammie39 when the BClinic called with my appointment they do say you are seen within the 2week guide lines in the UK... Love to all xx Sam x
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AnnaM Joined: Oct 2005 Posts: 1,768 |
Feb 9, 2010 10:03 am
AnnaM wrote:
Sammy and Molly, I will continue to hold B9 results for both of you in my mind! Bilat. MX 9/2005, 0/9 nodes and 2/2 nodes; IDC, <1cm, Stage IIb, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+; 4x A/C, 4x Taxol and 1 yr. weekly Herceptin
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Lisa1962 Joined: Sep 2009 Posts: 314 |
Feb 9, 2010 11:36 am
Lisa1962 wrote:
mollymo25 & Sammie39, Just like AnnaM above, I've got you in my thoughts & prayers, and I'm praying for only B9 results----jinnypel made me laugh----Oh, to be at the age of 9 again!! That would be great, wouldn't it?---I know that some of those abbreviations are hard to understand! Sometimes, I prefer to just type out the entire word!! I still can't figure out if DH (dear husband) is complimentary of your husband or sarcastic, so I just write "husband"!! Please keep us posted, here! Sending only B9 wishes to the UK......Lisa |
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AnnaM Joined: Oct 2005 Posts: 1,768 |
Feb 9, 2010 02:07 pm
AnnaM wrote:
I call him hubs. Bilat. MX 9/2005, 0/9 nodes and 2/2 nodes; IDC, <1cm, Stage IIb, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+; 4x A/C, 4x Taxol and 1 yr. weekly Herceptin
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Lace08 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 8 |
Feb 9, 2010 02:19 pm
Lace08 wrote:
First of all I want to HUG you sammie39. I too did the same thing found a dimesize lump back in Sept 2009 thought to myself im only 35 its nothing im to young for BC. Then a week ago I had a yearly exam and my Dr found a very large mass in my right breast same spot I had felt the dimesize mass back in Sept. I have been kicking myself for a week for not keeping an eye on the Mass I had avoided rechecking myself. Reading others stories I relize I'm not the only one who put it off. My U/S is scheduled for the 18th. Looks like we are both waiting HUGS hopfully both of ours will come back benign. Best Of Luck & Bestwishes Waiting for DX
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 13, 2010 06:05 am
Sammie39 wrote:
Thank you for all your prayers and wishes. Jinnypel, my doctor faxed the information through to the breast clinic whilst I was in the surgery, I had to follow it up by phoning for an appointment on the monday. Mollymo, I did get my appointment within 2 weeks but only just. I think they're cruel making me wait so long. I have until thursday afternoon to go and then hopefully all will be a lot clearer. Have to go, my son has just got up. Be back this afternoon. xxx |
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 13, 2010 12:24 pm
Sammie39 wrote:
Lace08, Thank you for your message. It seems were both going through the same thing at the moment. I will keep my fingers crossed for you Lace08 and just hope that we have innocent lumps. I think the worse part so far is realising we had lumps but not getting them checked sooner. I'm sure we'll be fine :-)! It's good to know we can let off steam on these forums with other women who understand and have been or are going through the same thing. Thank you to you all. Be back thursday evening! xx |
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Sammie39 Joined: Feb 2010 Posts: 9 |
Feb 18, 2010 06:39 am
Sammie39 wrote:
Lots of Luck for you today Lace! x |
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