Topic: Scared and feeling unlucky

chrissera wrote:

Hi everyone.  I am 43 and am freaking out !  had my annual mammogram and was called back for  a compression study of the left side.  Went back for that and while there the radiologist suggested u/s immediately.  So I had the ultrasound and then waited for the radiologist to read the results...  They found 1.9 cm suspicious hypoechoic lesion with irregular margins...  met with breast surgeon who was wonderful in trying to calm my fears, but tomorrow I am going for a 3-D mamogram and then vacuum biopsy.  Very nervious about all of this.  I didn't have any lump or anything wrong until the screening mammogram. Although i have read that exhaustion and forgetfulness can be symptoms?   I have found that I am always tired lately and for a few months can't seem to remember anything wtihout writing it down, but I just figured it was due to the weather and being overly busy!  I also have not been sleeping well since new years.    There is history of cancers in my family, lost two brothers to it (lymphoma and non-hodkins lymphona) and my mothers sister  had breast cancer later in life, and I think my grandmother too, but no one is sure about her..  My husband says it will be fine, but I have a feeling deep down that it is not fine...  I am the one who never gets lucky with anything.  There has been a lot of tradegy in my family and I can't stop thinking that it's my turn...  I have a f/u appt with the surgeon on Friday to reveiw the results of Monday's biopsy...  I don't know how I will make it through the week!   I think the worst thing I did was research on the internet - that makes more questions in my mind...    I really don't have anyone to talk to about this ..  don't want anyone to worry until I know it is something or nothing..  Thanks for listening..