Topic: TRAM in 6 weeks - getting nervous

You would think that it would be no big deal to go under the knife again.  I had the mastectomy June 2008, port placement and then reconstructive Dec 17th of last year.  The reconstruction failed so now I am getting a TRAM.  So why am I starting to get nervous???? I have been looking at a Nintendo DS for myself since I will be in the hospital 4 days and in bed for weeks after.  I would have to put it on a credit card, which is bad, but I feel I want to get it as a gift for me to calm me down and make me feel like I am getting a treat for having to go through all of this.  I know the hubby would say no if I told him, but I am tempted to just get it and tell him later.  I want this surgery to have a real boob (well, foob) and not a rock sitting on my chest.  I just wish I didn't have to go through the pain and recovery.  I know what is coming as far as pain and how I will feel when I wake up.  That almost makes it worse than not knowing.  Does that make sense?

Cathie