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I feel the same way, however, my Onco has me on a schedule that I like. I to am triple negative, grade 3. I will have a CT scan and a bone scan every April and a PET scan every Oct. Also my radiologist is having me do a mamo every 6 months in July and Jan. This gives me some comfort that they are being pro active.
I really hope and pray they find something us triple negatives can do or take besides just wait and see.
My father's siblings (8 total) 6 had some type of cancer and most of them had it twice. It did come back someplace out. only two with breast cancer. My dad had lung cancer the 3 years later a brain tumor that took his life.
Sure I'm scared, but try to just live one day at a time. I just recently have been able to make myself plan for vacationa and a future with possible retirement.
The whole cancer thing and being triple negative had been very hard mentaly to deal with.
I read these boards every day and they sure are good for me. I finished my treatments in April. Had chemo, CMF x 6, surgery then rads. Feeling fine right now and pray I can stay that way.

Bayore; Glad your first treatment is out of the way. I think it is the worst because we are scared and don't know what to expect. I have always had a small problem with constipation, so nausea meds really mess my system up. I use Senekot S and sometimes take 2 in am and 2 in pm for a day. Really works, but causes me some stomach pain, but at least get the relief.
The crying is normal. I have spells where I cry for no logical reason. Guess it is all the drugs in my body, but don't like it. Don't like to be out of control, but it always passes after a couple days.
Remember, Pop Cycles count as liquid to and sometimes really taste good.
Hang in there, you can do it.
Hugs and prayers to all.
Eva

Hi all;
Just checking in. Had #4 of 6 yesterday and was pretty much wiped out yesterday evening. Today still tired and go back for hydration and nausea meds. I have been very lucky and kick back to pretty much norman in a few days.
Just wanted to wishyou all a Happy Thanksgiving.
Hugs and Prayers; Eva

Hi ladies;
Tue. I go for my 3rd treatment of CMF. Wish me luck. Hope is goes as well as my last one did. This weekend I have not felt real great, so have rested a lot. Guess that is what I need.
Hugs and prayers for everyone. I know I have a long way to go and having Chemo for the holidays is not a great way to spend holidays. My next one after Tue. is the Tue. before Thanksgiving. Guess Thanksgiving dinner will not be quite the same this year. Oh well, we do what we gotta do.
Hugs and prayers for all.

Eva

Zuni, that was beautiful. I was talking with my husband last night about how this has actually brought us closer together again and makes us appreciate each other. The small things are so much sweeter now, like a kiss a hug, a kind word or a smile. This has really brought my awareness of the small things to a new level again and makes me appreciate each day.
Ladies, I can tell you that the chemo really works. I know it is hard to go thru, but mine is working. I am the one doing things backward. I had a very fast growing type of b/c and am triple neg. For the few weeks between biopsy and starting treatment, the lump really grew. I could tell and feel it getting larger. It would ache. I have had one A/C treatment and one Cytoxin plus CMF treatment and I can tell by the feel that it stopped growing about a week after the first treatment and it is now about half the size it was. I am hoping it will shrink enought for a lumpectomy, and it looks like to me it might. My family Dr. said fast growing means fast dying and I believe. If mine is any indication, I believe in the chemo. It works!! It will wipe out any cells that might be floating in your body.
My second treatment with Cytoxin and CMF went very well. No bad side effects as I had with A/C when I ended up in the hospital with heart problem. I am so glad there are options for the drugs. I do have to have 6 treatments instead of 4, but I feel I can do it and will have my last treatment first week in Jan. if all goes well.
You ladies are all so great and strong. My husband said he don't know how we do it, he thinks he would be such a baby and not sure he could do it, but I said you find the strength to do whatever you have to do. There are really no choices.
Good luck to all of you as you near the end of your treatments, you have all been a real source of strength for me, especailly the ones of you with small children to care for also.
Hugs, Eva

Helen, sorry you had to join our group, but welcome. The people here are great. So much support and love. Glad your first two treatments went well. Hope the rest do also.
Good morning all. Hope everyone had a good weekend.
Later, Eva

I'm glad I stopped by also. Hugs to all of you that are having a hard time right now. I will keep you all in my prayers. I know cancer seems like a life time sentence, but this time next year, the worst should be over with.
I am feeling much better than last weekend, when I ended up 3 days in hospital. I am very thankful for any good days I have. I worked 3 days last week and hope to work all 5 this week, then a 3 day holiday weekend, then Chemo on Tue. the 10th.
Yesterday I went and had my hair cut VERY!! short and wore a wig home. The wig is hot so I hope I can stand it at work. I work where the public can see me, so hope I can stand the wig. If not, oh well, I will go to scarves. I don't look as bad as I thought I would with really short hair.
Good luck to all those that have chemo this week, hope it gets better as time goes on. My next one will be number two. I get every 3 weeks.
Hugs and prayers to each and everyone of you Sept. sisters. What a great group.

Good monring ladies. Went back to Chemo center yesterday for shot of neulasta and bottle of hydration and they also gave a small bag of naseua meds. So far i just have some waves of naseau, but not all the way (if you know what i mean) I hate to throw up and will take any meds possible to not. I have some sugar free mints that I suck on and that seems to help and eat small meals more often to keep something new going into my stomach.
It really has not been as bad as I had made it to be in my mind. Still not looking forward to the next three.
Reye99, so far not side effects from the shot of neulasta. I guess I will get one with hydration the day after each chemo treatment.
Boy was I surprised how many people get chemo. They have 12 chairs where I go, and they are usually all full. I never knew their were so many victims of cancer. Some are far worse off than me and get several different bags of chemo drugs. Makes me appreciat my 2.
Hugs to all, and for those just starting, remember, you can do it. The chemo is the drug that will make you cancer free so it is worth it. Hugs to all and thanks to all for the support.
Later, Eva

Good Morning; Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers today as I have my first Chemo today at noon. A/C. I am really nervous, but slept pretty good last night. Will catch you all up later when I am finished. Hugs to all.
Eva