CurlyKatFL

My sisters

In a couple of weeks it will be the four year anniversary of my diagnosis with cancer. At that point I would never have known how important and how precious this site would become to me.

Early this year I had a number of personal issues from elderly and sick parents, to sick kids to exploding air conditioners etc that  kept me offline for a number of weeks and I was devastated when I came back to find out how many sisters we had lost during those few weeks I was gone.

Today though I have something else that is making me sad... What is with all the backstabbing and hostility on the boards?  What are the newbies thinking when they see those posts? Some of you may have noticed I have not posted much recently to be perfectly honest I just don't know what to say anymore. I used to feel safe here. In many ways I feel this site saved me. But now I feel it is time to move on.

I beg you ladies remember the fear and uncertainties we all go through and be there for our newbie sisters. Help and love our sisters with reoccurrence and help them work through the issues of treatment and pain. Remember that this battle is with the beast not each other.

Please make this place a haven again, a haven of support and love

That being said this is goodbye from me. To all that I have come to know and love over the last 4 years thank you just isn't enough.

I love you all

Kat

Ladies

I was on Tamoxifen for 3 years and now I have been on Femara for 4 months. I have mild hot flashes and I have put on some weight but thats not the issue. The issue is I have really bad joint, bone and muscle pain in my legs and feet. Often over the counter pain relievers do not help. I sit in a hot tub sometimes but I have Lymphadema in my right arm so heat is not a good plan for me. I am high risk of reoccurence having lost a sister and 2 aunts to the beast, so I really don't want to quit femera. But how do I deal with this pain. Sometimes I can hardly walk. I don't want to take prescription pain killers because I handle equipment at work.

What can I do.

Any suggestions

Kat

I heard that the fans are great in the minor leagues too and that each team has there own culture and the fans really buy into it. I have not made any minor league games in our area even thou there are 2 teams near by,  but  I managed to make 2 spring training games this year. Went to opening of spring training at Dodger-town. Braves vs Dodgers. The Dodgers are leaving to move to AZ. So we wanted to make sure we got to see a game there one last time. Dodger-town is a great facility, Has that old time baseball feel about it. You are so close to the field and you can talk to the players. We also went to Nationals vs Braves at the nationals spring training facility in Viera.

I actually have nothing to bitch about today( I am all bitched out ). Just stopped by to give hugs to the ladies who are having a real sucky day {{{{ Deb}}}} {{{Linda}}}}

Unity is strength

Kat

3 months from Hell....

So I have been gone from the boards for probably 3 months now. First daughter got sick, then hubby got sick, then son got sick, and then I got sick. Not just a cold sick we all had different things and it was a long haul. Well we made it through all the sickness, then I had a run of not so fun events, tires on the family car got slashed, sons college loan got turned down, daughter's college scholarship got partially cut, air conditioning died (I know its winter but I live in Florida) needed to be completely replaced (thousands of dollars) and then I find out my real estate taxes have doubled. Then since the black cloud is over us anyway ...the transmission on hubby's car gave out. So I was felling pretty down about being completely broke with 2 kids in college and one on the way to college and then ... my mom got really sick. She is 80 and barely weights 105 lbs, I was so worried. Anyway mom is over the worst, and then yesterday I find out a dear friend who had helped me thru chemo etc has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Okay now I am really pissed.

So today my lymphademia arm is aching and swollen and my chest and reconstruction on that side hurts like a $%&#$, so I come back to the boards to bitch and whine , maybe get a little hug from the people who understand best and I find out while I have been gone there have been so many sisters lost.

And I burst into tears...

Kat

And yes EVERYTHING SUCKS

Chattie

I actually had a spa day that included a neck and face massage and it seriously aggravated my LE in my right arm. My suggestion would be to stay away from the neck based on my experience. We had a thread going talking about this. I hope this link works

http://community.breastcancer.org/topic/64/conversation/256246?page=1#idx_25

Kat

My daughter is a graphic artist. I asked her to work up a few ideas.

Also I had a pink ribbon for my avatar. I had to change it

Kat

Happy Holidays.

Not sure what happened to my post above. But best wishes to everyone.

Peace be the journey

Kat

Bimmer,

I am so sorry.

There will come a day
when your tears of sorrow
will softly flow into tears of remembrance...
and your heart will begin to heal itself...
and grieving will be interrupted by episodes of joy...
and you will hear the whisper of hope.
There will come a day
when you will welcome the tears of remembrance...
as a sunshower of the soul...
a turning of the tide...
a promise of peace.

Kat