sunbearz

I had the panic attack syndrome for almost 3 yrs. Fear of the unknown gets almost everyone at least once in your life. See your physician about your symptoms as you can be helped these days easily.

Had to come back to see what everyone has been doing. I took Jilly in for severe dehydration last week.Lots of fluid IV's, magnesium,potasium and then right back in for her almost end of 4 weeks of rads to the throat.

Back to chemo next Wed. and she is happy to be done with radiation. She has to wait on the MRI to see how well this worked on the tumor on the throat, but the Doc says it looks  pretty good so far. Her voice is almost back to normal and she can swallow pretty well now.

Just had to spread my girl Jilly's positive results today, and send warm Florida hugs to everyone

I just wish there was more I could do for everyone here

I,m back for the warm fire and some friends. My partner just started her third week of rads to the throat. She now has trouble swallowing, so the food I fix  we call "sliders" is anything that doesn't take to much work to get it down.Yesterday her Onc. prescribed a compound that you mix and drink to numb the throat so you can eat. This really bites as she loves to eat, and has lost weight as of late because of the swallowing issue. They say this stuff she has to swallow tastes like crap,so I hope someone in the chuckwagon has some good "slider" ideas for me.

Everyone stay warm and come back for some friends at the circle

Hugs

It seems huge, but Jilly says,"just another bump in the road." She wants to do another road trip to get away for a couple of days, and here in Fl. there are plenty of places to go. There is always another paradise right in your backyard here.

Even though we run away to another place we take that nasty beast with us. But it seems to change a little with different surroundings and people much the same way Dreamer's takes you away.

Love and hugs to all the Dreamer's...Nicki, Valerie ,Cherryl,Barb and all the rest. There is a lot of reading here to get to know you all, and Im getting there!

Dreams are all that data that comes from the mind,soul and body's interaction each day, and are actually unsupervised thoughts, that is unless you are dreaming while awake.

This morning I am unsupervised while my partner is still off in her own dream's so I'm going to go ahead and tell more of her story.

 This is Jill...Dx 1998 mast.Bone mets 2003 ac/xeloda,zometa,taxol,taxotere,gemsar,doxil,rads to hip triple neg brca-2008 mets mediasternum lymps-rads.

When I'm not in here crying about my feelings about all this, I'm here talking about her.

I hope you can understand why I needed a place to go to talk to others instead of talking bc with her.

I like my awake dreams that are supervised by me, and it is my dream right now that all of you Dreamer's out there have a better day today. Big hugs!

I am welcoming all for a visit! My partner and I live just three minutes away from some of the prettiest beaches, and there is plenty of room for all.Also plenty of room for Ya'll in both of our hearts and big hugs to boot!

So grab the beach chairs, towels, and darker than rose colored glasses and lets do a day at the beach and  a sunset later together!

I've been told this is where I need to be, so here I am with nothing really to offer or ask...yet.

Im really looking forward to making new friends, so I hope this place works.

Beth, thank you for the wonderful invitation.  Gotta get this horse movin', she's getting older and slower.The Dreamers thread sounds like a place I need to go,because it seems every where I go someone else chimes in and has another place for me to go. I'm getting dizzy with all this!

 Anyone out there a caregiver and a partner with advice?

Being a partner first and a caregiver is the job from hell! Always trying to be the compasionate one,the careful what you say one, and then the one that can handle all of this. Then in those moments of sheer exhaustion your thoughts go to, how will my life go without my partner someday? Everyday this happens to me, the feelings of Doom and Gloom, and it sometimes feels like I am being selfish thinking like this.I need to find a different way of thinking about this, as my partner probably has a whole different set of D&G feelings herself.

How do I continue to keep my very emotional feelings seperate while taking care of my partner?

Thank you for the welcome, and I did see the other also. I also love to eat, it's what I do in my spare time. That's why the chuckwagon attracted me,and because I have some grub that will blow your boots off!

Now you got me nervous, but with your letting me know what I might expect I will be prepared! I talked with her last night about what the Doc says to expect, and as usual she says I don't want to know, I'll deal with it when it gets here. I'm sure she will talk to the Doc when she has to.

When I get home tonight she will be on her second treatment and maybe will have more to want to talk about.

Thank you for jumping in here, I appreciate all your advice.