smokymama

Hey SheRee,

I got my results.  So far B9, but I am being referred to a breast specialist.  The nodule on my right breast turned out not to be a complex cyst, but a rock hard solid mass.  After discussing everything with my NP, I have decided to go ahead and see a specialist instead of waiting to have all of this done again in three months.  Biopsy revealed minute microcalcs in ducts of this mass.  I am afraid that if i wait 3 months, then this may become something worse.  Maybe I am overreacting, but I am grateful for the results and don't want to risk it.

I really hope you are doing well with chemo.  I will be thinking about you and wishing you well.

Diana --- your children are beautiful!!!!!!!!  Best of luck with the new breasts.

Remember girls---------

Take care of you!!!!!!!!!!!

Missy

Thanks y'all - I am so grateful for all of you.  I am not grateful that this is the reason that we are here, but I am grateful that you are all WHO YOU ARE.

And yes roseg, I have been to a therapist before.  Had other issues growing up and with my mom having come out of a mental facility, she was in fear of my mental stability.  I guess she didn't want me to go down the same road she did.

I guess that is where I learned to cope.  Also, both of my children have medical conditions.  I am kind of used to the rug being dragged out from in under me.  I guess I have developed a "what's next" kind of attitude.  I guess it comes off as complacency sometimes.  Just years and TEARS of holding things in and dealing with them myself.  Just scared to do this one alone.  But I know you all will be there.  THANK YOU AND BIG (((((( HUGS)))))))).

Missy

Hey y'all

I am a 36 year old mother of 2 (3 if you count my hubby LOL).  Scheduled for 3 core biopies on Sept. 2 (1 on right side, 2 on left).  Without going into the details of everything, one is suspicious due to vertical-orientation and angular presentation.  I need to vent, so please grant me a little space.

My mom lives out of state.  I called her last week to tell her that my yearly exam resulted in discovery of nodule and mammo, u/s was scheduled.  She has a history of mental illness and bladder cancer, so I had to tread lightly.  She seemed concerned, but asked me not to schedule any major procedures until after she returned from a cruise on Sept. 19.  At this point, I knew that the subject was off limits (I didn't want her to relapse into a poor mental state).  I have since tried to be as upbeat as possible when talking to her, which hasn't been often because she hadn't called me until today.  When she finally did call, she said that she felt that I was not concerned about my condition enough, and that I seemed glad that I might have cancer.  Boy, did that throw me.  I had to tell her that I couldn't vent to her, because I was afraid that she couldn't handle it.

Yes, I cry at least once a day.  One day, I even felt paralyzed with fear and had to just lay in bed for about 3 hours.  Once I told her that, she was relieved.  I had to tell her that my biggest fear up to this point was that there would be something there and they wouldn't catch it for whatever reason.  Now that the doctors have seen it and the biopsies are scheduled, I have one fear down. I have found that I can't handle all the emotions and fears at once, so I take it one step at a time, one issue at a time.  I have a family to care for and can't let this overwhelm me, if at all possible.  Although it sometimes jumps up and bites me in the butt and I have to just seclude myself for a while.

Speaking of which, my husband isn't much help either.  He is trying, but he really doesn't want to know.  His mother passed away from cancer when he was only 6, so his trepidation is completely understandable.  This is why I can't give him too much info.  It is also why I can't break down in front of him.  It happened once, but he just got angry with me and said a lot of unsupportive stuff.  Won't happen again if I can help it.

I never realized how much of a facade I could put on, until this all started.  I just hope that I can get through all this and everything is B9.  I don't know if I can keep it up much longer.  At least my doctor is understanding and I have a really good friend who is going with me to the biopsies.

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent.  Sorry it was so long.

Missy

Thanks sunshine.

I'll check that site out for sure.  I had to have pelvic u/s as well today.  Got a cyst in right ovary that is about the size of my ovary.  We seem to have similar symptoms, except the bleeding.  I tend to go every 3 weeks and spot in between.

Hey looks like we get to fall apart together.  ha ha some fun huh.

HOPE YOUR RESULTS = B9

BEST OF LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

Missy

Dear SheRee,

I have to let you know that your story really touched me.  I am 36 and have 2 son's (10 & 12) and a diabetic husband. I do everything for them.  I was just told today that I have to have 3 core biopsies (1 on the right, 2 on the left).  I feel like you did.  It's like I already know what they are going to say.  Had that little voice for a while as well. 

My husband thinks I am crazy, but I think he knows it, too.  He just doesn't want to admit it.  His mother passed away when he was only 6 from uterine cancer that met. to the brain.  How do you get through the waiting and the emotions. 

What is really weird is I didn't think anything was wrong with my left breast.  Only felt hard lumps in right.  The right is mostly full of cysts with one unusual area, but the left has 3 solid masses, one of which is highly suspicious.

Keep posting.  I would really like to hear how you are doing. 

Take care and best wishes,

Missy

UPDATE:

Thanks for all of your responses, I appreciate it greatly.

I went for my tests today.  I started with the bilateral mammo.  I was asked to wait until the radiologist had a look.  When the tech came back, I knew that she was going to tell me that there was a spot of concern on my right breast.  She told me that there was indeed a mass in the right, but he also saw an area of concern on the left.  THE LEFT......WHAT THE HECK!!!!!!!!!!! My left breast was never my concern.  The tissue has always been less dense.  You could clearly feel any cysts or rubbery lumps, but nothing persistent.  Now my head was spinning. 

I was taken next door into the u/s room.  They started with the right.  Clearly, there was a cystic conditon present.  I guess she stopped and measured at least 15-20 cysts from 1cm and up.  But when she got to the 10:00 position, she found the mass that I had originally been concerned about.  This one was not like the others.  Much larger, and not clearly a cyst. It had a grayer stringy looking interior with dark areas mixed in.  I told her that this one had been there a very long time.  I couldnt tell if she got a clear measurement on this one, due to the fact that the edges were not clearly distinct.  NOW ON TO THE LEFT BREAST.

I was originally only scheduled for right u/s only.  Glad the mammo was bilateral.  There were three solid masses in the left breast.  Two at 12:00, and one at 9:00.  As soon as the test was complete, she had the radiologist come in to talk to me.  He explained that the area in my right breast had multiple characteristics (Cyst, fibrous, and hemmorhagic) and needed to be investigated further.  The cysts of course were of obvious Dx.  Now the left Dx.  He explained to me that there were two areas, one large one small, that apearred to be fibroadenoma-like.  However, the other one was not as clear as to the possible Dx.  I saw this one when it was scanned.  It was kind of tear drop shaped, but had a bulge to one side. 

He suggested that we get a core biopsy of the right one, the curious looking left one, and the largest fibroadenoma-like one due to the fact that when she scanned it, it was extremely painful.  I didn't think that fibroadenomas were supposed to be painful.  How could I have not known these were there?

Oh, and my bloodwork is abnormal as well.  My Alk phos is elevated - 176.  I have heard that this is a test that is considered a tumor marker for liver or bone.  Should this be of a concern to me as well?

Scheduled for 3 core biopsies on Sept. 2.  If anyone can give any advice on fibroadenomas of core biopies, I would really appreciate it. 

Thanks again,  y'all are the best.

Missy

Baseline mammo @ 29 due to lumps and dense tissue in right breast only.

dx - fibrocystic breast

Now having diagnostic mammo & u/s of r breast nodule @ 9:00 position next week.

My question is: Can Fibrocystic lumps and thickness persist over 9 year period?

I feel stupid...........I have ignored this area due to the fact that I cant tell what is what in the upper outer area of right breast.  It has been very firm and lumpy for years.  Now I read that this "dense tissue" should be changing or coming and going.  Mine hasn't.  Just slowly encompassing the majority of my upper and outer right breast.

Please Help!!!!!!!!!!!

Missy

Thanks y'all.  Took a nap and feeling calmer now.  I know this is all probably nothing, but if it is God's will that it is not, then bring it on.  I have faced many battles in my life which has made me who I am today.  I AM STONG.  I AM RESILIANT.  I AM A FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH. 

After all, who better to fight for myself than me.

UPDATE

Went to doctor this morning. Had pap done as well.  Spot of concern on cervix now.  Breast exam was a little more than I bargained for.  Not only did she feel the lump in the center of my r breast, but she also questioned how long an area of thickening had been there on the side of my breast in the 9:00 position.  I had felt this before, but never thought much about it.  She was considerably concerned, due to the fact that it was now almost the size of a small lemon.  I did not know this.  When i got home, I laid down and felt for myself.  SHE WAS RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Not only is it that large, but it is not smooth like my other areas.  It is deep, firm and fixed.  Now I'm really freaking out.

Scheduled for bilateral mammo, diagnostic mammo of r breast, u/s of right breast, bloodwork, transabdominal and transvaginal u/s next thursday.

 Wish me luck.  By the way, did I mention I am only 36, with a diabetic husband, and 2 sons (10 & 12).  They depend on me for everything.  I can't be sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!