Hello Everyone,
First I want to apologize for not being in the chat room lately. I miss everyone. Second, I need your prayers. I went for a bi lat ultra sound and they believe there is "suspicion for malignancy" in my left breast, by my incision mark. I am going for a MRI tomorrow. I don't understand because I had a bi lat masectomy (skin and nipple sparing) with implants and they removed all my breast tissue. How could something be there if they took out the breast tissue??? I am also BRCA 1 positive, trip negative, and am a total wreck if this has come back. I know this is all our worst fear. How do we go on with life dealing with this fear??? I feel like I am going to have a heart attack!! I also have so much going on with my life, I am going to be a grandmother in October, and I am getting horses back on my property, which is a great thing but the emotional roller coaster is heading for a crash!!!I don't have time for this!!!Please say something positive to get me through this depression. Also Monday I will be getting Pet Scan results. Oh my Lord, they better come out good! I'm ready for the highest bridge if they don't come back clean. Sorry to be rambling, I'm usually the positive one, but I feel like I am losing it. Thanks for listening. Love you guys, Peggy
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JapanLynn Joined: Oct 2007 Posts: 382 |
Mar 16, 2008 04:49 pm
JapanLynn wrote:
Dear Peggy-- Sending prayers and good karma for positive results on Monday. I can feel your anxiety all the way to Japan...it must be awful for you. You'll have lots of support here...you know that. Do what you can to distract yourself until you know for sure what you're facing; think about your grandbaby--what exciting news! You're right...this IS everyone's worst fear, but if you read on the board, lots of women are doing well after a recurrence. Just trying to give you a boost during this difficult time...I've added you to my prayer list. Keep us posted! Lynn Dx 7/30/2007, IDC, 1cm, Stage Ia, Grade 2, 0/2 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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DianeE Joined: Jan 2008 Posts: 114 |
Mar 16, 2008 04:55 pm
DianeE wrote:
Peggy, So sorry that you have to go through this. As good as our diagnostics measures are, they are not perfect. I had a complete over read on my initial mammo on the unaffected breast. Both the mammo and MRI on the left said "highly suspicious" and guess what..it was wrong...I just had "busy boobs" as my surgeon likes to call them. So, after you have it all done and get great results, go shopping in the infant department and buy that new grandbaby something adorable. It will be hard to rest your brain until you get the all clear but know that we are sending you strength to get through the appointment. Congratulations on your upcoming grandbaby!! Diane Dx 7/7/2007, IBC, 2cm, Stage IIIb, Grade 3, 2/22 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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susieloutoo
Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 99 |
Mar 16, 2008 05:03 pm
susieloutoo wrote:
<table height="100%" width="100%"><tbody><tr height="100%" width="100%"><td height="250" width="100%"> Peggy... My love and calming prayers to you....I am so sorry that you are so sad and upset I wish I could do something to make it easier for you. This really sucks! You are in a good place if you are continuing to get testing...my doc doesn't even do it. (I am thinking about asking for tests) Actually...I am Trineg and had a bilat too...I share your fears. Please know that I can be with you on this...althought in cybespace...I am still here. We all can be here to get you off the bridge. Take a deep breath. Share you fears with your doc and friends...this always calms me. heck come see us in the chat room for a big cyber hug. You are not alone in this Peggy...Gentle hugs and friendship - Susie </td></tr><tr><td height="1"></td></tr></tbody></table>Dx 4/11/2007, IDC, 5cm, Stage II, Grade 3, 2/8 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2- |
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zarowny9 Joined: Apr 2005 Posts: 384 |
Mar 16, 2008 05:50 pm
zarowny9 wrote:
Pg,hugs and prayers to you.I do miss you girl!! Please phone me if you need me ok.......love ya..........Dawn dx in 05 at age 29 with stage 2 grade 3 triple neg braca 1 pos bc...mets in Jan 07 to supraclavicular nodes
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celia088 Joined: Jul 2005 Posts: 2024 |
Mar 16, 2008 06:10 pm
celia088 wrote:
Pg, I sure can feel your anxiety in your words. I am an anxious person so i know that it is very hard to calm down those thoughts and feelings, but you have to give calming down a try. I do know that it is very rare to have a malignancy in the tiny bit of breast tissue left after a mastectomy -- something like 1% or less. If there was "something" there, it does not sound like a recurrance, but perhaps something left behind. You ARE going to go on with your life and you will have a grandchild and will have horses on the property again. If, by some chance you need a bit more treatment, you can do this!!!! You are stronger now than you were before and you have a long life ahead of you. Wishing and praying for good luck and good health for you!!! hugs, celia "May your heart always be joyful, May your song always be sung, May you stay forever young"........Bob Dylan
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wackyjackie
Joined: Aug 2007 Posts: 428 |
Mar 16, 2008 06:43 pm
wackyjackie wrote:
Peggy, My thoughts and prayers are with you. This is a big fear for anyone, I don't blame you for being so anxious. I know it's easy for me to say, but try to focus on the positive events happening in your life. That new grandbaby will really need you and so will your child!!!! I will pray strongly for positive results. Lots of hugs, Jackie Dx 5/25/2007, IDC, 3cm, Stage IIb, 3/13 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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Jenniferz Joined: Oct 2006 Posts: 242 |
Mar 16, 2008 06:51 pm
Jenniferz wrote:
I've missed you on chat, pg, and have been thinking of you. Here's hoping that things are just that...................things. Nothing to worry about at all. Prayers coming to you in an instant. Jennifer |
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 111 |
Mar 16, 2008 06:55 pm, edited Mar 16, 2008 06:59 PM
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Sharon51 Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 111 |
Mar 16, 2008 06:55 pm
Sharon51 wrote:
Peggy, Hang in there hon!!! Sending prayers your way. I don't know what else to say. Hugs. Dx IDC, 3cm, Stage IIb, Grade 2, 1/14 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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steppingsto
Joined: Mar 2008 Posts: 3 |
Mar 16, 2008 07:28 pm
steppingstones1 wrote:
may the lord be with u thought this i am all so waiting for results i found a new lump in my left breast
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LaughingWat
Joined: Mar 2008 Posts: 124 |
Mar 16, 2008 08:20 pm
LaughingWater wrote:
I send you much love, strength and peace. <3 |
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pgiglio Joined: Oct 2006 Posts: 103 |
Mar 16, 2008 09:00 pm
pgiglio wrote:
Thank You Everyone, I am trying to hang in there. Love, Peggy |
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rdawud Joined: Jan 2008 Posts: 52 |
Mar 16, 2008 09:06 pm
rdawud wrote:
Peggy, I will pray for you. Ro Dx 1/10/2008, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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Caroles-Mum
Joined: Mar 2008 Posts: 5 |
Mar 16, 2008 10:42 pm
Caroles-Mum wrote:
I can feel your fear, my daughter has also had a mastecectomy, and although every oncologist appointment has reported, "all bloods clesr" this time she has felt a soreness under her arm, and as a precaution, they are doing a bone scan. You are in the safest possible hands. Any worry at all they will check. I will watch your progress, and my thoughts and prayers are with you, I go on wednesday with Carole for her bone scan, and I will let you know the result, either way I am scared as ,you are . I wish it could be me!but we must be strong I wish it could be me! |
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catbert4209
Joined: Dec 2007 Posts: 318 |
Mar 16, 2008 10:52 pm
catbert4209 wrote:
Peggy: I knew I had not seen you in the chat room and missed you! I am so sorry to hear your news. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and keep us informed of your progress! God bless you! Cathy Catbert
Dx 8/20/2007, DCIS, 2cm, Stage I, Grade 1, 0/17 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+ |
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GRITS Joined: Jan 2005 Posts: 160 |
Mar 17, 2008 01:23 pm
GRITS wrote:
Hi pg, As hard as it seems right now, know you can handle what ever comes your way. YES you can :) This is a difficult time, but I hope you take some time to realize we will always have these crazy rollercoaster times.....not fair, but something we have to deal with. You are going to watch that grandchild grow up and be a wonderful grandmother. You have a full life ahead. I am keeping you in my prayers and know you will find some peace soon, we are with you all the way. Missing you, G |
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cneal318 Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 122 |
Mar 17, 2008 04:34 pm
cneal318 wrote:
(((PG))) Please know that I am saying a prayer for you. You are truly missed in the chat room. Crystal |
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KLynn Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 969 |
Mar 17, 2008 08:36 pm
KLynn wrote:
Hey Peggy, First of all stay away from the bridges --high or low..I am sending you positive vibes for good results on your scans and pet. I'm sorry to say that once we have b/c we always have that fear of recurrence, its always there in the back of our minds..BUT that doesn't mean that is what it is. We just had lunch with some of the Jersey ladies, and one of them was telling us how she was told she had brain mets..for 36 hrs she was a mess, then it turned out to be wrong. I know its hard not to worry but please feel the love from all of us here. We are here for you through all of this .I'm truly sorry you have this scare right now , I will be thinking of you. Hugs KLynn |
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PuppyFive Joined: Mar 2006 Posts: 4081 |
Mar 17, 2008 08:51 pm
PuppyFive wrote:
{{{Peggy}}}
One of these days "I'm gonna Love me" t.m.
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pgiglio Joined: Oct 2006 Posts: 103 |
Mar 17, 2008 11:07 pm
pgiglio wrote:
Hello to Everyone, Thank all of you for posting such positive thoughts and prayers. It really does help. You are all truly amazing. My Pet Scan showed something very tiny on the pelvis, however the oncologist said it is nothing. It suggested a MRI which he said I didn't need. I insisted, and got the MRI today of the pelvis and Breast. So now I am awaiting results. Hopefully in a couple of days I will have them. I am really bad at waiting, so I will go pick up the results myself hopefully Wed. and run to the onc. office. He knows how I am, so he won't mind!!! I am calming down and trying to stay positive. I really want to thank you all for pulling me through this so far. You are the best!!!!!!!!!!! Love, Peggy |
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zarowny9 Joined: Apr 2005 Posts: 384 |
Mar 18, 2008 02:34 am
zarowny9 wrote:
Peg,good luck.love ya.....Dawn dx in 05 at age 29 with stage 2 grade 3 triple neg braca 1 pos bc...mets in Jan 07 to supraclavicular nodes
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celene20 Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 10 |
Mar 18, 2008 03:52 pm
celene20 wrote:
Peggy, You are in my prayers! I'm sure it will be okay. Hugs and love...Celene Dx DCIS, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 1/7 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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KLynn Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 969 |
Mar 18, 2008 05:22 pm
KLynn wrote:
Hey Peg , Good Luck with the new scans... I just had some of my scans and also had something show up in the pelvis area that may or may not be a cyst or fibroid or not...They get you so crazy with all of this, by the time you find out what it is, you're like okay ..so now what..Mean while you've had every horrible thought go through your head in the last few days. With all the stuff they've given me over the years of course things are going to start showing up. Only so much a body can take before it says give me a break. Hope everything turns out to be perfect for you. Thinking about you , keep us posted..Hugs KLynn Always here for you... . |
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AnnNYC Joined: Aug 2007 Posts: 1484 |
Mar 20, 2008 09:42 am
AnnNYC wrote:
Prayers and hugs for you Peg, Ann Dx 3/9/2007, IDC, <1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/5 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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faithandfif
Joined: Mar 2007 Posts: 1005 |
Mar 20, 2008 01:59 pm
faithandfifty wrote:
Peggy, my PG..... just happened upon the latest chapter in your story. I'm so sorry to hear that you are back in limbo-land, where the trolls make a mockery of your fears and the gobblins play havoc with your heart. Know how witty & wise you are, sweetie. Knowledge is power. You're in the process of becoming informed: more power to you!! I'm so glad to hear that you're being such a good advocate to yourself.... insisting on getting as much insight as possible. I can still picture you at the dinner table, all bright eyed & bubblie, making a delightful evening for Mr. Ctg. You're a fighter and you'll do what needs to be done. Period. End of discussion. Of course because you're so creative and imaginative you can conjure up all sorts of 'bridge scenerios' but you're in good hands here. We'll tie a bungie cord onto your ankle if necessary. Your niece needs you. Your DH is counting on you. Your unborn grand is sincerely needing your warmth and untold lullabys. Take a deep breath. Don't make me come back down there and shake you by the shoulders..... In the meantime I'll be praying for you on the "looping mode" where the prayers just keep arising, one after the other. Be strong. You can do whatever it takes. |
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Linda7411 Joined: Mar 2007 Posts: 170 |
Mar 20, 2008 02:47 pm
Linda7411 wrote:
Peggy, I just saw your e-mail and will keep you in my prayers. I like the one about tying a bungie cord to your ankle. That's just what sisters do. I'm waiting for a CT scan of the head result. The bone scan showed a couple of focii that appeared not clinically significant. I'm glad my onc decided to follow up - just in case. The mind games are so tough but I guess I had better get used to them as the years go by. I wish all of you a wonderful Easter and remember we ARE WARRIORS. Love and prayers to all of you, Linda |
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cneal318 Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 122 |
Mar 20, 2008 08:03 pm
cneal318 wrote:
PG, Checking in to see if you got results yet. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs Crystal |
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auntiec Joined: Mar 2008 Posts: 6 |
Mar 20, 2008 08:50 pm
auntiec wrote:
Peggy, I have a big pink candle that I have lit for you. When I was going through all my treatements, my daughter, sisters, and neices kept them lit all the time and sent "Postitive Pink Thoughts" over the miles between us. I am now sending them forward to you along with my prayers. I hope for the best for you. |
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peachy49 Joined: Jul 2006 Posts: 546 |
Mar 20, 2008 11:35 pm
peachy49 wrote:
Miss you in chat also. Was glad to c you there last wk. I am praying very hard 4 u and please let us know results as soon as you can. Much love, Many Blessings. Hugs. ¤PeachyMarie§¤
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Danie Joined: Jan 2008 Posts: 51 |
Mar 21, 2008 12:17 am
Danie wrote:
Hi Peggy, My prayers are with you. Hope your onc is right and that you don't need that MRI. Sending you good vibes for good news. You will be around for many, many more years to enjoy life with your child and your unborn grand-child, horse and dh. There is lots for you to look forward and this is what you should have your mind on. I know it is easyer said then done, but I'm sure it will make you feel much better. Comfort hugs, Danie Dx 6/27/2007, IDC, 2cm, Stage IV, Grade 3, 1/2 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- |
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