Topic: Here I Go Again?

Ms. Virgo, I am so sorry you are having to go through this. You are still soooooo young and going through this again. My heart aches for you.

I hope all goes well on Friday.

Advice, well I think you have it all figured out already. Give it up to God, lay it at His feet.   God bless you. You are in my prayers tonight. 

My heart goes out to you Ms.Virgo. You are so young to have to go through this yet again.  I apologize I have no great advice, just know we are all here for you if you need us.  God Bless.

NOT FAIR!

 I am glad that you had 5 cancer-free years, but I'm sure that is little consolation at this moment. 

There is so little any of us can do, except care.

Come here to vent whenever you need to.

Sue 

MV, just wanted to add my prayers and hopes for this too.  You are WAY to young to have to deal it once, let alone again, young lady!  Please accept these {{{{{hugs}}}}} and know you kept in prayers today and throughout this mess.

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE...I REALLY FEEL THE LUV.

{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}

I felt great reading the responses. I will keep you guys updated. Feeling a lil nervous as the day is approaching. Had a dream that the biopsy didn't go well....the mind is playing tricks on me. Talk with you guys soon. I'll be on the boards and drop into chat. Have a great weekend.

msvirgo, I, too, want to give you my virtual support. You've already fought a tough battle for someone your age, and you should NOT have to do it again, IMO.

Here's hoping it's just a "blip".  I don't know too much about cancer markers...whether they can have fluctuations that do not end up indicating cancer...but hoping they do and that this is just one of them.

Well up and out early. Have to be down at MSKCC for 6AM. Feeling a little anxious but ready to get it over with and find out. Thanks again for the support.

Msvirgo...My prayers are with you today. May you have good results...keep us posted. May you feel us all with you today.

Hugs and prayers,

Candie

Ms Virgo,

I'm so very sorry.  Please, go ahead and let yourself cry. 

I wish I could reach out and give you a hug in person.

Dukemom

MsVirgo:

I have been waiting as if I were your own mom!  I am sorry this has happened. I feel my words are failing you.  I continue to pray and wish the best for you.  I just sense such strength in you.  That having been said, take the time to cry. Be with someone you love and just cry until you are cleaned out.  Let us know the treatment plan. 

Susan 

Oh Honey

I wish there were some way to protect young women from this hideous disease.

Just know that we care, and will be here for you.

Sue

I'm so sorry.  I know how scary the waiting itself was, as I was waiting for tests myself (still am). 

Cry as much as you need, and lean on us.  The women here are incredible support. 

Love and prayers, Deb

After a long night of crying. I am coming to some type of acceptace (JUST A LIL). I'm still mad and still angry. It's not fair. There will be no surgery, chemo or raditaion. I am HER negative and estrogen positive. At 30 years old i'm being put on Lupron Injections, Letrozole and Zoledronic Acid. Lupron Injections are going to throw me into a post menopausal state (hot flashes, irratiability and all that comes with being post menopausal and as if i'm not miserable and irratible on a bad day). So no children for me. My mother will  NEVER be a grandma. There's always adoption but it's not the same. I'm not ready to deal with that. My period will stop.  I did my first shot yesterday. The Letrozole is for for my bones. I'll get my first IV next Friday. And I will start the Zoledronic Acid pills mid week, those will work in conjunction with the Lupron shots to stop any other organs from making estrogen.  They spread all the medication out not to cause too much confusion in my body. 

I know my health and well being comes first to be here with family and friends. And I thank God to see more days but it feels so unfair as a woman. I feel so numb now. I cried all night. My eyes are puffy. My heart is hurting.

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR LOVE n KIND WORDS. I COME ON JUST TO READ YOUR WORDS FOR SUPPORT AND STRENGTH.

MsV,

I'm glad your onc has a plan. I'm sorry that it takes out future children, but I'm sure your mother would rather have you around for a long time right now. The sorrow of losing the children option should be replaced with the joy of your living.

How are you feeling otherwise?  Have the hot flashes started?  They can be wicked at first, but they do diminish with time. I went through natural menopause, starting about ten years ago. I didn't know that I was having hot flashes...just thought something was embarrassing me—that's the way it felt before I could identify them. Then they started getting hotter and more frequent. And the night sweats were the most disrupting. I haven't had a full night's sleep since they started. 

But you learn to cope. A fan near your bed really helps the night sweats. I also kept a small paper fan at my desk at work. I don't think I had any extra irritability...but then you'd really have to ask my family about that .

I'm praying for you, MsV. I'm hoping your youthful strength is on your side.