I hope it's benign. I hope my 6- and 8-year-olds are not adversely affected. I hope I can stop worrying.
I am 44, and I have already had two uterine polyps removed, a parathyroid adenoma removed, and several thyroid nodule biopsies. I am no stranger to waiting for biopsies but I can't help but wonder when my luck (such as it is) will run out.
I hope not yet...
I had my first-ever mammo last month and am having the ultrasound on 5/12. I have pain and burning and heated sensations of "something is not quite right", so I am certain another biopsy will follow. I've had pain in the past and mentioned it to my ob/gyn, but somehow never followed up on it. I know it doesn't help, but I am angry at myself for putting this off for so long. I just wanted to live a normal working-mother life. I feel like a burden for all the time I've already missed from home and work for other medical procedures.
Anyway, I hope while I am waiting that I make the best of it. I hope that I enjoy my friends and family more, that I take care of my body better, that I am as productive and positive as possible in the meantime.
Care to join me?
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Shirlann Joined: Feb 2002 Posts: 6058 |
May 8, 2008 09:04 pm
Shirlann wrote:
Shelle, don't beat yourself up. Most breast cancers, if this is even what it is, are 8 to 12 years old when large enough to be found by any means. In the old days, and still, for some breast cancers, time is critical, but not for most of us. So try not to worry till you know more. 80% of these "thingys" are nothing, and that is a huge number. And surprisingly enough, very often, the family rallies around and this thing (if it even happens) is not that bad for everyone. Things get said that should be said anyway. Hugs and kisses that we all should be giving out, get given out. Normally, and not always, but normally pain is not a factor. Some women do have pain but most don't. And even if you get BC, it is 90% curable. That too, is a large number. So you are most likely fine and be sure and come and let us know what happens. I will join you, and give a few extra hugs and encouragement to those I love. Gentle hugs, Shirlann |
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She11e Joined: May 2008 Posts: 3 |
May 9, 2008 12:27 am
She11e wrote:
Shirlann, Thank you SO much for your encouraging words! I haven't been able to bring myself to tell anyone yet, so your help is enormously appreciated. I will definitely post back and let you know what turns up on the ultrasound. Meanwhile, I'll be focusing on all the positives in my life *AND* on all the hopeful information I can find. This site is wonderful (thanks to folks like you); such a relief to have so much information together with optimism and support. With deepest gratitude, Shelle |
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drcrisc Joined: Apr 2008 Posts: 238 |
May 9, 2008 12:41 am
drcrisc wrote:
Shelle, I am at the beginning of this "journey" and am (almost) 41. I, too, hope my 4 and (almost) 9 year olds are not affected. But they are. And then they get over/past it. So will you. I will hope that you do not have to join us, but if you do, we are here. This has been one of the most healing places for me. I hope that you get the best possible news in the shortest time. Sending hugs your way... Cristine ~ Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not get bent out of shape!
Dx 3/24/2008, IDC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 2, 0/3 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2- |
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She11e Joined: May 2008 Posts: 3 |
May 14, 2008 03:51 pm
She11e wrote:
Dear Shirlann and Drcrisc ~~ Thank you, thank you and THANKS again for your support! So far, I am lucky. The ultrasound came back OK. Part of me is still not sure whether to believe that, but I am just taking it one day at a time. I still have the pain to address, but that seems so doable now. (Tho I confess it still presents a nagging worry...) Anyway, for now the pain is a good reminder to keep appreciating the life I have right now. Who knows what tomorrow brings. I am on the prayer chain at my church and very often we are asked to pray for those with breast cancer. Until this month, it was a very abstract thing for me. Now I have faces and names and feelings to connect to. Whenever I am praying for them, I will also be remembering you -- your deeply appreciated support and your willingness to help when you yourself are in the process of battling this challenge. I am really grateful to you for being here in my hour of need. I am humbled at how much love there is on this site. Blessings to all, ~~Shelle |
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