Topic: complicated cysts appearances nonspecific

Thankyou craftygal, I appreciate your reply.

Is scary in the fact I lost a sister to Melanoma in 2003. Only survived for 11 weeks from time of diognosis, thought family would band together as we always have been very close, when infact it seperated us and caused tension and long periods of no contact at all. Its is only recently things have become normal? amongst us and all talking again.

Have told them what is going on with me but reluctant to say to much to my sisters and worried about mum. I know that it is futile to jump the gun but when you are alone and waiting on answers you mind can get a little carried away. I also realize that it all could be a storm in a tea cup and could and probably will have a possitive out come.

It is comforting to know that I can have somewhere to express fears or just dribble on.

I wish you well with your treatment and send you cyber support as you go through it all.

I see my GP to discuss what next this monday, your sunday.

Always with a smile on my face..........Jalydiju

jalydiju,

I'm here, I'm listening, and I'm interested!

Everything you are feeling is perfectly normal.  The waiting and uncertainty are terrible.

I've had several nights of very strange dreams lately too.   Hmmm, never associated them with stress (guess I thought I was just losing my mind)! 

It's good that you have a lot going on to help you stay distracted, even better that much of it involves wonderful family time.

Our youngest (our daughter) will be home this Sunday for one week, before she heads off for her summer job. 

So far, since March, I've had a call back on my annual mammogram; I was told at my diagnostic mammogram that I needed biopsies; I saw my surgeon who recommended wire guided excisional biopsies; my pathology report indicated atypical ductal hyperplasia.  My slides have been sent off to a pathologist who specializes in breast tissue (to be sure it's only ADH and not DCIS); I've seen an oncologist who has ordered an MRI and wants to wait and see the 2nd path report.  The fun just keeps on coming.  I'm dealing with things better these days, but I was a mess for the first few weeks.  I think once we start down this road, even if we get the best possible news, we are never quite the same. 

Hang in there.  You are not alone.  Feel free to vent away, any time!

Dukemom

Hi Dukemom,

I really need to become more computer savy.

How long do you have to wait for 2nd path report? How frustrating to not yet say "Yahoo" or "Dohhh".

I will have my fingers crossed for you and hope you receive some very quick and sure answers.

I am pleased my youngest is comming home, but to tell the truth it has been hard sailing to muster the effort to get everything sorted for him and his girlfriend. Just the energy to clean and shop for their arrival has been a bit of a pain in the bum. I suppose I shouldnt be to fussy but like most mum's when their prodical child comes home I wanted to do it with bells and whistles.

Ive had only 3 hours sleep and have had to rush around like a chook with it's head cut off for most of today. I am emotionally tired as well. Sick to death of feeling up and down. Much too taxing, don't know why I do it to myself.

I know that when he gets here that I will feel better, He has offered to come to my GP appointment monday but I don't want him to. Don't want anyone to accompany me, just want to go by myself. There still won't be anything to tell so no point in dragging people to wait hours for no answer.

I hope you and you daughter get to spend many special times together on her visit.

Thankyou so much for your thoughts.......Jalydiju

jalydiju,

I agree with jeeza, you should ask your doctor for something to either help you sleep at night, or to help with the anxiety (or both).  If you get something for anxiety, you may be able to sleep better.  This is such a stressful time, many of us need to take something to help us get through the awful 'not knowing' phase.  Don't be afraid to ask.  When my internist received a copy of the report of my diagnostic mammo, he called me to make sure I had made an appointment with a surgeon.  At that time, he offered to phone in a script for something for anxiety for me.  Doctors know stressful this is, so don't be afraid to ask for something.

I know what you mean about wanting everything to be perfect when our kids return home.  Just don't wear yourself out in the process.  You need to take care of yourself through this mess. 

Dukemom

Hay Jezza, Dukemom and Craftygal,

Today was my grandaughters christening and I missed it. I missed it because my husband had a few drinks for breakfast so I had to drive . Didn't know where I was going he had to give me directions and because of the liquid breakfast the directions were wrong. Missed my first grandchilds christening.

Lack of sleep and stress just made me totally lose it. Spat the dummy (pacifier) so far they will never find it. The good thing to come out of it is that I got rid of some of the tension and now feel like I want to sleep for a week.

Craftygal, I believe that it isn't silly to have thought of your dh in regards to you friends dads passing. Very normal as you are worried about the possibility, due to your dh's lifestyle choices. Your Doc is right, nothing can be changed until that person is ready. I have been trying to get my husband to for ages. He is a alcoholic. Through all the struggles with this addiction the one important thing is that he is the only one that can make the choice to stop. He has had a stent put into one of his arteries, he has high blood pressure and he has liver damage, has been in and out of hospital, it frightens him while it is happening but it doesn't take long for him to think he is invinsible again when he comes out and feels alright.

When my sister#2 passed away, I had the most awful dreams. I dream't that I would go to see my parents and other siblings and they would of packed up the whole house and moved without telling me. I had a lot of deams where she was with us still but was very fragile and sick. I had to look after her and I couldn't let anybody else do it as I was responsible for her. Before Xmas I dreamt that I was on a sailing boat and the weather was beautiful, she was there with a friend and she was happy and loved where she was. I havent had any bad dreams about her since.

Strange how our subconscious sorts out our stress.Maybe and it is only a opinion, that because you are worried about what you are facing, it is comming out in your dreams in as loosing the people you care about most.

I hope that Monday brings you some peace and if you find yourself up at 4am I will be listening, may not answer straight away but I am there.

I do make myself sound like a episode of Days of Our Dreary's but its not really. I dont feel sorry for myself and I am no diff from the woman nextdoor. Just been given one of Gods little challenges to help me grow stronger.

                                                         Jalydiju

Hi to all my new friends,

Thanks for your kind advice. We are all in a special sort of stressful situation. It takes special friends to listen and understand. Glad we have each other.

jaly & duke-Sorry you missed your granddaughter's special day. Find some comfort in hope that she will share many other special times with you in future. I've dreamt of being lost but I also dream of happy family gatherings and picnics. I know its stress of my dx and of feeling "out of control" of dh's health status. Hope to be past this in few months and back to the picnic dreams. Wish same for all of us.

My adjustment to Mother Theresa quote is "I know God doesn't give us what we can't handle. Just wish it would be someone else's turn sooner. " Sometimes sooner doesn't come soon enough for us though, right??

Slept better last night. Also have decided to start looking for part-time or flexible work (for next few months). I think this will help me feel like I'm progressing back toward normal life. Also helps me feel like I'm helping with household again. I won't take any position that is too stressful, or that will not allow me adequate rest time and time off for dr appts. Just want to look around and see what I find.

I'm don't feel sorry for myself. I have many blessings of family and friends. This is just short detour from what I (any of us) expected. 

But the stress shines light on other weak spots in our lives too.

I've always been a "fixer". Just hard to break habit of wanting to or trying to "fix" all the troubles in my life and those I care for. Guess that's another lesson I am supposed to learn from my dx. 

Have a good day and a restful night.

Janice 

Jalydiju,

What an amazingly strong mom you have.  She has had to deal with far more adversity than many people, and it sounds like she did so with great grace.  I can hear in your words how very proud you are of her.  I'm sure that you are the strong woman your mom raised you to be, and that you will always be there for her.

Dukemom

Thanks Girls,

I think my mum is petty special. She dosn't want much from us, she only wants to see us all settled and happy. As most of our mothrs do anyway.

I am waiting now for results of my FNA. Feeling a bit flat about the whole thing. Boob is a bit sore from FNA but nothing to cry about.

Cysts didnt deflate. Is this anything to be concerned about? Thought when cysts where aspirated that they collapsed. Was difficult to get samples from the cysts but finally  manage to. Think maybe more solid than fluid in side?  Oh well will know in a few days.

Jaly

Received call from GP while I was out yesterday. They have results, have to make an appointment to find out what they are next week.

Wanted to slap receptionist as message said " Not terribly urgent, Dr wants to discuss results, please make an appointment " Didnt like the way she said it. May not be urgent to her....different story to me.

No we dont have Memorial Day but we do have ANZAC DAY (25th April) and Rememberance Day (11th hour on the 11th month). ANZAC DAY is for all the Australian and New Zealand servicemen that fought in WW1 especially in Gollipilli (Turkey). Rememberance Day is to honour all our servicemen that fought and died in all wars.

Thanks for the encouragement.....appreciated....Jaly

Hello Dukemom,

Yes Not terribly urgent! Can you believe it. Stupid husband tried to convince me that it meant all is good news. Wanted to slap him to.

What is that statement meant to mean? Not terribly urgent comparable to.....magnificently urgent, maybe fantasticly urgent, better still I am awfully glad she didnt say scarely urgent.

The way she said it sounded like she was reading it over and making a decision on what to say. "Not.............t..er ri...bly  urgent". Bloody hell. Still want to smack her.

Sorry I do go on.

Have a good weekend ...........Jaly

Oh Jaly, I am so sorry you had to have a ditz call you. I would help Dukemom hold her down so she can get a pounding.

Hang in there. I will pray for you.

Hugs,

Melody

I agree with Julee. I sure am glad there are people out there like Julz. When I had a very scary surgery last summer, I remembered every comment that the nurses made. It wasn't even so much their words, a lot was their expression, and their tone of voice - if they expressed genuine concern or reassurance.

I don't think it has to take a lot of time. It would have taken just as much time to say something like "I'm sorry you are going through this. I'm not allowed to give you the diagnosis, but I'll try to get you the first appointment I can with the doctor so you can discuss it with him/her." She must do this hundreds of times, and chose a position with a lot of people contact, so she should be able to get it right.

Some people might do better if they went through something like this themselves. But for some, I don't know if they're just too self-involved.

I know I regularly put my foot in my mouth too. I think sensitivity training should be part of the curriculum for lots of health care people.

Hi, Jaly! So glad you liked it......How about this for a visual....Hawaiian Islands, sunset, something fun & fruity with a kick of course. And a couple of nice gorgeous Hunks to wait on our every whim! Oh! & I forgot the dart board with a certain nurses picture on it. LOL! Oh I know I've been married 23 Yrs. today! My husband & I have always said we can look at the menu, but would never order from it!!!!LOL! & by the way I don't drink & never could afford the plane ticket to Hawaii! AHHHHHH! but alas all I have are visuals!!!!!

P.S. Don't anyone take me wrong, I GET BY WITH HUMOR! Or I would probably cause the next great flood!

Most of the time the dream is better than actually taking the trip. In the dream there are no delays by airports, tour buses, kids or husbands. Nothing breaks down or is forgotten and services is always 5 star AND you get to share it with people you want there, no whinging whiney obnoxious know alls. You can buy and eat what you want when you want without having someone tell you dont want it or need it.

Heres to dreams. ..........Jaly