well today i found out that my daughter was officially diagnosed with mixed bi-polar disorder. this is a more complicated and difficult variation and is also the most dangerous from what i've read. my heart is broken in a million pieces. i know God is not cruel but i wonder how many things one person can lose, my husband, my health, my freedom from doing normal things. believe me i know i shouldn't feel this way and i will talk to someone soon.
tomorrow is my pet scan and i'm resigned to a bad result. i was always an optimistic person but it just seems as though all i ever get is bad news. please don't think i don't realize that many many have things so much worse than i do...i know that. it just seems that bad things just keep piling on my family one after the other the past 10-15 years. believe it or not i don't feel depressed...just so so sad. at any rate i'll take a xanax tonight for sleep and tomorrow that dam scan. i do have a caregiver coming to stay with my husband so at least i don't have to worry about him alone in the waiting room.
thanks for listening.
maria
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iodine Joined: Oct 2002 Posts: 7154 |
Feb 26, 2008 02:15 am
iodine wrote:
Oh, Maria, my heart goes out to you. How does one ans. such a plea for help and understanding from someone going thru the most awful time in her life. I am so sorry about your daughter, but -- it may take a while, but the correct combination of meds can allow her to have a very happy and normal life. The bad news has to stop at some time or other. In the meantime, do you have a pastor or counselor you can see? You certainly deserve some help and meds and talk therapy can do wonders for us during the ovewhelming times. Dotti---BE NOT AFRAID, Pope John Paul
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