Topic: Does anybody look different?

I've finished A/C and am now on my 7th treatment of Taxol. My face is alot lighter than it was before. To me I look sick. I don't look the same as before. My eyes look glassy also. Everyone else says they don't see a difference, but I see it. I was supposed to start Herceptin also but the A/C did damage to my heart. I can't wait until this is done and over with.

I've also noticed the darkening around the knuckles.

Hello everyone,

Like everyone else been through alot of changes.  My nails are still black looks like they have polish on them.  My hands and knuckles had turned black also but have gone back to the original shade.  However ever i did love the way my skin felt during chemo.  Felt soft like baby skin and it looked like i just glowed.  Now my face is starting to peel.  Any suggestions on a good skin cleanser for AA skin?  My hair is finally growing in.  I love it.  I even love it short the way it is. I can't wait to be able to just slick it down and not wear the wigs and hats anymore in public.  I have been bold and going outside around my house.  My neighbor noticed my bald head and yelled over (I think he was a bit drunk) what did you do with all of your hair.  Not knowing that I had been dx with bc.  I told him lost it during chemo.  His mouth just dropped and he apologized for about an hour.  But it actually was a good thing.  It's a young white couple and I rarely convo with them but now they talk over to me all the time.  Also just found out that my neighbor on the other side of me is actually dying of cancer.  I had been noticing the hospice people going to there house everyday.  I feel so bad because the last time we spoke to one another it wasn't very nice.  White lady in her late 40's.  She told my son and his friends while they were playing water balloons and water gun fighting not to spray water in her grass.  There huge tree fell over into my yard and damaged my fence.  And they refused to do anything about it.  The isurance said since it was a live tree we were responsible for all of the damages.  So they felt oh well your problem.  So it's been sort of a strained neighborly situation.  Now I feel bad for them.  My husband being the man that he is went yesterday and asked how was she doing.  Thats when we had found out.  He told them about me and they had no idea we had been going through also.  It's scarry to think about it.  Who chooses rather who lives and dies from this thing?  Was I a better person than she was?  Is carma really a @#$^&?  I don't know.  I am still at a stand still as to what to do next.  Working it out one day at a time. 

Love you and praying for you all

Sabrina

Wandra,

I'm still doing chemo (taxol).  I noticed the spots with Adriamycin and now they are less noticeable so are my palms.  My feet still look crazy though and my nails are black but I try to keep a decent looking polish on them.  But on the other hand the rest of my skin is really smooth and soft, go figure.