Posted on: Jul 16, 2015 09:21AM - edited Aug 1, 2017 10:46PM by sas-schatzi
Posted on: Jul 16, 2015 09:21AM - edited Aug 1, 2017 10:46PM by sas-schatzi
This thread is meant to be for RANTS and RANTING. Then Rant again. We need a place to simply get rid of the anger. Write it here. Unleash it all. Get it out. This isn't meant for the Stupid comments(great thread). This is for the gut wrenching, tell them off anger.
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Apr 10, 2018 09:03PM kathindc wrote:
Sometimes you just have to step back and let them figure it out on their own or with professional help. Don't take it personally. That's not easy to do. Be there for them when they come around. It's hard, no denying that. It does hurt you to your very core. And yes, I've been there and done that. You may want to get some counseling for yourself if for no other reason but to get some guidance.
Apr 11, 2018 12:28AM runor wrote:
Meow, hope I am not one who is about to make it worse. But from reading the last few posts, it sounds like something is going on with your son, something within himself, that is beyond his control. When a person is steeped in anxiety and depression, they change. The way they stand changes, their posture changes. Their sleeping and eating changes. And how they relate to others also changes. And who gets it the worst? Moms.
I have a theory, and it's probably a stupid one, but it's one I repeated over and over to keep from placing my HORRIBLE teen daughter into foster care, because I was done with her, just done. Over and over I told myself that you don't kick your boat if you think you're going to sink it. While it is an abuse of power for our kids to mistreat us as they do, I think they do it because they know we can withstand it. Oh, they don't give a shit how we feel about it. That is not their concern. But they KNOW that they can crap on us and we are sturdy enough, dedicated enough, smart enough and loyal enough NOT to shut the door on their crabby, little faces. No. Instead we go away, lick our wounds, maybe put some distance between us, but show up and do what needs doing when they need us. And that's why they kick us. Because they know they can't punch a hole in the boat and make it sink. It is because we are good and strong and reliable parents that it is safe for our kids to act like shitheads. It is cold comfort, I know.
My perception is that you are hurt but also fearful for your son. He seems off track, struggling. I know when my daughter has a bad time in life her reaction to overwhelming situations is to lay the blame for ALL OF IT at my feet. I used to rise to the bait. I used to argue and try to defend myself and my actions. That's what made it effective for her. She played her part and me, all hurt and offended, played mine. So I quit. When she said, "I would have a better life if I had better parents!" I say, oh yeah. It's not a question. It's not a challenge. It's just flat and dull and holds no emphasis. "I'd be better off if I'd gotten pregnant when I was 14!" Oh yeah. "I'm going to quit my job and work as a prostitute!" Oh yeah. Our kids are often scared, confused and feel powerless but they have one super power, and that makes them feel powerful and bold and that is the power to make mom feel like shit. So they do it. Because they can be pitiful assholes. We love them. But they can still be assholes.
Meow, I hope your boy finds his way. He is struggling. You are a good mom. You did the right things. You care and that makes you vulnerable to being hurt. If you did not love your son he would have ZERO power to wound you. Hold the faith that this is a rough patch but he'll get through. Hold the faith that he will grow out of it and get a brain and realize what a turd he's being. You may need to distance yourself a little, and I am so sorry for the sickening pain this causes. I know it well. But you did your job and the next phase of becoming human, that's on him.
Apr 11, 2018 04:33AM micmel wrote:
oh.... my bad I thought we were talking about DD. Because ok it's amazing. I also have a son tooooo. A son that was mommy's little silly guy always making me smile and laugh, the same exact thing meow hapened to me with my son. He had his school all paid For. He said I hate it, I'm learning nothing. We said just get your associates and start from there into another program for bachelors degree. He went but he just didn't have what it took to do it. Plain and simple. We can lead them to water. But we can't make them choose the cool water drink instead of the trawl that has muck and bugs and days old oats in it for food choices. We can only do so much. Especially, if they aren't helping themselves. I gave him 30 days to get a full Time job...he got one. Wow Mom weeks are long. are things I am hearing now from him. I am wondering if they are the same age ? Seems to be the age of do or doom!! Hang in there darling. It does wax and wane. Like everything else does. Sending big hugs. I know it's hard. I cry everyday. For many reasons.... I just have to choose one, there at so many if we sit and look for them. But the kids they do cut like a knife. Oh yes they do. Much love ~M~ Waves to Runor, hi darling!!
Apr 11, 2018 08:08AM Cpeachymom wrote:
My husband has a good analogy for this behavior- similar to runor’s explanation. They are so lost, tossing in a turbulent sea. We are their rock, so they are always crashing against us. Full brunt of everything. And somehow as parents, it’s our job to take it. My older daughter is a freshmen in college, and she’s trying to get a rise out of me. We live 12 minutes from campus, and first she started staying with friends on campus. Ok. Then she unilaterally applied to dorm on campus. Ok, but I’m not paying for it. Now, she wants to get an apartment with her friends. Ok. She works part time- good luck. She just keeps upping the ante. This way when she fails, she can blame it on me. But I won’t take the bait, I don’t do drama. She’s been my child her whole life, you’d think she’d know better. Growing up is hard, and the only way to do it right is to screw up!
Apr 11, 2018 11:12AM - edited Apr 11, 2018 11:15AM by meow13
Thanks, I am obviously very worried but yesterday the hurt went right through me. It appears my youngest son is in a bit of denial he needs help. My older son thinks he is way too involved with a video game called Tera. He is losing his friends and resorting to playing on line. He is entering the next phase of life. I wish my older son could help but the youngest has never been nice to him or showed caring for him.
Unfortunately, I think he has to hit rock bottom before anything happens.
We all have one thing in common breast cancer, and many of us have children it really helps to talk with you.
Apr 11, 2018 11:22AM Dianarose wrote:
My oldest son(37) and my youngest (18) are feuding. It was all a misunderstanding on the oldest sons part. He waited till there was a bunch of guys around then started screaming at him and threatening to punch him. Seriously, he was not raised like that! If he drives by the youngest son he gives him the finger. Really!!! When I tried to talk to him he told me to mind my own business or he’s done with me too. The youngest son cried as he was so hurt. The oldest is married with 4 kids. He reall needs to grow up. I’m tired of it.
Apr 11, 2018 04:29PM Lula73 wrote:
sounds like a bunch of us are dealing with this type of behavior with our toddlers -er, sorry, I meant young adult children - on top of dealing with BC. Thinking we might need our own thread for this topic.🙂