Dec 7, 2020 01:59PM moth wrote:
I hear you.
I will not fail this or lose some battle. Medicine will fail me and my body will lose its ability to maintain homeostasis.
I'm going to one up you & say that really nothing about me changed - I had no pivot or change in priorities. I'm still procrastinating, still grumpy, still borderline reclusive. Nothing changed about my priorities because I liked my life before & nothing about it changed except this stupid cancer is interfering with all of it. I had a plan (go back to school, start new career, do more dog sports, adopt more dogs) and I kept plodding on. I was writing exams between surgery & chemo in 2018. I was back in school while still doing rads in Sep 2018. Now with a stage IV dx in Feb 2020 I had to give almost all of it up. Some might think maybe now I'll have some revelation....but nope. Still same old me.
Initial dx at 50. Seriously?? “Sometimes the future changes quickly and completely and we’re left with only the choice of what to do next." blog: Never Tell Me the OddsDx 12/2017, IDC, Left, 1cm, Stage IA, Grade 3, 0/5 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2- (IHC) Surgery 12/12/2017 Lumpectomy: Left; Lymph node removal: Sentinel Chemotherapy 2/14/2018 AC + T (Taxol) Radiation Therapy 8/13/2018 Whole-breast: Breast Dx 2/2020, IDC, Stage IV, metastasized to liver/lungs, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2- Chemotherapy 3/18/2020 Taxol (paclitaxel) Immunotherapy 3/19/2020 Tecentriq (atezolizumab) Chemotherapy 11/26/2020 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel) Dx 12/9/2020, IDC, Right, Stage IV, metastasized to lungs, Grade 3, PR-, HER2- (IHC) Radiation Therapy 12/9/2020 External: Chest wall Dx 1/28/2021, IDC, Left, Stage IV, metastasized to bone Radiation Therapy 3/3/2021 External: Bone