Dec 28, 2020 04:08PM Astrid wrote:
illimae, loved it!!!!
well, I get the sentiment of the thread, I really do, but nah. Can't agree with it.
I am definitely a warrior with enduring spirit.
Not a survivor...no way.
I am a THRIVER.
I get back up, I grow and change...I overcome.
I do that. It's not something that happens to me.
It's not passive.
First of all I have to make a tiny decision
Do I want to live?
Do I want to stick around?
Or am I secretly tired of life and happy for my ticket out.
If I want to live, and live fully then I need to decide what I believe in.
Do I trust that these medical folks have my back?
Do I trust their years of training against me going it alone and trusting natural therapies some say have worked?
A friend wanted to live, but she chose plan B and did not make it.
I researched and actively put my trust in medical teams. I did that. It wasn't passive.
It was a courageous decision because it was harder to choose chemo and rads than not. Knowing there may be side effects later is not easy. You need to know why you want to live and live well.
That is an active decision. Especially when life has not been easy.
Then there are the possible side effects of surgery. Like lymphedema. I have that.
So when cancer came back, and I was tired and sick of putting on sleeves and the swelling and the aches and pain from surgeries and reco and on and on...
I asked myself again. Do you want to live and why? What is your purpose here on earth?
I answered my secret answers and said a big YES to rads again. To surgery again. To tablets again.
I did that. I chose.
I am courageous
I am indeed a warrior.
Not a survivor