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Jul 21, 2019 04:43PM
Chris, thank you for your prayers. I'm not really strong - but my Savior is and when I am weak, HE is strong.
Lita, I know that you are to the point of suffering terribly, and I can't even imagine how hard it is, as I have not been there. But I pray our Lord will, in His great mercy. ease your pain and hardships whether He keeps you here with us or takes you to glory. May He grant you grace to endure until He calls you Home to Glory. Wish I could just give you a warm, sisterly, compassionate hug.
Nancy, I pray your mom's application WILL go through - may our Lord bless it with favor. Are yours and Cammie's GI systems any better? How did she do on the trip? I pray you feel better now with all you have going. It's hard enough when you feel good.
I agree with Nancy that we shouldn't get into a big debate about suicide here but should rather lift one another up in prayer and offer encouragement. I will watch the documentary today.
I would like to offer my experience, however, with my parents' passings. My mother was dieing of congestive heart failure and as a nurse she knew it was to be a long hard road. She took medication to prolong it until life became unbearable for her, and then she, with doctor's ok, decided to go off of the medication. I was there as she was in the final stages of life, struggling for every breath. The hospice nurse asked my sister & I if we would want her to have a relaxing injection so she wouldn't struggle so, and we said she should. Within minutes she calmed down and drew her last breath in peace. I don't feel that was assisted suicide and my sister and I have peace.
Our dad suffered from Crohn's Disease since I was a baby and when his kidneys finally gave out and he was dieing in the hospital we were asked by the doctor if we wanted him to be put on dialysis which meant a 4 hour treatment every other day at the hospital, and still he would never recover, but would steadily go downhill. He was in terrible pain and I couldn't even touch him without his flinching. I knew he would not want to go on suffering like that (was having an IV infusion for 12 hours a day as it was) so we declined and he passed within a day. We do not feel guilt over that either and don't feel it was a 'mercy killing', but rather an end to his terrible suffering. I was able to talk with both parents about salvation in the final days, for which I am grateful.
Really, how can we say what we would do if in complete agony with no hope for comfort? So I cannot judge another and only God knows the heart.
My grandfather lost my grandmother, and was going blind. His love was reading. He was terribly depressed and slit his wrists one day. I visited him in the hospital and he said, "Adie, I don't know why God won't let me die. . .I know you are close to Him. . .will you pray for Him to let me die?" I said that I wouldn't pray for that but would lift him up to the Lord, which I did. The next day I was on the way to the hospital to see him and praying for wisdom as to what to tell him. When I got there the Lord put the words in my mouth and I could tell my grandfather 'got it'. The next day I received a call that he was sitting up in his chair, having just finished his lunch, and peacefully slipped away. I didn't cry because I KNEW that he was Home!
Every one of us since our diagnosis has had to think about the end of life. Only God knows the number of our days, how and when. But it is ours to know Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior and in that He will give us His assurance of our Heavenly Home when the time comes.
I love you all and pray I have not offended anyone in my sharing.
Lord bless and keep you and grant you His peace.
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