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Nov 28, 2020 11:38PM
Nancy, once again your pictures are lovely. I had to make a quick trip to pick up a new med about 4:00 pm today and driving back, heading east, the moon was just starting to appear in the sky. It was a lovely sight I don’t see very often. I thought of you taking a lovely photo of it. I’m sorry you started Thanksgiving with such grief but it’s so very understandable. You’ve been through so much lately and you will certainly be in my prayers on Wednesday for the MRI.
Well, right now, DH’s knee replacement is set for January 22, that is if it’s not postponed for Covid. He really needs it but the thought of it has given me lots of anxiety. I could really use some prayers for this anxiety that is not going away. The med I picked up today is the third different one in the last couple of months. I’m feeling very frustrated and upset that I can’t get a handle on this. It had greatly impacted my life.
We did have an okay Thanksgiving, I cooked most of the usual dishes but took the easy way out by getting a precooked turkey breast. Parts of the day were great, especially when our three Idaho granddaughters called on face time. It was a wonderful surprise to see them together since one lives in Philadelphia, one goes to college in South Bend, IN and they were visiting the other one in Denver. Their parents were supposed to be there also but chose not to go because of Covid and because they couldn’t visit with the other grandma in her facility which was the original purpose of all of them going to Denver where the other grandma lives. I also talked to our other three children but it’s not the same as being together. But it was also a very emotional day, as I was cooking dinner we were listening to music from Pandora and they started playing “Piu Jesu”, I love that song and it brought me to tears. They were so many memories flooding in, and so I cried like I haven’t done in ages. It was good just to let go of all the anxiety I’ve been holding in.
Well, our two granddaughters (the nurses) both have Covid but thankfully it appears to be mild for them. Right now they are bored with the quarantine and can’t wait to go back to work. So, maybe we will be able to have some sort of celebration at Christmas with at least part of the family. Counting our blessings, our daughter came today and helped us put up and decorate the Christmas tree and the rest of the house. I guess we’re doing it to cheer ourselves up as I doubt anyone else will even be here with this stupid virus.
Ade, I don’t know where you found the energy to cook that wonderful dinner for so many people but it’s wonderful that you were all able to be together. I pray you were able to have a good rest after that and that you both feel well.
Chris, I also don’t know how you found the energy to do all the cooking too. However, I’m so sorry you are having stomach pains now. I know where your mind goes immediately but maybe, the stomach pain is being caused by stress which we all have a lot of lately. My stomach has also been very painful at times lately and I’m fairly sure it’s related to my anxiety causing IBS symptoms. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love and prayers for all of you here and also those who are reading but not posting.
Faith (in the future)
1/1991, Left, Stage IIIB, 8/26 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
1/5/1991 Lumpectomy: Left
2/4/1991 Mastectomy: Left
1/2016, ILC, Left, 6cm+, Stage IV, metastasized to lungs, ER+/PR+, HER2- (FISH)
1/23/2016 Femara (letrozole)
1/23/2016 Ibrance (palbociclib)
Reconstruction (left): Nipple reconstruction, Nipple tattoo, Silicone implant, Tissue expander placement
Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)