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Oct 8, 2012 01:06PM
Thanks for all the posts. It always helps me to air my feelings. In response to Kathleen the first time I had a lumpectomy, and chemo and radiation and all of those items were supposed to make my chance of recurrence somewhere around 7%. The surgery was to get clear margins (which they did), then the chemo was to get any leftover cells and then radiation was to ZAP whatever might still be lurking. One of those things failed. OR, the cell went somewhere else and waited to return to it's favorite place to grow. I don't know. All I know is that the stupid beast came back. And now after the BMX, which supposedly had clear margins (even though one of the two tumors was underlying the chest muscle) I'm given a stat of 40%.
So if it came back after all those things I did to prevent it (and at 7%) what is keeping it from coming back after only surgery (at 40%)?
I know I need to do things to keep me from dwelling on it....its just so damned hard.
1st dx, 2007, IDC, Stage 1 (1.2cm), grade 3, 0/1 node, TriNeg.....2nd dx, 2011, IDC, Stage 2 (3.2cm & 1.5cm) grade 3, 0/1 node, Tri-Neg......BMX with DIEP 2/16/12......3rd dx, lung mets, Stage IV, 7/24/14.
12/19/2011, IDC, 3cm, Stage IIA, Grade 3, 0/1 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2-
11/16/2007, IDC, 1cm, Stage IA, Grade 3, 0/3 nodes, ER-/PR-, HER2-
7/24/2014, IDC, 3cm, Stage IV, Grade 3, 0/3 nodes, mets, ER-/PR-, HER2-
01/03/2008 Cytoxan (chemical name: cyclophosphamide), Taxotere (chemical name: docetaxel)