Topic: scanxiety, cant stop thinking im going to die

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Posted on: Dec 26, 2021 08:54AM

Posted on: Dec 26, 2021 08:54AM

minarchist wrote:

hi, i have no one to talk to and im freaking out and i need just anyone to please help me think everything is going to be OK

i have been in treatment for stage one since the end of 2019, lumpectomy, sentinal node removal, radiation, tamoxifen--you know the drill

my mammos have been clean, i dont feel bad, i take my tamoxifen religiously, Dr.s have been happy with my progress every time

last time i had blood drawn my CA 27.29 was elevated to 43 and i have to wait til the 30th for a full chest abdomen and pelvis CT scan. i cant stop worrying that i have ovarian cancer and im going to die. like this is it. i dotn know what anyoen alive could say to me to help me. i take care of my 102 yr old deaf blind grandmother, if i have to put her in respite care for soem kind of surgery it will cost me 10k a month, just to die anyway.

anyway, i have literally no way of comprehending what the chances are theyre going to find something worse, i cant stop thinking that elevated number DEFINITELY means "this is it", even though my dr didnt seem too alarmed by it and said she just wanted to check, just the fact that she ordered such a big scan makes me think she DOES think its something

i feel like im going to burst into tears and scream "OMG IM GOING TO DIE" every second

if anyone can help me i would really appreciate it, because i dont think i can take this


Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Dec 26, 2021 04:52PM minarchist wrote:

i just had a long talk with my father, who is a Dr, and he thinks i should do the scan and bolstered the belief it will be nothing, i guess i feel like i really have no choice but to do it, maybe in the new year i will look for a new oncologist thanks for all your support

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Dec 26, 2021 04:53PM minarchist wrote:

yes i am going to, i am just trying to chatter my anxiety away i guess. thanks for your comment, i think youre right

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Jan 4, 2022 10:47AM minarchist wrote:

CAT on 12/30, still no call with results. im just going to die of worry instead

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Jan 4, 2022 10:55AM mountainmia wrote:

minarchist, I get ya. But I'll also say this: I went in this morning for basic blood tests prior to my PCP annual exam Thursday. It was 7:45 and the phlebotomist was already stressed. She said, good thing I was in so early, before it gets busy. They are short-staffed by 5 people today. There are only 6 blood-draw stations in the lab, so being down 5 people is the majority.

You have New Year's holiday, you have normal winter illness, and you have covid-related staff shortages. Unfortunately, though you are your own highest priority, you might not be the highest priority of your health care center, from a medical perspective.

Please find something else to do while you wait. Good luck.

The rain comes and the rain goes, but the mountain remains. I am the mountain.
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Jan 4, 2022 10:57AM minarchist wrote:

yeh shes probably not back from vacation yet :-\

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Jan 4, 2022 12:06PM minarchist wrote:

and i just found out my Drs office never got the results yet

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Jan 4, 2022 01:51PM - edited Jan 4, 2022 01:52PM by minarchist

for anyone who finds this post looking for tumor marker, tumor markers, TM, CA 2729 CA 27.29 CA2729 CA27.29 my elevated number HAS turned out to be an ovarian cyst, the CAT scan showed a complex cyst on my left ovary (not solid) and they want to double check me with an MRI but the DR. thinks its very unlikely to uncover malignancy


thank you for the women of this board who tried to calm my hysterical vaporing

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+
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Jan 4, 2022 02:43PM beesie.is.out-of-office wrote:

That great news that it appears to just be a cyst!

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Jan 4, 2022 03:03PM alicebastable wrote:

Cysts are very common! Now do something fun.

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Jan 4, 2022 03:04PM minarchist wrote:

thanks so much beesie!

Dx 10/24/2019, IDC, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 12/3/2019 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy 1/27/2020 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes Hormonal Therapy 3/7/2020 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Dx DCIS, Right, 4cm, Stage 0, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+

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