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Jul 17, 2012 12:19PM
Thanks so much for the hugs and suppport. Yes, I am still very early in all of this and I am probably not giving myself enough understanding. It's hard sometimes though. I tend to be a a bit hard on myself, cancer or no cancer. I am trying to learn to let go and "let it be" as the song says. Some times I can, other times not so easy. I listen to the Let it Be version by Judy Collins which helps me at times. It's only been 3 months...not 3 years, I just have to keep saying that!
Some of the tips and ways to help yourself, I have already been doing such as exercise (walk most days of the week) and eat more healthfully these days. But I am still in the early stages trying to decipher what to eat and what not to eat...so at this early stage even that is stressful. I am doing my research and muddling through. I am also seeing a counselor who I was seeing before Dx and is helping me to vent a little, instead of keeping it all inside.
Traci, thank you for your honesty and I'm very sorry that you had a bad recontruction...that must have been very stressful. I cant imagine. As you said reminders everyday. It sounds though like you have come a long way. That you move on most of the time and function okay. You said when your mind refuses to move on I come here...that says a lot. It's reaching out when we need the help, which is what I am doing. And over time it does get easier....I guess that's what I need to know, that it will get easier..
Mdg...I liked the Focus on how far I've come and how I feel. When I look at myself compared to that first month or two, I have come a long way. Before I was in a state of shock, completely out of it...now I am just slightly numb but doing better. And don't sweat the small stuff, that has already spoken to me loudly. Once you have BC, the daily stuff that used to bother me just doesn't matter anymore.
Toomuch, thank you... yes, I was put on Zoloft the first few weeks of Dx, it helped, but it was causing me some side effects. I have taken some Xanax recently, such as just before my first few radiation treatments last week. And yes, BC treatment options are changing rapidly as we speak. I hear about it all the time on the news and read about it. More options will be there if a recurrence happened in the future.
Keep telling myself I am in the early stages and be kind to myself, be good to myself. I guess that's what this is saying. It will take time I know...
Hugs and thank you ladies...
4/12/2012, ILC, 3cm, Stage IIA, Grade 2, 0/4 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-