Topic: Pros and Cons of Tamoxifen

Forum: "Middle Age" 40-60(ish) Years Old With Breast Cancer — Meet others in this age-range who share similar life issues.

Posted on: Dec 28, 2017 04:51PM

Posted on: Dec 28, 2017 04:51PM

llwilson wrote:

I have read and read and read and would love to get someone's opinion on not taking to TAmoxifen. I'm 56, ER+, but my OncaType is 9 and I have just finished my radiation and feel great! I was low risk to begin with and the cancer was very contained. The side effects of Tamoxifen are absolutely terrifying for me. After finally surviving, being happy again, why would I torture my body to lower the risk of reoccurrence. I read someone say they'd rather lose their breasts than their hair. I feel like I finally have my life again, I can start getting the weight off and hiking again. All the possible side effects sounds like it will make life much worse. Looking for someone that is similar age group.

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Jan 13, 2018 04:01PM Lisey wrote:

HI Jayme, Basal = Triple Negative. Luminal B is typically designated as low PR+ and high KI. I fit those descriptions, but the mammaprint says I'm Luminal A, so I was able to skip Chemo. Luminal B's don't do as well on hormonals as Luminal A's do, thus chemo can help.

Get the F'ers out (tissue expanders) was amazing. I suddenly felt like 'me' again without these alien spikey turtle shells inside my muscles. I don't handle pain well, and no one thought to see if I'd be a good fit for implants. I realize now having alien bodies inside my muscles like that was a bad fit mentally. I actually think I look better than when I had huge boobs (DD's), so I'm good with being flat. Plus my muscles aren't complaining anymore and I have my full strength back.

I hope you are comfortable with the implants, but if you aren't - you can always demand they remove them. Some women feel they are stuck with their decision, that is not the case. Even if one decides to be flat, they can always get implants again later on.

On the stats... just remember that science is figuring this stuff out and in a few years, we'll have cancer vaccines! I"m very hopeful of my chances so long as I don't recur within 5 years.

Oncotype =20, ER 95%, PR 5%, ki67= 30%, Mammoprint = Low, Blueprint = Luminal A!!!! TEs= Iron Bra of Death - not worth all the complications for foobs that I'll never feel. Flat and fealess now. Dx 5/11/2016, IDC, Right, 1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/6 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 6/1/2016 Lymph node removal: Sentinel Surgery 6/14/2016 Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 7/7/2016 Mastectomy: Left, Right Hormonal Therapy 7/14/2016 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)
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Jan 13, 2018 04:15PM Faithonfire wrote:

morning everyone!

I am a little loopy from all the pain meds still but finally got everything under control yesterday I got in to palliative care office and increased the extended release morphine and still have breakthrough fast acting doses for spikes too now adjusted for post surgery doses for now.

I stopped in to my plastic surgeons office next and had her fix my giant ace bandage and duct tape chest wrap that slid down my back a bit and was yanking on my 4 drain tubes stitched in place!!

It was the one thing I couldn't manage myself or reach because I'm wrapped up so well nobody but my dr is getting in there this wensday for a first look and 2 drains out.! I was glad we went with 4 because it released pressure evenly and wasnt as bad as I thought it would be with pain once we got me settled in my wrap. I don't even know where my scars are exactly but I have a pretty good guess they went straight across middle and I've had some wicked nightmares from it!

My nipple bank on c scars look great! They are attaching well and I feel my body connecting to them under the outer stitches going around wrapped tissue in soaked bundles about 4"tall so they will be checked soon but not this first time I don't know for sure yet. I'm one of the first ones done in my state so LOTS of excitement rushing around me and extra visits to take a quick peek it was funny!

I was told I have had optimal output on my 4 drains and one is still empty from surgery but tube is working fine and other one has dumped twice on that side and looks great so it was expected the side without most cancer in it to drain less. When output is under 25cc for 3 days or more they are ready to come out!

I do most of my own self care with everything because having ptsd and major body trauma is kind of a unique situation for me so I am best left alone in a quiet room as long as I check in texting several times a day.

The only person I would actually let help me with drains being that nasty is my husband and I haven't heard from him since he hung up on me in the hospital Tuesday!! What a guy right? I don't even remember the conversation but after everything I just went through, THAT is the only thing that still makes me cry! I did not hear a single word from any of our kids either the entire time so I am just praying for some divine intervention until I can help them! They seem to learn best by example so I just hope my husband is finally held accountable for his undeniable neglect of the needs of his family! There is just no excuse to promote preying upon the weak and I hope they get to see that happen before I return!

I managed to pick up 5 lbs already so that's a good start, and I just try to sleep as much as I can around my pill schedule so I can heal as fast as possible.

I was diagnosed at 105 lbs and picked up 27 at my top point on chemo. I worked hard for it trying to gain mass for reconstruction surgery but the stress just strips it away as fast as I can get it to stick! It's frustrating to endure but very impressive from a clinical standpoint that I'm so squishy for being so small I am told. I just hope it does more good for others one day as it did damage to me. Strangest part is they can't understand how I healed that way and what that means to the genetics work we are doing.

I feel like a little worm on a big hook these days and I can't wait to be filled in on the details that's got everyone so excited!

I'll save the doctor shaming on the pain meds and the hospital standard policy vs cancer center policy that uses that hospital across the street to put a smiling FACE on the patient that suffers as a result of adminitistrative policy FAILURE that causes ME pain as a direct result of things beyond my control! They wanted to send me home same day after 8 hr surgery!! HA! Teamsters hear that and they will hit the roof!! I have better insurance than most doctors working there thanks to the company that destroyed our marriage faster than it drained its own pension fund!

24 hr minimum is medical timeframe for patient after 6 hrs under in surgery vs insurance trying to treat and street this like a cosmetic procedure!!! I hate indignant soulless greed and take great pleasure in hanging a few policy raiding pirates in the wind for the rest to take notice of before they decide how to bend their ethics for the almighty paycheck!

My therapist phd is teaming up with all my cancer advocate nurses and charity groups and old family friends with a reputation for immediate policy changes on local AND state levels to review how my case was handeled from start to finish NOW, so even though I wont be there they will never put another patient through what I had to endure!

I can rest up with a smile knowing my part of the battle is over and all those fighting for my rights have the best case possible because of how I chose to walk through it. I know I did my best and changed a lot of lives while I had the chance because nobody deserves to be abandoned for being sick!

I just can't wait to be well enough to show what happens when patients change the healthcare industry built to SERVE us. I am not ashamed to tell them all how that made me feel, so they can FIX it for the next patient that might not be able to

Dx 6/25/2017, IDC, Both breasts, Stage IIIC, ER+, HER2- Chemotherapy 7/14/2017 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel), Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Doxil (doxorubicin), Methotrexate (Amethopterin, Mexate, Folex), Taxol (paclitaxel), Taxotere (docetaxel) Chemotherapy 9/2/2017 AC + T (Taxol) Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Sentinel, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Prophylactic mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement
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Jan 14, 2018 03:38AM Faithonfire wrote:

Dear liszy,

I greatly admire your decision to go flat and I am glad to hear it helped you heal faster but still leaves the option open in the future if the technology improves in a way to achieve reconstruction without implants that might sound better to you.

I did most of my research on braca2 gene and can't find anything on my mutation because I'm a mystery still. Funny but less than helpful in making informed decisions!

Of all current reconstruction options available in the United States I found the most advanced one that suited my goals mostly but I lacked enough mass to fill it myself so we went with tissue expanders over top of pec muscles inside skin left after removing entire organ structure intact of both breasts for full dissection in pathology with 3 sentynl lymphs showing nothing inside and got to keep other 2 on left along with my own nipple tissue cancer free banked and stitched above my c section scars for graft back in place with permanent implants and some fat injected around side skin of implants to even it out so I will put as much of me back as I had before kids. No clue what size that will be but I had lots of deflated skin from severe weight loss so I didn't drain as much as normal women do.

I think I am a podcast now for the operation too it was 8 hrs in total and now up for reviews for my final reports. The professionals share new procedures via internet and that's how my doctors found the skin saving double mastectomy option for me from a new practice in Arizona that just won a Gracie award for her pioneering work!

There are several options that I didn't qualify for that might interest you now and they mainly use some muscle from your back or abdomen and fill your skin with a flap of whatever else they can use to reconstruct without any implants and as much of you as they can attach for lumpectomy to full double reconstruction.

The scars are a little more pronounced and there is a second recovery site to handle so there is always pain with surgery but tolerable with proper management and some risks involved but it's usually the second option used for reconstruction if cancer remains encapsulated and skin is in good shape like mine was.

To be honest the worst part for me was having ptsd, I just finish the most brutal chemo I've ever experienced and THEN run in to a few less than kind plastic surgeons that mistake cancer for stupidity and try using moral indignation to justify surgical choices based on outdated statistics and more invasive and expensive treatments than nessicary because I just don't know any better! So one by one they will NOW march before the state medical ethics review board and find out what a proper shaming is from their PEERS that treated me properly with dignity and respect and see administrative policy change about outside referrals in the blink of my tear filled eye!

I know I'm not perfect and not always the easiest to work with because I demand accurate information that directly impacts my care now and in the future!

I had some ignorant old fart that just switched to cancer reconstructions from basic plastic surgery and tried to shame me as a bad mother for risking my LIFE for my vanity after refusing to wake up flat for a YEAR and being there for my daughters when they get diagnosed! I had to hold Mom back from belting this guy in his office so I told my therapist about it and he has quite a long list of people who will set that straight in short order!

Being a rape survivor before I got married and going on to have a marriage with 3 kids is amazing in its own right that years of therapy made my life possible... but to be told I am too vain to survive while keeping my entire body intact really made me loose it on this Snyde jerk so I told him even the man who tried to END my life had more humanity than to cut my breasts off and deny their value!! I told gimbal to go slam HIS in a car door then wait a YEAR to replace it FIRST!

I know I went a tad too far on that but to call a bald cancer patient in chemo VAIN for fighting to keep my genitalia I felt he needed a little perspective on the gender he chooses to treat that way for profit!

I am a far cry from a stripper looking for bigger tips or a sex object because I choose to remain as God made me! It's just hard to see that people really don't care about taking advantage of patients for profit as long as they aren't exposed as the social predators they have become until they realize who they just did that to happens to be a woman with integrity and a lot of friends all watching over me

Dx 6/25/2017, IDC, Both breasts, Stage IIIC, ER+, HER2- Chemotherapy 7/14/2017 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel), Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Doxil (doxorubicin), Methotrexate (Amethopterin, Mexate, Folex), Taxol (paclitaxel), Taxotere (docetaxel) Chemotherapy 9/2/2017 AC + T (Taxol) Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Sentinel, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Prophylactic mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement
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Jan 14, 2018 04:47PM Lisey wrote:

Faith, I notice your post was directed at me with a 'There are several options that I didnt' qualify for that might interest you now"...


I would NEVER risk my healthy back or stomach or butt muscle / tissue for something superficial. Especially with the odds of failure that they accompany, and the additional scars to my body. For what? Lumps I can't feel and serve no purpose other than to give the impression of breasts when people look at me? Nah, I am as God made me, thanks. Just me, flat, healthy, and no additional scars on healthy parts of my body. (I aint sacrificing my ass or back.. no way!) Here I am... To me, Flat is accepting myself as perfect and Good just as God intended. And Honestly, I think I look great flat.

Oncotype =20, ER 95%, PR 5%, ki67= 30%, Mammoprint = Low, Blueprint = Luminal A!!!! TEs= Iron Bra of Death - not worth all the complications for foobs that I'll never feel. Flat and fealess now. Dx 5/11/2016, IDC, Right, 1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/6 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 6/1/2016 Lymph node removal: Sentinel Surgery 6/14/2016 Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 7/7/2016 Mastectomy: Left, Right Hormonal Therapy 7/14/2016 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)
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Jan 14, 2018 06:31PM pupmom wrote:

Oh, I would! Cause I'm that vain!

Life is what happens while we're making other plans. Dx 10/18/2011, IDC, Right, 1cm, Stage IIA, Grade 1, 2/21 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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Jan 15, 2018 01:30AM Faithonfire wrote:

liszy,

I am sorry if my comment offended you in any way I ment no disrespect to your decision and was only thinking that the options you were offered for reconstruction might not have met your expectations or level of acceptable risk to your future health.

I did not know you felt so strongly about being natural in a different context than I understood it in the conversation about reconstruction and why I chose the option I did was to preserve as much of my original form and tissue as possible.

I don't expect you to be able to understand why I could never survive living flat against my will after all I have survived.

It is a choice as fundamental to me as when to stop treatments and enjoy whatever time is left in peace instead of pain. It is never a choice I could imagine making for anyone else, but I believe every patient deserves to decide the fate of her own body with the most accurate information and respect.

I don't care if another soul EVER sees or touches them again, it is a fundimental part of my identity that I would rather die attached to than be discarded and denied their value for whatever additional time that buys me.

I have spent the last 17 years transforming my body in the most unbelievable ways just to have my children and it was an honor I was willing to give my life for EVERY time!

I was misdiagnosed enough to almost make me give up seeking a diagnosis entirely because the implication of my moral failings of any kind was more profitable than admitting ignorance passed off as industry standard treatment policy at the time!

To see the faces of the lives that level of ignorance almost killed changes the conversations doctors are having with women my age STILL doing all the tests possible to protect myself and still facing statements like these presented as indisputable facts until the true research exposes lies like these!

Breast calcifications won't turn in to invasive ductal carcinoma I was told as each biopsy came back benign, and the braca 2 genetic test was not considered medically relevant enough to cover by my mothers insurance 3 years ago EITHER!

I decided to change corrupt policy standards instead and march anyone preventing advancements in industry standard treatments back for profit accountable in a much more public manner to promote transparency for patients and policy makers alike.

When we know better we can DO better, and it takes more courage than you can imagine to stand up and say I was taken advantage of because of my diagnosis and it is no shame of mine to demand my rights be honored with dignity while I am seeking treatment from start to finish.

I am only trying to share as much of that strength as I can with anyone who is facing similar challenges and I would never pass judgement on someone for having different medical goals or priorities than I do.

IM sorry if you mistook my enduring strength as aggression or unkind to you in any way that is the last thing I wanted to make anyone here feel.

It's not as easy to live through without anyone supporting your emotional reactions to the physical fallout this diagnosis is so notorious for.

Since I didn't have any choice about loosing my hair or dying if I refused, I will fight to my last breath to save as many pieces of myself left as possible!I demand actual scientific answers for the parts I was already forced to sacrifice without any explanation at all except because THEY don't know or care as long as the profits roll in without convictions for every life lost to such industry ignorance preventing new drugs from ever getting approved let alone actually CURE us.

Dx 6/25/2017, IDC, Both breasts, Stage IIIC, ER+, HER2- Chemotherapy 7/14/2017 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel), Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Doxil (doxorubicin), Methotrexate (Amethopterin, Mexate, Folex), Taxol (paclitaxel), Taxotere (docetaxel) Chemotherapy 9/2/2017 AC + T (Taxol) Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Sentinel, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Prophylactic mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement
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Jan 15, 2018 03:12AM Lisey wrote:

Faith, I feel for you and what is going on with your family and past. No one should be forced to do ANYTHING against their will. If you want to keep your breasts, and that is a feeling you hold strongly to, absolutely keep them.

Since your comment was directed at me, I responded just letting you know I'm exactly as God intended. I feel 100% whole. I feel I am no less of a woman and still very feminine without my real (DD) breasts or new muscle/skin flaps that are made to look like breasts. All of it is very personal and up to the individual, but for me, Vanity DID play a role in my decision. I don't want more scars. i don't want to mess with my God-given Booty or back muscles unless they are diseased. Why would I sacrifice them since they are healthy and whole? I like how I look and why would I mess with that? So when you said 'there are other options you could consider' trust me.. I've researched all of it and none of it rings true for me.

Oncotype =20, ER 95%, PR 5%, ki67= 30%, Mammoprint = Low, Blueprint = Luminal A!!!! TEs= Iron Bra of Death - not worth all the complications for foobs that I'll never feel. Flat and fealess now. Dx 5/11/2016, IDC, Right, 1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/6 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 6/1/2016 Lymph node removal: Sentinel Surgery 6/14/2016 Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 7/7/2016 Mastectomy: Left, Right Hormonal Therapy 7/14/2016 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)
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Jan 15, 2018 08:08AM jaymeb wrote:

Lisey

Is that you in the picture with the blue dress? I assuming so. You look great!!!! Who is the young man? You are comfortable in your own skin, and I respect you for it. As I said earlier, I can't wait to get this damn expander out in a month. I pray I have the results I desire, but like you, I hate pain. If the implant causes discomfort, and affects my quality of life, hell yeah, I would have it taken out!!!!!

Dx 2/15/2017, IDC, Left, 1cm, Stage IIA, Grade 2, ER+/PR+, HER2-, Dx 2/15/2017, IDC, Left, 1cm, Stage IIA, Grade 2, 1/13 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-, Surgery 3/29/2017 Lymph node removal: Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left Hormonal Therapy 4/22/2017 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Radiation Therapy 7/17/2017 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes, Chest wall
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Jan 15, 2018 08:46AM jaymeb wrote:

Hi Faithonfire

I'm glad you are recuperating from surgery. Sorry to say this, but I would like to slap that husband of yours for hanging up on you while in the hospital awaiting major surgery!!!!! I hope I didn't overstep saying that, but that pissed me off when I read it. If I read right, did you have benign biopsies before getting diagnosed with breast cancer? My first biopsy was benign, saying it was a papilloma. That God my breast surgeon insisted on another biopsy, as he could not believe it was benign. I didn't believe it was benign either. I KNEW I had breast cancer. Do you know how your instincts just take over, and that nagging feeling doesn't go away? Well, the second biopsy was malignant, and I was somewhat relieved, and not surprised. It hit me later though, and I cried and cried. What pissed me off is how did the pathologists get it wrong???? Usually, it's checked throughly by two pathologists!!! And I thought doctors don't make many mistakes. How stupid of me. Now if my surgeon trusted the first biopsy, lord only knows how much more advanced the cancer would have been? I just had a mammogram last week on the "healthy breast". Now, my breast is extremely dense, making it harder to find suspicious tumors. Although it's a 3D, and still don't fully trust just mammograms, hence, I'm thinking of having the other breast removed. But, then, there's the insurance companies, and what a pain in the ass it can be to deal with them!!!! When I went for my mammogram over a week ago, I had to call my insurance company to make sure they would cover it, as it was done in February of last year. Apparently, some insurance companies require that it's exactly on the date of one year, or a little after to cover it. What the hell??? Well, thank goodness my insurance pays for the calendar year. What I'm wondering, with a history of breast cancer with all of us, why wouldn't insurance companies cover for twice a year??? I will never understand the medical community!!! Ughhhh
Dx 2/15/2017, IDC, Left, 1cm, Stage IIA, Grade 2, ER+/PR+, HER2-, Dx 2/15/2017, IDC, Left, 1cm, Stage IIA, Grade 2, 1/13 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-, Surgery 3/29/2017 Lymph node removal: Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left Hormonal Therapy 4/22/2017 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Radiation Therapy 7/17/2017 Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes, Chest wall
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Jan 15, 2018 10:53AM Faithonfire wrote:

hi jaymeb,

By all means it can't go far enough in my opinion! if you ever see or hear of this level of disrespect done to a spouse... socially shame the CRAP out of them at every opportunity! What relationship could possibly succeed that level of vile beginning as preying upon a diagnosis for gain or pure spite! It's been 5 days in a row since he hung up on me and not a single response since a conversation I can't remember making me cry so much my nurses all sent him bad vibes together so I hope his luck in taking advantage of the fact I love him finally ran out!

I am not afraid to confront the situation head on using as many resources as are needed to get them ALL the therapy care they have OBVIOUSLY not been getting as court ordered during my chemo and straighten out my husbands current priorities since the last time he committed perjury in court and my rights were upheld that could significantly rearrange our entire living environments until significant progress is achieved with our marriage and documented at school for my daughters skipping days at a time since one got her drivers lisence a few months ago during my chemo.

I see a therapist weekly so we are working on the best strategy to expose the entire situation to their therapy process with documented facts that could have some serious impact on their reputations or futures for refusing private help and how it all spun out of control so quickly the sicker I became

until we found the breast cancer in my armpit under the prominent muscle. It wasn't like a normal tumor which is why it requires extensive structure studies in oncology and genetic departments with regards to my stats during my entire treatment and expedited diagnostics. My specific mutation and exposure allergy history has shown amazing potential to adapt during the actual treatments to the side effects. I grew hair back after I lost it taking the same drug and I can't wait to hear why and how one day!

I'm afraid my husband has lost his grip on reality if he thinks I will endure being abandoned and ignored in silence. It's a sad socially brutal thug mentality of a sick juvenile that has swept over my family like a plague. The rumors were enough to cause my husband to believe I was unfaithful which is as unthinkable as abandoning my family as they denied I was even dying of cancer at that time!

It forces me to act by asking for the help he denies and tells me nothing about our kids or our marriage at all!

Now I disrupt the unhealthy status quo by being the bad person to dare return cancer free to demand proper care and supervision that no longer absolves anything they EVER do instead of own their behavior and face the concequences are real just like my cancer was. I love them enough to do this and trust me tough love sucks!

I have seen too many entire families wiped out by turning on a sick member for profit that it is not as much a regional problem as a larger social problem of men using a disposable attitude to women that love them enough to marry and have children with as long as HIS selfish needs are met FIRST at all times!

We have officially crossed the limit of Hunan decency with the silent act applied up to 9 days straight to have to call in ALL debts he could never afford before he refused to respond at all now after blaming me being sick for making him react that way!

It's sad but true some guys need this fact explained to them that treating women unfairly is the hallmark of a person to avoid being social within any setting like a leper or racist with visual disapproval of their revolting ideology until sincere and lasting change is demonstrated consistently.

He was not that brainwashed when I married him I swear, and I hate myself for still loving him but I will not allow that fact to cloud my judgement in how best to get them the help they need to heal in time.

Wish me luck and patience as I am still sicker than I have ever been in my life a week out of reconstruction therapy and struggling to keep myself together because even now I can still smile and say I have lived through worse and have the documented physical stats to prove it!

It's not my physical beauty that turns so many heads these days and that's what makes it important enough to share what we learn in reports about how I am healing this time.

Thanks for keeping a smile on my face thinking about my husband being treated like a man who wont honor his own word SHOULD be in public! What I want most is the revelation to sink in to him that the worse he treats me the greater he shames only himself.

Dx 6/25/2017, IDC, Both breasts, Stage IIIC, ER+, HER2- Chemotherapy 7/14/2017 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel), Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Doxil (doxorubicin), Methotrexate (Amethopterin, Mexate, Folex), Taxol (paclitaxel), Taxotere (docetaxel) Chemotherapy 9/2/2017 AC + T (Taxol) Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement Surgery 1/9/2018 Lymph node removal: Left, Sentinel, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right; Prophylactic mastectomy: Left, Right; Reconstruction (left): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement; Reconstruction (right): Nipple reconstruction, Tissue expander placement

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