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Aug 26, 2012 01:55PM
Oh Mini - I never thought you were rude, just that you needed to know you are not alone. And when talking about how far we have had to jump to do alts for cancer, talking just this morn, Hubby and I remembered that just a month ago he sold off most of his gun collection to a friend who gave him top dollar, bcz they love me, and we sold off the pool equipment from the place we just walked away from, and we sold the ...... hahaha, oh well cannot recall, but wish we had sold more - it will come - everything has a way of happening when it is supposed to and not when I think I should happen. My ideals of what happens when are usually based on fear or having the gimmes (as in give to me give-mes). I spent to much time too much time angry over finances and hopelessness, didn't know how we were going to do all this, and we have great insurance if you want to choose conventional.
Our friends, she has uterine cancer and went conv, she had reoccurrence, more chemo and rads, another reoccurence, more chemo and rads, then mets to spine, more chemo and rads I guess - all this in a few years. Our hubbys were talking, about me mostly not doing conventional, knew from beginning it would not be achoice, we knew for years it was not our choice, and her hubby told mine, they only pay $1000 copay ea year and the rest is covered so no sensse in worrying over the cost, and my hubby said, but the alternatives we choose are not covered so out-of-pocket and a huge expense but life and death without them..... and her hubby said, but the conventional is working for (her name). No, no it's not, we think really loud but what can we say. She has been through HRT prior to cancer, been through surgeries over and over, rads, chemo, drugs for hormones I am supposing, and she is not getting better. But they don't ask what is working for me to go from dragging out of bed and so sick with NO memory to gaining stregth and now working festivals and auctions and gardening and ready to bicycling tomorrow morn at sunrise. I feel so good. This is a turn around from within the last week too, so I am attributing it to the red and black raspberry ellagic acid I have added to my protocol. Who knows at the moment. Who knows, but I only have this moment. Even if I have cancer in me for the rest of my life, long or short of it, I feel that my QOL is great, better than it was five years ago or more.
Bringing that full circle to the topic of this thread, is that I am dealing with hormones which were very broken!!!!!! for years, the thyroid, the estrogen and progesterone and now the endo dr is testing to see how to balance me better than I am now. I am also using so many alt choices and the combination I have going for me is individualized and is working for me, thank goodness and nature too, so I am going to cram in some really good living while I can, taking nothing for granted but hoping I am tenacious enough to pull this off and live to 90 w or w/o cancer.
My understanding is the intense fear of cancer can be a downfall. Also the fear of estrogen and misunderstanding of these hormones.
Take a deep breath, I know, I have been where you are now, not knowing... learning, wading through all the info and nothing consistent which is the worst part I think....... soon you will know what is your best way and how. Conv or alt, you will be supported here on bco.
Hugs for you from me, you did not come across rude or judgemental to me at all. We're okay.
"Every mistake I have made has proven to be invaluable information for someone. Namely, me." Me. Diane
7/15/2011, IDC, Right, 2cm, Stage IV, metastasized to liver/lungs/other, Grade 3, 3/11 nodes, mets, ER+/PR+, HER2-
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