Topic: Told cancer free after bilateral mastectomy but...

Jan 5, 2019 06:25PM dlittkemann wrote:

well wow. Didn't need to hear that right now. Maybe she did say no evidence of disease??? I guess I like to think of it as being free.

Jan 5, 2019 08:41PM edwards750 wrote:

Since I didn’t have chemo I don’t know whether back pain is the norm. Hopefully someone who has had that treatment can address your concerns.

I can say with absolute certainty that you do worry about every ache and pain once you’ve been DX. Let me rephrase that - I do however, I bet a lot of others do as well. It’s hard if not impossible to manage that fear factor when you have been branded with the C word. Goes with the territory/DX.

Mincing words like NED or cancer-free is just rhetoric. To me it doesn’t matter which term they use because the end result is the same for now. Cured is another story. There is no cure - if only. We all just manage our disease.

We have all heard horror stories about the beast coming back after multiple years. That’s not the norm but it does happen. Time does help. Btw I was 7 years out last August and I still go into anxiety mode before my annual mammogram.

If the pain persists I would get checked. Despite your doctor assurances not to worry do it for your ownpeace of mind.

Good luck.

Diane

Jan 5, 2019 08:49PM Meow13 wrote:

Don't you love it, oncologist never seems to concerned about side effects. So focused on killing the cancer.

Jan 6, 2019 12:27AM - edited Jan 6, 2019 12:27AM by wallycat

I don't think WC3 was trying to scare you, just wanting to make sure you have a good doctor. Some say things to make us feel better and obfuscate facts so we don't stress. I wish I could tell you the worrying stops. Maybe for some gals but I'm going to start year 12 in April and anything unusual still brings me to the ugly place. Breast cancer is one of those incurable ones. It isn't to say we all will get a recurrence; many gals end up growing old and dying of something else/natural, but the reality is what it is. I think that is why the concerns and worries seem to persist. I hope you can find some doc that can reassure you the pain is just from treatment. And I hope you are amongst the lucky ones that never deals with this again.

On a brighter note, there are new and better and more targeted treatments cropping up all the time. Maybe those of us that fret will find some comfort in that and it will help our concerns. Best to you.

Jan 6, 2019 08:13AM dlittkemann wrote:

thank you so much. I appreciate the words of encouragement x

Jan 7, 2019 12:34AM Lillo57 wrote:

alicebastable, well said. I wish there was a like button on this site👍🏻

Jan 7, 2019 06:40AM leftduetostupidmods wrote:

Chemo has its own set of side effects and a lot of those are various pains. I know that at the end of it I was walking like a penguin because my lower back/hips were hurting so bad - kind of a mix between birth pain and a broken tailbone.

You also didn't mention if you had reconstruction or if you started taking AIs - those also contribute to pain.

Please don't get defensive when someone tells it as it is. As the sister who posted above, I'm 9+ years out and still any new pain brings me in that dark place. Because this IS the harsh truth: we're never cured. It's never gone. With the imaging technology they have right now they can't give us any 100% assurance. You will have to learn to live with the fear and not let it control your life. It took me more than 3 years before the first thought in my mind at waking up in the morning was not about BC.

This being said, there are two rules of thumb: if a pain lasts more than two weeks, get to your doctor. Second, if something really really worries you, get it checked. Because for one, nobody knows your body better than you, and because worrying is not good for you.

This being said, one of the known side effects of BMX is costochondritis, inflammation of the connective tissue over the ribs. Normally that appears only in young athletes after physical effort, but in our case it's because of all the trauma our torso went through with the mastectomy. I've had it since the mastectomy back in October 2009.

Jan 8, 2019 11:12AM nash wrote:

If the pain persists for months or gets markedly worse, ask for a bone scan. If nothing else, it will put your mind at ease.

As far as the worrying goes, I know it's hard not to. But take it from me, try to not worry, b/c things are just going to go the way they are going to go. You don't want to waste good years with fear in your head constantly.

I had my first primary in 2007, a local recurrence in 2015, a new primary in 2018, then brain mets in 2018.

I spent several years after the first primary in 2007 worrying. A lot. Then after awhile, things faded into the background and I had a nice stretch of several years where cancer was not on my mind. Then the local recurrence hit in 2015, and things have been a constant nightmare ever since. So I'm grateful for the years I had where I just lived my life as normally as possible, and the only things I had to do were to pop my Tamoxifen and get my yearly breast MRI. Now, with the brain mets, I have more worry than I know what to do with.

Jan 8, 2019 10:17PM nash wrote:

Hi jo6359. I had cyberknife on the brain lesion June 2018 and that knocked it down. I haven’t had any new lesions since then, but I’m having brain MRIs every three months to check.

I’m on Ibrance/Faslodex/Zolodex. None of that passes through to the brain, but it seems to be holding things below the neck steady for now.

I’m very tired, but overall feel pretty well everything considered

Jan 17, 2019 10:53PM Zupozi99 wrote:

hi Nash,

Do you still have tamoxifen as your hormonal therapy or use AI drugs instead?