Topic: New relationship and new diagnosis at same time

Jun 13, 2017 10:11AM MTwoman wrote:

GoGo, I don't have a similar experience, however I was single and 38 at my diagnosis and treatment, so I do remember really having to give thought to when to tell someone whom I met several years later, and who is now my husband. It is really hard to advise someone about something as personal as this; but let me just say that taking your time to tell him, waiting until you have a plan you feel good about and actually know what is going to happen, sounds like a reasonable thing and not misleading at all. The fact that he lost his mother to lung cancer is certainly an added piece to your puzzle. I think that him knowing too soon, when you don't know your plan and things are therefore uncertain, would be potentially worse for him. That time of uncertainty and learning all about the options and their related consequences (as well as their risk reduction) is very difficult for most women (and the people who love them) and to wait spares him that. There may be others who disagree, but I would wait until you have a plan; and then I'd choose a time when you can sit down together and tell him, allowing him to have whatever reaction he has and ask whatever questions come up. So sorry you're having to go through this! gentle ((hugs))

Jun 28, 2017 06:11AM - edited Jun 28, 2017 06:25AM by jamkam

Hi Gogo..Let me say a few words from just one guy's perspective who is in a somewhat similar situation, in fact it's why I joined this community, to read and understand better what women are facing and mainly listen, but here, I offer my thoughts.

I met and started dating a simply amazingly wonderful beautiful woman 2 months ago via an online app (still can't believe that part!). . I'll spare the details for sake of brevity but lets just say we fell for each other-- for me, it was head over heels; we clicked, intellectually, physically, sense of humor, the works. On our third date, no less, we were sitting in the car after a nice evening and she slowly began to tell me something that I could tell was difficult to get out, saying, something like "i'm not sure I should tell you this now... and you may run away and I don't blame you..but I am having an MRI & biopsy soon and..." She not too long thereafter found out it was DCIS.

As for me running away, nothing could be further from the case.I told her, without flinching, I was there for her no matter what. Maybe I was dewy-eyed and clueless, and yes, it was jarring and a little frightening, but, my heart is my compass and I was falling in love with HER, not a part of her body.

But then, after some thought shortly thereafter , she let me know that she couldn't take on a relationship now with so much uncertainty ahead of her and, she had to break up with me saying, it was a very hard decision but just something she couldn't handle now. Also she said with kindness it wasn't fair to me that she wouldn't be able to give me the attention I deserve (Of course, I poo-pooed this). Naturally, this was and continues to be deeply saddening to me. I consider myself a sensitive, empathetic guy, and she has been constantly on my mind, but, as hard as it's been, I understood she had to prioritize for her life. And of course, the hardest part is that as a new person in her life (she's separated and divorced yet with has two younger kids.), I have to accept that I take a back seat to her top priorities like her recovery, her kids, her family/friends and her job. I have been coming to terms with not be able to be by her side; it's not been easy.

She had the operation two days ago and I have no idea about her condition... and I now await, hopefully, word at some point that she is recovering well while I hold out hope that some day, not too far into the future, she may trust me and invite me back into her life. I just have to be patient, and present when -- and if --she decides it's time.

I'm grateful to have found this community to express what it is like from a caring man's point of view. There are guys like us out there but, like people say, even in the best of circumstances, finding a person you click with is a "numbers game," "a needle in a haystack" and all the other bromides. For you now it's even tougher but something tells me when you will know the right time to tell him -- and you'll probably know in your gut when that is. I think you'll also know right away if he's the right chap for you. My hope is he indeed is.

I will be making her a card today and sending her a book of poetry (we both share a love of poetry).

Love truly is a potent medicine.

Jun 28, 2017 08:49PM Artista928 wrote:

jamkam- What a great guy you are. I would stay in touch with her. Maybe text her on occasion to see how she's doing. Doesn't mean you can't be friends right now.

Jun 29, 2017 11:51PM - edited Jun 30, 2017 12:01AM by jamkam

Hi again...Thank you all! It took me a while to be able to reply to you, GG (and Arista and Minus, but when I read your posts last night, I just basically completely lost it. It was a cry I needed desperately, finally.

Of course, I've certainly not gone thru the dx and all mountains of fear and anxiety that follows and of course, children -- especially a teen--create another level of sapping your energy cuz you want them to feel safe and loved.

Yet, as much as loved ones/friends/family SAY we try to understand, we just can't. We can only be, to someone we care about, someone who cares. As for me, I feel that no matter what happens, for now I need to repeat her wishes and retreat and, maybe one day, she will want my care, affection and attention. But, I really am starting to begin to comprehend the trepidation a woman must feel post-op. And from the spouse threads I've poked thru, too many seem to end sadly with separation and after many years, at that. For me, that's impossible to fathom.

With some perseverance — and maybe a little note card and a book of poems and a cheese basket (!)-- she will appreciate me more...or maybe not , and then it wasn't meant to be. But if one truly cares for someone, it should be all between the ears and the any physical changes should matter less than specks on fly's antennae.

One thing I will say with sureness: Countless men could learn volumes in life lessons from the steadfast will, bravery and strength women demonstrate amidst trying times like these and how they persevere with silent dignity.

Jul 14, 2017 09:36AM - edited Jul 14, 2017 09:37AM by GoGo2462

I was coming back to send a quick update and saw your post Aeksandra30. Thanks for sharing! As it turns out, it appears that the "slow fade" is occurring even before I have an opportunity to share my diagnosis with this guy. While I am disappointed that this potential relationship may not move forward, I have been reminded by friends who are aware of my situation that I have a very large support network already in place. If it is not the "slow fade" and we see each other again I will try again. You have given me something to think about on how to bring the topic up, if that opportunity presents itself again with this particular guy.

At the moment it appears that it may not worked out in terms of this "budding relationship", and that is OK. If anything, this has been a learning opportunity if/when someone else crosses my path, because this is my new "normal" from now on...so I am thankful for the feedback here, and maybe this blog feed with be helpful to others that visit this site too!

Moving ahead to surgery in the coming weeks, so that is where my focus will be. Love and hugs to all!