Mar 29, 2017 06:40AM Leslie2016 wrote:
Hi all. I see that some of you were looking for me a few pages back and I apologize for disappearing. I don't know what happened; I must have hit the remove from my favorites link my accident at some point. I haven't been posting much on the site the last bit. Been working through everything, as we all do.
I'm very disappointed in myself. I was off the smokes and doing ok with it through the beginning of chemo...then some things happened that upset me greatly and I started again. Since then, I've gone a week or so here and there without, then I buy a pack, then go a few days, buy another one...I just don't seem to be able to get back off all together. At the end of each pack I say that's it! Then I go buy another one. It's frustrating. My inner fight with myself is stupid...I want to be off, I feel I can, then I feel I can't but if I have them, I smoke them. It sucks.
Chemo is done, in the middle of rads now. Will be done mid April with herceptin until the end of the year and tamoxifen going into the future. I hope I can get rid of the smokes soon for good; I know I need to but I seem to have lost my willpower to fight it along with everything else. Other than that I'm doing pretty good. Looking forward to returning to work and getting my life back. Hope all fo you are doing well.