Topic: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

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Posted on: Jul 6, 2017 08:38PM - edited Oct 28, 2019 12:42PM by micmel

Posted on: Jul 6, 2017 08:38PM - edited Oct 28, 2019 12:42PM by micmel

micmel wrote:

As I go through this forced path I have been thrown down, I have come to realize the love I have always had for my husband was strong. He is amazing and I love him with my very soul and entire heart. Never would I ever imagine the thought of dying and him being alone. Then the worst part hit me!! I can't seem to shake the horrible sorrow of thinking of another woman taking my place in his life and his heart, and if I Am honest his bed. He is my best friend and the love of my life, I would never need another for any reason. He makes my life complete, and then this happens. How do I process that I most likely won't be the one growing old on the porch that we have talked about, how do I process, someone else sitting in that chair? I hate this trajectory path I've been spun onto, and everyday I feel grief and deep sorrow. How do I live everyday knowing in the back of my mind, I feel like a place holder, for another woman who will be stepping into my life when I die of this horrible disease, more sooner than later. Why would I even want to take any medicines or treatments, when the answer is pretty obviously in front of my face.? Why do we fight so hard for something we cannot control ? Why do we hurt so badly thinking about letting go, or giving up? It's a four letter word that holds so much power. That word is LOVE..... If you have ever felt this way. Share with me, because I understand, I feel this way everyday. I also don't know what to do with the sadness of loss or how to process the process of dying. However slow or fast it may be. Please share your love stories with me, how did you meet? How long together? I want to know your stories, everyone has their person. Everyone loves.....tell me about your family, your friends, your life too, as if this was your living room. ♥️

We are team FU cancer (Named by Parry, our sweet sister) and this is our Lol pub and living room. Welcome, put your feet up and just be you!

Everyone has to dance, they just don’t know what song they will get. Dx 1/22/2016, IDC, Left, 4cm, Stage IV, metastasized to bone, Grade 2, 13/35 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2- Chemotherapy 2/10/2016 AC Surgery 6/21/2016 Lymph node removal; Lymph node removal (Left): Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy; Mastectomy (Left) Chemotherapy 7/20/2016 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel) Targeted Therapy 11/7/2016 Ibrance (palbociclib) Surgery Chemotherapy Chemotherapy Hormonal Therapy Arimidex (anastrozole)
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Nov 23, 2022 11:09AM sunshine99 wrote:

Good morning, lovelies!

I'm having a cup of coffee, listening to my DH and my dad talking about flying model airplanes. They compete in acrobatic model airplane event. They're very serious about their flying.

Hoping for a good day for everyone. Mel, you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I don't even know what word to choose when I wish you a ______ Thanksgiving. Happy? Peaceful? Calm? I don't know. I just want it to be not miserable, if that makes sense.

I'm thinking about my next blog post. Maybe something about the holidays. Any ideas?

(((hugs))) to all,

Carol

my-sunny-side-up.com Cancer has progressed to my bones. I pray that it never enters my soul. Dx 11/2/2007, IDC, 3cm, Stage IIA, 0/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Dx 3/26/2020, IDC, Stage IV, metastasized to bone, ER+/PR-, HER2- Hormonal Therapy 4/22/2020 Arimidex (anastrozole) Radiation Therapy 5/5/2020 External Local Metastases 5/5/2020 Radiation therapy: Bone Radiation Therapy 5/12/2020 External Local Metastases 5/12/2020 Radiation therapy: Bone Targeted Therapy 6/10/2020 Ibrance (palbociclib)
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Nov 23, 2022 02:07PM goldensrbest wrote:

Thankfully test was negative so we will leave tomorrow to celebrate thanksgiving in Michigan. I expect more tests next week to try and find an answer. A very Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate.

Mae - cool picture of shooting star!

Dx 6/1990, IDC, Right, 2cm, Stage IIA, 1/20 nodes, ER+/PR+ Dx 7/1999, IDC, Right, <1cm Dx 7/26/2019, Stage IV, metastasized to bone/lungs, ER+/PR+, HER2- Hormonal Therapy 9/1/2019 Femara (letrozole) Targeted Therapy 9/25/2019 Ibrance (palbociclib) Hormonal Therapy 1/30/2020 Arimidex (anastrozole) Hormonal Therapy Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Chemotherapy CMF Surgery Mastectomy Surgery Lumpectomy; Lymph node removal Radiation Therapy Whole breast: Breast, Lymph nodes
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Nov 23, 2022 05:14PM emac877 wrote:

Just wanted to post to say I am praying for and here to support Mel, KittyKat, SF-Cakes, Goldens and all of you who are going through such a rough time right now. I have no words of wisdom, my heart just breaks for you all and I wish for you something to bring you a smile and a glimmer of joy in all of it.

I'm okay. I'm still on the Dexamethasone 1/2 mg in the morning and it has made a night and day difference in my pain. I feel really good. Some pain in my ribs, back and hip but it's tolerable. I'm working a lot and today making frosted orange sweet rolls to take to my folks tomorrow for Thanksgiving morning. I have a chest/abd/pelvis CT on Dec 12 and a follow up with my MO on the 15th for my quarterly check in. I have been feeling really good on the steroids so my MO is keeping me on those until January when I see the endocrinologist. I'm just trying to get as much out of it in the meantime as I can. Dec 6th is my 3 year MBC anniversary and I'm just feeling really thankful this year to still be as stable as I am and have a reasonably functional life right now. That is my wish for all of us.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you celebrating tomorrow! I will admit I have caved and gave in to the Christmas season early this year. I've been playing Christmas carols and have been savoring little moments of joy where I find them as the holiday season amps up. Sending those happy vibes out to all who need them right now. -- Elizabeth

Dx 2/8/2018, IDC, Right, 2cm, Stage IIB, Grade 2, 1/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 3/22/2018 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Right); Lymph node removal Chemotherapy 6/8/2018 Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Taxotere (docetaxel) Radiation Therapy 8/26/2018 Whole breast: Breast, Chest wall Dx 12/4/2019, IDC, Stage IV, metastasized to bone Surgery 12/11/2019 Radiation Therapy 12/23/2019 External Local Metastases 12/23/2019 Radiation therapy: Bone Targeted Therapy 1/7/2020 Verzenio Hormonal Therapy 6/22/2021 Faslodex (fulvestrant)
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Nov 23, 2022 08:24PM sf-cakes wrote:

Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends here, celebrating in the US. I'm testing out the pumpkin pie right now to make sure it's good, lol. Thank you everyone for your lovely words of support, and please know I send love and prayers out to this group every day.

This is some bullshit. Dx 6/2020, ILC, Left, 6cm+, Stage IIB, Grade 3, 2/4 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2- Surgery 7/1/2020 Mastectomy; Mastectomy (Left) Chemotherapy 8/4/2020 Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Taxotere (docetaxel) Radiation Therapy 11/3/2020 Chest wall Dx 1/2021, ILC, Left, 6cm+, Stage IV, metastasized to bone, Grade 3, ER+/PR-, HER2- Radiation Therapy 2/10/2021 External Local Metastases 2/10/2021 Radiation therapy: Bone Hormonal Therapy Femara (letrozole) Targeted Therapy Ibrance (palbociclib)
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Nov 23, 2022 09:40PM micmel wrote:

Hello Ladies. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone . Not really celebrating this year. Kids are with their father and the youngest is traveling this year. So just DH and I. I for see a lot of tv watching in my future. Had a nice day today. Beautiful weather. May your day be filled with family and thanks tomorrow.

Everyone has to dance, they just don’t know what song they will get. Dx 1/22/2016, IDC, Left, 4cm, Stage IV, metastasized to bone, Grade 2, 13/35 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2- Chemotherapy 2/10/2016 AC Surgery 6/21/2016 Lymph node removal; Lymph node removal (Left): Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy; Mastectomy (Left) Chemotherapy 7/20/2016 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel) Targeted Therapy 11/7/2016 Ibrance (palbociclib) Surgery Chemotherapy Chemotherapy Hormonal Therapy Arimidex (anastrozole)
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Nov 23, 2022 10:14PM livingivlife wrote:

To all our American sisters I wish a Thanksgiving day without struggle and stress. Enjoy all that wonderful food!

Deb
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Nov 24, 2022 08:05AM mara51506 wrote:

Happy Thanksgiving to all those celebrating in the US. If you are on your own, I hope you can treat yourself to something good anyway, whether it is TV and movies, movie snacks or whatever may make you feel good.

Nothing going on here, walking once warmer, I did play with the screen, managed to get it stuck in the window so there it will stay until I can get it out. Walking inside and out and normal money making and household chores as well.

2015 chemos AC plus T Herceptin august 12 2016 craniotomy for brain met Sept 23 whole brain radiation November 2016 Herceptin, Perjeta and Taxol. Dec 2016, Dropped the Taxol due to extreme side effects, continuing Herceptin and Perjeta. Dx 3/15/2015, DCIS, Right, Stage 0, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+ Surgery 4/22/2015 Lymph node removal; Mastectomy; Mastectomy (Right) Dx 5/15/2015, IBC, Right, Stage IIIB, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+ Dx 7/29/2016, IBC, Right, 6cm+, Stage IV, metastasized to brain, Grade 3, ER-/PR-, HER2+
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Nov 24, 2022 08:36AM denny10 wrote:

To all those sitting in Mels' lounge from the USA, I wish you your best Thanksgiving : )

12/2021 Stage IV TN Dx 2007, Left, Stage IIB, HER2- Dx 12/2013, Right, Stage IV, metastasized to liver/lungs/other, ER+ Hormonal Therapy Faslodex (fulvestrant), Femara (letrozole), Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)
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Nov 24, 2022 08:46AM booboo1 wrote:

Goldens, Wow. Nothing is easy anymore. You have been through quite enough. Many prayers of healing and comfort as you navigate the next couple of weeks. Take care.

Gigil, as others have said, welcome to Mel’s living room. She has opened her digital door to us, and how wonderful it is to be able to support each other like no one else can. We understand. We are walking right beside you. Ask anything you want, and someone will respond. We have all been through the early days of diagnosis and how scary it is. But as you settle into your oncology routine, I hope you will feel much less anxiety.

Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate!


Laurie (aka Booboo) Dx 3/1/2013, IDC, Left, 1cm, Stage IIA, Grade 2, 1/4 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 5/15/2013 Lumpectomy; Lumpectomy (Left); Lymph node removal Dx 1/2017, DCIS, Left, 1cm, Stage 0, metastasized to bone/liver, Grade 2, 1/4 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Chemotherapy Xeloda (capecitabine) Hormonal Therapy Faslodex (fulvestrant) Hormonal Therapy Femara (letrozole) Targeted Therapy Ibrance (palbociclib) Chemotherapy AC + T (Taxol) Radiation Therapy 3DCRT: Breast
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Nov 24, 2022 09:26AM micmel wrote:

BooBoo ~ you’re so sweet.

Everyone has to dance, they just don’t know what song they will get. Dx 1/22/2016, IDC, Left, 4cm, Stage IV, metastasized to bone, Grade 2, 13/35 nodes, ER+/PR-, HER2- Chemotherapy 2/10/2016 AC Surgery 6/21/2016 Lymph node removal; Lymph node removal (Left): Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy; Mastectomy (Left) Chemotherapy 7/20/2016 Abraxane (albumin-bound or nab-paclitaxel) Targeted Therapy 11/7/2016 Ibrance (palbociclib) Surgery Chemotherapy Chemotherapy Hormonal Therapy Arimidex (anastrozole)

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