Posted on: Jul 6, 2017 08:38PM - edited Oct 28, 2019 12:42PM by micmel
Posted on: Jul 6, 2017 08:38PM - edited Oct 28, 2019 12:42PM by micmel
micmel wrote:
As I go through this forced path I have been thrown down, I have come to realize the love I have always had for my husband was strong. He is amazing and I love him with my very soul and entire heart. Never would I ever imagine the thought of dying and him being alone. Then the worst part hit me!! I can't seem to shake the horrible sorrow of thinking of another woman taking my place in his life and his heart, and if I Am honest his bed. He is my best friend and the love of my life, I would never need another for any reason. He makes my life complete, and then this happens. How do I process that I most likely won't be the one growing old on the porch that we have talked about, how do I process, someone else sitting in that chair? I hate this trajectory path I've been spun onto, and everyday I feel grief and deep sorrow. How do I live everyday knowing in the back of my mind, I feel like a place holder, for another woman who will be stepping into my life when I die of this horrible disease, more sooner than later. Why would I even want to take any medicines or treatments, when the answer is pretty obviously in front of my face.? Why do we fight so hard for something we cannot control ? Why do we hurt so badly thinking about letting go, or giving up? It's a four letter word that holds so much power. That word is LOVE..... If you have ever felt this way. Share with me, because I understand, I feel this way everyday. I also don't know what to do with the sadness of loss or how to process the process of dying. However slow or fast it may be. Please share your love stories with me, how did you meet? How long together? I want to know your stories, everyone has their person. Everyone loves.....tell me about your family, your friends, your life too, as if this was your living room. ♥️
We are team FU cancer (Named by Parry, our sweet sister) and this is our Lol pub and living room. Welcome, put your feet up and just be you!
Nov 28, 2022 11:25AM tanya_djamila wrote:
Sunshine rest up. I hope you’re feeling a little better.
Tany
Nov 28, 2022 02:56PM livingivlife wrote:
Sunshine- sorry to hear of your covid diagnosis. May you feel better soon
Nov 28, 2022 04:15PM micmel wrote:
sunshine ~ rest up and I really hope you’re feeling better soon. Covid is nothing to mess with.
Candy ~ sorry about your brother and his kidney stone. Ouchie. Have had them. They are awful.
We didn’t eat a fancy thanksgiving dinner either. We took a break knowing Christmas was breathing down our necks!!!’ Hot Santa breath. Buy buy. Wrap wrap. Mush mush. I’m in almost done though. Which is good. Now we have to get the tree. Another huge task decorating the tree. Ugh! I used to be able to shop around and get stuff done. I am not able any longer. I wrap five presents and feel exhausted. That’s no good!! Hugs to all!
Nov 29, 2022 07:56AM booboo1 wrote:
Candy,
While your Thanksgiving may not have been filled with turkey and stuffing, yours was way more important, lasting. You may not be really close to your brother, but I’ll bet that spending Thanksgiving with him in the hospital made a lasting impression. I wish for many days of love and hope for better daysahead for both of you.
Nov 29, 2022 08:13AM booboo1 wrote:
SF-Cakes,
I wanted to thank you for your very kind words. I have said before that the more I learn the less I know. So to be called out for anything I have said or wrote is truly a gift. So thank you.
Nov 29, 2022 09:21AM micmel wrote:
BooBoo ~ you’re such a good person. Tanya is lucky to have met you. Hugs to you.
Waving to Candy and living and ros
Nov 29, 2022 09:56AM sunshine99 wrote:
Good morning, ladies. I’m home in bed, but we haven’t been able to reach my dad. My DH is driving back out there right now to check on him. I’m really worried. Thankful that he’s only 2.5 hours away.
Nov 29, 2022 11:14AM sunshine99 wrote:
My dad is ok. Just wasn’t picking up his phone.
Nov 29, 2022 02:14PM - edited Nov 29, 2022 02:16PM by illimae
Glad to here that sunshine, I bet your dad will answer the phone next time.
Haven't been able to work in the bar for several days due to thanksgiving, snow and high winds but I hope tomorrow is calm.
I do not enjoy in person shopping but online with all the deals going on, I've stocked a closet (that I don't have yet). $12 pj's and 50% off items are irresistible for me. Hopefully my mailman Charlie isn't too pissed off, lol
edited to add that my hot tub is finally shipping with a company that will deliver to my area, so that’s exciting 😃.
Nov 30, 2022 09:44AM mara51506 wrote:
In pockets for everyone needing it, sunshine, Mel and family, Candy, Kitty and others I am missing.
It is gray and rainy as well as a wind warning so probably staying in. The people are back at the next door apartment after weeks of quiet. I suppose that is good, really don't care at this point. Doing laundry, waiting on Amazon, wanted some liquid oxyclean for washing clothes, sewing my little lint filters as well, one more left to go and lint filters are part of that order. They do not last long. Forgot to order some drano as even with all the filters, stuff still gets down the drain.
Had a nice breakfast 1/2 cup black beans, 1/4 cup beefless ground, shredded chease with wheat bran for extra fiber. Once cheese melted in frypan, put on plate, added garlic powder, little steak seasoning and some chicken seasoning, no salt as that was in the seasoning. Put a small amount of mayo and mixed together. It was quite delicious.
