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Apr 14, 2020 01:08PM
Thanks for the well wishes, Earth_Sky! Big hugs back at you .
I just found out that I will be allowed to bring my cell phone/have it with me after all, and most of the nurses I've interacted with so far have been very sympathetic and caring, so I'm hoping for the best. I'm glad your husband had some support, too, while waiting. I have to remind myself sometimes that those close to me are going through this, too, though obviously in a different way. No doubt this is one of the many reasons why I'm still single! ;-)
I'm so sorry you're in pain, even if it's "manageable." That seems the most we can hope for, which is still unfair somehow! But I'm glad you've found some ways to help you cope with it, both the physical pain and the psychological/emotional. You sound incredibly brave and strong, and sharing your thoughts/experiences on here--while you are in pain, no less--is proof of it! I'm also going to embrace any urges to cry, as well as release myself from any pressure to be "productive" during this time. Do you like doodling? If so, have you seen the Google Quick, Draw! game? (I can't link to it but the url is quickdraw[period]withgoogle[period]com.) It gets a bit repetitive after a while, but I find it a fascinating distraction to see what the AI recognizes and how other people draw the same things...
I'm going flat as well, so I hear you about that first look under the bandages. You've probably heard or read this before, but remember: it's better than it looks. You are on your way to being healthier than you were before! (This is what I plan on telling myself.) Soon you will be able to wear all the pretty, lacy things, so I hope you treat yourself to some new camisoles! Personally, I've always wanted a tattoo but could never decide what to get... Working around whatever scars I have could help me finally decide, and the decreased sensitivity on my chest has to be a bonus.
Good luck with the drains tomorrow! Let us know how it goes! xxo
10/28/2019, DCIS/IDC, Both breasts, 3cm, Stage IIB, Grade 3, 1/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
11/17/2019 AC + T (Taxol)
4/22/2020 Lymph node removal: Sentinel, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left, Right
5/26/2020 Femara (letrozole)
6/3/2020 Whole-breast: Chest wall