I am a 55 yro male North American Mutt of Western European and Mediterranean descent. I am in the high risk catagory for breast cancer as i have 3 aunts who had it. One paternal, type unknown and two maternal. Both maternal aunts had the estrogen receptor type. One aunt survived 16 years before a different type took her in 6 months, working on finding out which type.
I am currently being treated for Karposi Sarcoma. I am genetically predisposed to it but it was also the basis for my Full Blown AIDS diagnosis in 1993. The KS was held at bay for years by the HIV cocktail I was taking until three and a half years ago. When I became a widower I quit taking all my meds and only started back on them about 3 monyhs ago.
Three months ago my PSA sky rocketed and a physical exam detected a hard spot on my prostate. Since I was homeless until early Nov this year I kept putting off the biopsy. Two and a half weeks ago i noticed my right breast had swollen and a painful lump had developed. The lunp was roughly quarter sized but not perfectly round. Pressure on the lump as well as lifting my arm would cause pain. The lump extended from under the areola toward the sternum. I sent my Immunologist an email and she said it was most likely Gynecomastia. She acts as my PCP, my health care is through VA.
Two days ago the lump started itching. When I scratched it a pus like yellow discharge occured from my nipple. At first i thought I had scratched a pimple so I squeezed my nipple. More yellowish pus came out followed by a white more solid mass. After that red blood.
I am waiting on a call to schedule the mamogram. At this point i am on the verge of freaking out. It is possible that my KS has metzed as it was untreated for about 6 months while i was homeless. I have no support group other than social workers and my service animal, an ESA feline. Part of me wants to just let whatever happens happen and try to enjoy the time I have til the pain starts. Not have the tests and just let nature take its course.
Like most of the last 25 years (I am a longterm survivor) my HIV is under control, my viral load is currently undetectable amd my tcell count is 774. I am dealing with PTSD and Severe Manic Bipolar Depression. Meds are helping but I don't know if I could handle cancer treatment by myself. My anxiety levels are shy high.
Biopsies for the KS and prostate are scheduled but the thought of metastatic prostate and BC scares the hell out of me. And since I am dealing with VA the time to get procedures is usually longer than civilians deal with.
Sorry to ramble but I need to know how others deal with the waiting and eventual diagnosis? I have no one to help me be strong at this pount.
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