It has been almost 10 months since my brother's passing. Not a day goes by where he isn't thought of with bittersweet tears or a fleeting laugh about something he once said. The holidays have been especially hard on my mom. Neither of us put up any Christmas decorations this year, except for a small tree by his picture. My mom insists on being in mourning for a full year. But whether one year or 5 years later, I don't think the holidays will ever be the same.
We decorated his headstone for Christmas last week. It looks so beautiful and so unbelievably saddening that this is the closest we can get to him. I bought both my mom and me a heart necklace with his picture engraved in the center. We wear it everyday and people always ask me whose picture it is.
We try to remind ourselves of what Christmas is all about, and that we still have each other, and that he still lives on in our memories and our hearts. But it's hard. It's hard when the person who meant so much isn't there anymore. My son made a slideshow of my brother's pictures and we watch it every now and then. It's nice to remind us of the carefree times we had.
So I wish you all a happy holiday season full of smiles and happy memories. Cherish every moment (and take lots of pictures!) and you will look back on them with a warm heart. Much love to all. <3
"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" (Psalms 27:1). The stats below are mine. ♥ My brother lost his fight against breast cancer on Feb 27, 2017 ♥
10/1/2015, DCIS/IDC, Left, 2cm, Stage IIB, Grade 2, 1/22 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
11/10/2015 Lymph node removal: Left; Mastectomy: Left
12/28/2015 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)
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