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Dec 7, 2013 02:55PM
Dec 7, 2013 02:56PM
i was diagnosed in feb 2002. small tumor but 10 fully encased lymph nodes. Tx was lumpectomy, nodes, TAC (which was a clinical trial back then) and rads. 6 years on arimidex. the first few years were rough', i was scared...anxious..and every little ache..i thought "cancer" took me a few years to get comfortable in my body after the aggressive treatment and also for me to wrap my emotions and head around having a "cancer diagnois" i didn't have scans but i did see my onc every 6 months for blood work and tumor markers.
in august of 2012, ,my tumor marker doubled. i had always been below normal. onc did the test again and it was even higher. i had no pain anywhere except in my right hip. all other blood work great. onc scanned my hip' all i had was a tear in a muscle from too much cycling. she then ordered a PET/SCAN//./and there it was on my T4 vertebra. i had become metatastic. well, i petrifried scared....had to have biopsy...after biopsy found out my cancer was exactly same pathology was it was in 2002. i was never cured but just in remission for 10 and half years. i couldn't believe it.
tx as been 25 rads to T4 vertebre, monthly zometa and letrozole.
so, i had trouble wrapping my head around the stage4 dx. it took me about 6 months to really work through my feelings about the whole thing. but, i have. i feel so grateful for each day; narely think about stage 4 until i go to the cancer center monthly for my zometa or when i am having side effects. i don't think that i will necessarily die from cancer.i think about Boston...and realize that anything can happen at any time. i am not a pollyanna about my cancer; i am actually very realistic. but i was 49 years old when i was initially diagnosed and now i am 61. that is a lot of living; a lot of loving..and i am grateful.
I eat good; but i don't do green drinks. i exercise every day'; walking right now. off the bike because i had surgery on my foot. i journal. i pray every day. i have been able to see my 5 year old nephew grow into a a 16 year old young man. time has been good to me. i only hang with people who love me and i love back. i avoid toxic people. oh, i drink white wine.
i don't think of myself as a survivor...more of a warrior...but really, just a woman who got breast cancer, did the treatment...and continues to live life and make the adjustments that i have to make..around the cancer stuff but just also as i age/. aging is a good thing. that is all i got./ it is a rollar coaster ride some days....but take heart that there are all kinds of new trials and treatments. there are some patients who do really well. you can be one of those patients. i have a friend who is stage 3 who is 14 years out and doing great. i don't post much on the boards now, as i see many of my breast cancer peeps on facebook. but i wish each and every one of you all the best this Christmas and Holiday season. and always into 2014.
that is all i got.
Not today cancer. Nope.
2/26/2002, IDC, 1cm, Stage IIIC, Grade 3, 10/12 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
3/3/2002 Lumpectomy: Left; Lymph node removal: Left, Underarm/Axillary
4/2/2002 Adriamycin (doxorubicin), Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Taxotere (docetaxel)
8/9/2002 Arimidex (anastrozole)
8/30/2012, IDC, 1cm, Stage IV, mets, ER+/PR+, HER2-
7/7/2014 Taxol (paclitaxel)
5/6/2015 Ixempra (ixabepilone)
10/4/2015 Gemzar (gemcitabine)
4/12/2016 Faslodex (fulvestrant)