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Nov 23, 2009 04:10PM
You know, losing my hair wasn't as bad as I thought. It fell out like clockwork on Day 15 after my first treatment. I had a really pretty wig, but I just didn't like wearing it. I'm not a scarf gal, so I ended up just wearing baseball caps with a lot of long, dangly earrings. My co-workers and family bought me lots of caps, so I ended up with a cap in just about every color. My work fortunately is very casual and supportive, so it was absolutely no issue to wear a baseball cap to work.
At first I was really self-conscious, but after a few weeks of chemo I got used to it, and frankly with the chemo fatigue I got to the point where I really didn't care if someone stared or pointed - that was THEIR issue, not mine. One of my favorite caps was a Washington Nationals cap with a pink ribbon it - I actually got a lot of support and "attagirls" from survivors who saw me wearing it, so that was a nice bonus having these fabulous energetic and vital women who were 5, 10, 15, etc. year survivors come up to me and tell they'd been there and gotten through it, and I could do it, too.
Also, in a weird way, it was actually rather nice not having to deal with hair - I just got out of the shower, towel dried the scalp, and I was ready for work. None of that fussing with gel, blow drying etc. I was so wiped out from chemo (I worked full time during chemo) that I was grateful for one less thing to fuss with. And I didn't have to shave my legs/pits for a year, no eyebrow plucking, and those nasty little chin hairs you can spend hours plucking? Gone!! No worries about them at all for a year!
Everyone is different - some people wouldn't go out to get the paper in the driveway without their wig, and some people get to the point where they actually go commando with no wig, scarf, or anything. Most fall somewhere in-between. You'll find what's right for you, and you will get through it.
12/31/2007, IDC, 2cm, Stage IIb, Grade 3, 1/15 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
01/30/2008 Mastectomy (Both); Lymph Node Removal: Axillary Lymph Node Dissection (Right); Reconstruction: Tissue expander placement (Both)
03/04/2008 Adriamycin, Cytoxan, Taxotere
10/09/2008 Reconstruction: DIEP flap (Both)