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May 27, 2011 10:01PM
I'd like to join the bandwagon and scream out, "Why me?" Not only have I had to battle cancer, but I'm battling Gastroparesis, which is a h*ll all its own. in the past 3 years I've been diagnosed with the following and it blows! Just Blows!!!!!
Breast cancer, Gastroparesis, Primary Aldosteronism (from an adrental gland mass), Diverticulosis, C-Diff infection, Colitis, Hiatus hernia, duodenitis, esophagitis, gastritis, non-functioning gall-bladder
Not to mention I've had 6 surgeries since 2007( ovarian cysts and partial oopherectomy & uternine polyps removal, then 2 months later, a total abdominal hysterectomy. 5 months later a mastectomy, port placement. Next year, gall bladder removal , and last year, a gastric pacemaeker inserted) Not to mention, 3 colonoscopies, 2 egds . 4 hospital admissions and countless er visits. And currently have had to have the voltage readjusted 4 times in the past 3 weeks because I've had 'breakthrough' nausea and vomiting almost daily! Imagine feeling like you have the stomach virus 24/7 every day!
And I feel like I'm still expected to be the perfect full-time coworker,wife, friend, daughter, mother. I'm expected to keep a positive attitude at all times. And GOD forbid if I even contemplate becoming disabled. Oh, no. I've been told, how will you be able to keep your house, you'll be giving up, you've got too many bills. yada, yada, yada. And even though I know sometimes others expect too much from me, I still feel GUILTY! Like I'm not good enough. LIke I've done something wrong.
Not every day has been hard, but I think I've had more than my share of bad days and illness.
Thanks for letting me vent. I feel better now. :)
10/1/2007, IDC, 6cm+, Stage IIIA, Grade 2, 1/3 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-