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Jan 3, 2013 07:27PM
, edited Jan 3, 2013 07:28PM
Mutt, I have no idea if we've met or not - the chemo brain has pretty much taken all of my short term memory somewhere else other than my brain. It's only because I put "check lesbian thread in bco" in my phone that I remembered to come back in here.
However, I'm pleased to meet you!
I've been feeling very tired of cancer recently. Not my usual level. More like a "is the rest of my life going to be this way" kind of tired. I am beginning to understand why people give up. Not that I'm anywhere near ready to do so, but I'm catching a glimpse of it. I'm very tired of pain 24/7, of being on arimidex, of everyone in my "real" life not understanding what I'm going through. Ah, the list goes on.
But so does life. It's a different life, and not one that I would ever have chosen, but it's a life and I make the best of it that I can. Some days I am better at that than others.
A friend gave me a "genie bra" for Christmas in the hopes that I can tolerate wearing it. It's been hard to just go flat but I cannot stand how every bra I've tried hurts so bad after just a short time on. I'm afraid to try on the genie bra and to find yet one more thing that doesn't work. Anyone have any experience with them? They even have a pocket in them!
Hello to everyone else that I don't know (unless I do know you and just forgot, lol, in which case I'll say "Hey, how ya doin?") and I've set a reminder in my phone to come back in here in a day or two and check things out again.
*edited because I forgot an entire part of a sentence. Ah, chemo brain... another gift that keeps on giving.
First diagnosed with LCIS Stage 0 in 2005. Then FOUR MORE TIMES. Now Stage IV. CANCER SUCKS.
12/31/2004 Lumpectomy: Right
2005, LCIS, Stage 0, ER+/PR+, HER2+
12/31/2005 Lumpectomy: Left
2006, LCIS, Stage 0, Grade 2, ER+/PR+, HER2+
5/31/2006 Lumpectomy: Right; Lymph node removal: Sentinel, Left
4/1/2010, ILC, 2cm, Stage IIB, Grade 2, ER+/PR+, HER2-
4/30/2010 Mastectomy: Left, Right
7/31/2010 Arimidex (anastrozole)
7/31/2010 Adriamycin (doxorubicin)
8/31/2010 Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Taxotere (docetaxel)
10/23/2014, ILC, 3cm, Stage IIIB, Grade 2, 0/0 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
11/2014, ILC, Stage IV, Grade 2, ER+/PR+
11/3/2014 Lumpectomy: Left
12/4/2014 Chest wall
1/31/2015 Aromasin (exemestane)