Jun 8, 2011 11:26AM texasrose361 wrote:
1st off- i love this post! I am not near the end yet but like many of y'all said you know its looming ahead. I have so many thoughts and fears about dying so this post is truly a blessing for me to read. (i never talk to anyone about it so i dont sound morbid or something)
Imbell- that is pretty crappy. Even if you had a larger family that is a lot of death in a realativly short time. I agree there isnt enough out there on tv for us to gain from. mostly the feel good stuff...
Ma111- i am going back home to visit and want to do a huge bbq/party because a lot of these people i havent seen in 10+ years, but i am afraid its going to turn into one of those "lets see her before she passes" type of thing... Is it wrong for me to start lying and tell people i am "all better?"
I have been putting off talking ewith my dr about putting me on an anti depression med- but i am def going to ask on my next appointment which is monday- i just feel that i cant handle the depression myself... i dont want to do anything, i look at my dishes and it make me more depressed!
thats-life- i get that a lot too "oh dont say that, you'll be around for YEARS" I want to talk and work through my feelings! I think its too hard on our loved ones to even think about it let alone say it outloud. Take up knitting LOL thats too funny!
Chickadee- Sounds like you're related to me! I have a lot of "winners" in my family too! Good for you to stand up and send your mother off to your brother- i cant beleive that no one in your family offered to take care of her knowing what you're going through!
Coolbreeze- LOL i wanna get my affairs in order if it means Brad Pitt LOL- thats my thing too i need to get rid of stuff- like why i am i holding on to a lot of this stuff!!!!
Lori- i do write in a journal 1 for the kids and one for my husband. i have thought about the video messages but somehow i cant bring myself to do it. I think to myself that NOW is the right time- i am health(ier) my hair is grown in and i look good (dark circles under my eyes have gone) so if i am gonna do a message it would be now, but thats as far as i get.... When did you write the birthday cards? Right at you dx or more recently?
FightingF8- OOOOh that boils my blood! Of course we are all dying and i hate when people say that, i wanna say to them "i wasnt aware that you have diblitating joint pain too!" (or something else that i am going through at that moment) Because our dying comes with so much more than someone AGING (not dying!)
Kezzie- that sounds good- i may have to do a memory box... or maybe memory videos (like telling my fav memories on tape)
Pam i get that too- my last scans showed stable and so everyone is like "well thats it!" no sorry that not it, i will still have to do treatment to keep them stable and God forbid there is any progression! BTW happpy to here youre NED- question about your comment since you're on hercepitn brain mets wil lbe the culprit- explain LOL i am on herceptin too does that mean brain mets are more common for those on herceptin?