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Jan 2, 2021 09:41AM
Sorry you are struggling. I can see how you are traumatized by going through all of this at such a young age. I was diagnosed at 47 and I feel pretty traumatized myself. Is your prognosis good? Is there a reason for you to be overly worried, other than the general trauma of going through diagnosis and treatment? (In my case my cancer, did not respond well to treatment, and it was locally advanced with a few ominous signs for recurrence, and I know that this is my main source of worry, sadness and consternation)
Things that have helped me: I got antianxiety meds the first weeks after diagnosis; antidepressants (effexor) the year I was going through treatment; I got a consultation with an oncologic psychiatrist, to discuss how to wean off antidepressants and why, and fr general advice -this was excellent. At the advice of this psychiatrist, I joined a meditation group for cancer patients, this is guided meditation with the goal of learning to live with uncertainty, and this has helped me tremendously. I also work out very often, and I do it outdoors (jogging) at least a couple of times a week, rain or shine. For the last month, I have been living in an attic with ceiling windows, and I find being able to see the sky, the clouds, the rain and wind all day, while at home, very soothing.
You are doing the right thing by reaching out. As you can see, you aren't alone. As others have said, this IS traumatizing. I second checking out support groups at your cancer center. And you can vent away here. Fell free to reach out by PM.
ACx4, THPx4, HP (to complete 1y); Nerlynx (1y); AI (expected 10y), Surgery: BMX + ALND, Reconstruction, Oophorectomy. Radiation.
10/26/2017, IDC, Right, 3cm, Stage IIB, Grade 3, 2/6 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2+ (IHC)