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Nov 29, 2018 06:26PM
Aussie, I feel so bad for your twin sister and I hope you two are able to spend quality time together. That can't be easy for either of you. I did have cancer - a very small tumor but nonetheless, a malignant tumor. I do still have residual nerve pain now and then but I have been taking Gabapentin for nerve damage in my back and leg, so I think that might help with the nerve pain in my chest. It has gotten less and less the farther away from surgery I get. Since you just had your BMX in June of this year, you should see a difference and a lessening of nerve issues, I would think, as more time passes. As for the little lumps on my chest, I probably wouldn't have had scar revision surgery had it not been for the fluid lump under my arm. It was right where any armhole hit me, no matter what I wore. Now I feel much better.
Give yourself time. You are dealing with a lot right now and you shouldn't feel frustrated because you haven't been able to move on. I'm not sure any of us truly do move on, we just accept it and try to move forward. I'm still looking for my new normal and somedays, I think I have found it. Other days, I wake up thinking wow, what a horrible nightmare I'm stuck in. Stick with your therapy and ask for something if you need it. I've been on Zoloft since my diagnosis. And I actually had a "friend" say "gee, you're still taking that stuff?" when I was about 6 months out. I wish I had known a smartass comeback but I think I was too stunned to say anything. Now I would definitely have something to say. And it wouldn't be very nice.
I spent 6 lovely wonderful weeks in Australia 4 years ago and I loved every single minute of it. I was visiting a dear friend who lived in a Sydney suburb. She took me to Uluru and the Outback for a week, Cairns to snorkel on the GBR, and on a cruise from Sydney to Tassie for a week, with the rest of the spent in Sydney. I would love to come back and see more!
Hang in there and keep talking. It's good therapy, even long-distance like this.
3/24/2017, ILC, Left, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 1, 0/4 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- (IHC)
5/3/2017 Lymph node removal: Left, Sentinel, Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Left; Prophylactic mastectomy: Right
6/12/2017 Arimidex (anastrozole)