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Jun 18, 2018 02:03AM
Hi Albertan, and thank you for your honesty. And congrats on being in good health, that's wonderful! I have many of the same feelings you do, although I've only been half flat for 3 or 4 months. I'm still not out of the woods with my cancer, so I can't reconstruct yet anyway, but I'm slowly warming up to the possibility.
My situation is probably more extreme than others here because of the chest wall resection and skin graft. I basically have a large concave area with transparent angry looking skin adhered over several ribs. The skin graft is literally see through, and the whole area is hard as a rock. Talk about sexy! I hate it that this happened to my once beautiful body, but I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. I had no real choice if I wanted to live. I think it's natural to feel glad about being alive, and mournful over what we have lost simultaneously.
Anyway, I have no answers - I'm just venting. I really don't know what I'll do down the road, but my options will be dictated by my cancer mostly. In the meantime I'm all about knitted knockers, high necklines, and loose clothing.
Initial diagnosis at 32 years old. Chest wall resection 18 months later due to skin metastasis, probably from needle track seeding during initial biopsy. Skin graft from right thigh!
8/2016, IDC, Right, Stage IA, Grade 3, 0/2 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
9/30/2016 Lumpectomy: Right; Lymph node removal: Sentinel
10/31/2016 Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide), Taxotere (docetaxel)
4/30/2017 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)
9/2017, IDC, Right, Grade 3, 2/5 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
10/31/2017 Lymph node removal: Sentinel; Mastectomy: Right; Reconstruction (right): Tissue expander placement
1/2018, IDC, Right, Grade 3, 0/5 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
3/12/2018 Lymph node removal: Underarm/Axillary; Mastectomy: Right
5/13/2018 Chest wall
6/30/2018 Zoladex (goserelin)
7/1/2018 Xeloda (capecitabine)