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Topic: 33 year old, recent bride, frightened (breast lump)

Forum: Not Diagnosed But Worried —

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Posted on: Oct 25, 2019 02:58AM - edited Oct 25, 2019 03:02AM by Alea

Alea wrote:

Hi everyone,

I just turned 33 last month and got married last week. Life was finally looking up. 2 Days before my marriage, my husband felt the change in my breast he was like what is that? I touched it and immediately said "uh oh, this is not good"

We have no history of cancer in my family but still..

It was a HUGE, HARD lump, felt like at least 2 cm / 1 inch.. Felt like I had a marble inside my breast. (outer right side corner) Sometimes I feel like it moves, sometimes I feel like it's attached. I am losing it

Immediately went to my gyneco, who touched it and was like "yep, I feel it". He said wait until your period is over and then do a mammography and ultrasound.

Thankfully I was somehow able to enjoy my marriage and blocked it off my mind. No one in my family knows but my husband.

It's been a little over a week of torture. I wanted to do the tests earlier but the doctor said to wait until my period is over (in 2 weeks)

The lump shrunk, I could swear. Even my husband confirmed it, he said it definitely shrunk from about 2 cm to now the size of a chickpea or even a pea.

I called the doctor to say it shrunk, he said do the tests anyway (which makes me concerned maybe he believes it's something serious and wants to make sure?)

I am extremely frightened. I still haven't told a soul, and I'm braving it for my husband like it's no big deal even if it is cancer. But deep down, I am terrified.

I know I have no right to say "I don't wanna die at 33" because there are people younger than me who lost their lives. But yeah, I don't want to die now. My life just FINALLY fell into place. Finally found the man I want to spend my life with. Finally found success in my career. Finally accepted and loved myself. I want to enjoy it even for a little bit.

I know I shouldn't "google" but I couldn't help it. I found academic articles that say if it shrinks to a smaller size, it could be a deadlier type of cancer.

I don't know what to think! I am sorry, I just needed to tell someone I am scared

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Oct 25, 2019 03:19AM Moderators wrote:

Alea, welcome to,

We're so very sorry you're here and worrying. We know it's hard not to jump to conclusions, but you need to take a deep breath and take one step at a time. You've already done the right thing by being vigilant about your breasts and bringing this concern to your doctor. And your doctor is likely still insisting on the tests to give you peace of mind that it's NOTHING rather than to discover it's SOMETHING.

Stay off Dr. Google and ask your questions here -- you'll get real answers, good advice, and great support while you wait for results. We're all here for you. Keep us posted.

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Oct 25, 2019 04:19AM Alea wrote:

Thank you moderator for your kind words of support, I really, REALLY appreciate it. I am feeling some relief in knowing that I am not alone at least. I am trying not to be nervous (when I read my question now it sounds ridiculous) but my brain is spinning

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Nov 7, 2019 02:13AM Alea wrote:

Results in: They can't confirm 100% but likely benign! Will have to keep following up every 6 months though

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Nov 7, 2019 07:29AM Yogatyme wrote:

Alea, πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ» Great news!! Now you can focus on moving forward with your new fabulous life!! So, so happy for you!

Yogatyme Surgery 3/3/2019 Prophylactic ovary removal Dx 7/19/2019, IDC: Papillary, Right, <1cm, Stage IA, Grade 2, 0/5 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- Surgery 8/13/2019 Mastectomy: Left, Right
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Nov 7, 2019 08:54AM Alea wrote:

Thank you so very much! My heart is with anyone who is going through it. If it's this hard just to wait for a diagnosis, how hard would it be to actually go through the treatment.

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