I just turned 33 last month and got married last week. Life was finally looking up. 2 Days before my marriage, my husband felt the change in my breast he was like what is that? I touched it and immediately said "uh oh, this is not good"
We have no history of cancer in my family but still..
It was a HUGE, HARD lump, felt like at least 2 cm / 1 inch.. Felt like I had a marble inside my breast. (outer right side corner) Sometimes I feel like it moves, sometimes I feel like it's attached. I am losing it
Immediately went to my gyneco, who touched it and was like "yep, I feel it". He said wait until your period is over and then do a mammography and ultrasound.
Thankfully I was somehow able to enjoy my marriage and blocked it off my mind. No one in my family knows but my husband.
It's been a little over a week of torture. I wanted to do the tests earlier but the doctor said to wait until my period is over (in 2 weeks)
The lump shrunk, I could swear. Even my husband confirmed it, he said it definitely shrunk from about 2 cm to now the size of a chickpea or even a pea.
I called the doctor to say it shrunk, he said do the tests anyway (which makes me concerned maybe he believes it's something serious and wants to make sure?)
I am extremely frightened. I still haven't told a soul, and I'm braving it for my husband like it's no big deal even if it is cancer. But deep down, I am terrified.
I know I have no right to say "I don't wanna die at 33" because there are people younger than me who lost their lives. But yeah, I don't want to die now. My life just FINALLY fell into place. Finally found the man I want to spend my life with. Finally found success in my career. Finally accepted and loved myself. I want to enjoy it even for a little bit.
I know I shouldn't "google" but I couldn't help it. I found academic articles that say if it shrinks to a smaller size, it could be a deadlier type of cancer.
I don't know what to think! I am sorry, I just needed to tell someone I am scared
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