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Sep 26, 2019 12:25PM
Sep 26, 2019 12:52PM
Hello all - I'm one week from my right side mastectomy and ALND surgery.
vmb - This is absolutely so emotional. I cried tears of loss a lot even before surgery, and plenty have flowed since. I had no reconstruction, just a flat closure, and no dressings on the chest, just over the drains. I can't avoid seeing myself. It's still so unsettling and feels like I'm looking at something detached from me. It's like I can't look at my chest in the mirror and also look into my own eyes without something covering my chest. It's not really a part of me yet. Even my still-there left breast looks foreign to me without its mate. It will take lots of time to fully accept what's happened. Now it's just the acute stages of recovery.
PF - thanks for responding to my mini-rant the other day. I'm slowly letting go of the anger about the lack of communication. It can only hurt me, not make the situation any more "right".
JenninMass - are you in Mass as in MA state? Maybe we're neighbors!
I still have quite a lot of pain, especially nerve pain in my underarm and triceps area. I have almost used up the 20 narcotic pain pills the surgeon gave me, plus a few leftover ones from a shoulder procedure earlier this year. I'm trying to make it on just Tylenol today, but it hurts. I'll see the surgeon tomorrow. Don't know whether or not to ask for more narcotics.
I'm also on edge today waiting to hear the pathology report. Don't know if they'll call me if it comes in today, or if I just wait and see if it's ready tomorrow. I want to call but I feel like the surgeon is already annoyed with me because I ask SO many questions. If it's not ready tomorrow and I have to wait until next week, it will be a really rough weekend. I especially need to know how many nodes were positive. I don't know how many nodes they took, but I know some were positive for cancer involvement on US and MRI. The waiting and the physical pain is so hard.
One drain really hurts in my upper chest where I can feel it under the skin. I think I can get them out tomorrow, but the whole area is so on edge I'm dreading what that's going to feel like. Yet I can't wait to have them out. And I can't wait to have a shower!
5/22/2019, IDC, Right, 2cm, Stage IIB, Grade 2, 3/10 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2- (IHC)
6/28/2019, IDC, Right, 1cm, Grade 2, ER+/PR+, HER2- (IHC)
9/19/2019 Lymph node removal: Right; Mastectomy: Right
10/6/2019 AC + T (Taxol)
1/15/2020 Whole-breast: Breast, Lymph nodes, Chest wall
3/27/2020 Aromasin (exemestane)