May 18, 2010 08:38AM - edited May 18, 2010 08:39AM by musiclovermom
I am NOT as confident as I might seem...
My husband left me after 25 years together... I had my youngest daughter graduate from HS the week I had my first biopsy... last summer was horrendous with selling a house and buying a new house and splitting up the family and all during this a biopsy, excision of a duct , a lumpectomy then the bilateral mastectomy...
I live alone and have done the cancer crap by myself and support from wonderful friends in my life. BUT I am the only single one... SO I NEED to get out!
It is so worth all the effort! I may not be interested in every man, but I am finding my self!
I met my husband at 18 and was married by 20... Have been with him my whole adult life and now I am remembering the person I was before marriage! It is very exciting to be just me now... no kids, no husband... this is the first time I can ever remember being me all by myself! I am liking who I am finding... and I think I might be funny too!
I have lost 75 pounds since last year at this time and that helps so much!
The ball game guy has been texting me every day and wants a 2nd date this week.
I will go and see what happens. I am not looking for long term, just to get out and make friends right now... It feels good to be desired and does something for my self image too.
I was scared to death to go out - until I did then I wanted to go out more, but have no one to go with... Now I am going out and forget to tell friends I am going so they can keep track of me.
I have a girl friend who was keeping tabs on my first date while she was on vacation in Hawaii! It was my first Internet date... Be very careful, but it was fine and the ice was broken... now, I am feeling comfortable by the time I meet someone and always go to a public place, but forget to tell the girls where I am and who I am with...
I got a great book that helped me too!
it is by Gina M. Maisano called INTIMACY AFTER BREAST CANER
dealing with your body, relationships and sex
I ordered it on Amazon....