Illinois ladies facing bc

There's a reason I waited to schedule all my check-up testing until AFTER my vacation. *sigh*

I had my hip MRI this morning (following up on a benign bone tumor that they keep monitoring), and my Mammogram was afterward.  I had a notgreat feeling about the mammo... and sure enough, the radiologist called me in for the results and says the sm. calcifications I've had on my last 2 mammos have increased in size, enough that he thinks, because of my history and age, that we need to be aggressive and do a mammotome biopsy.  Sooo, here's me, trying my hardest not to freak out.

I talked to my b.s. and of course, he's gone on vacation next week, so I'll call Mon. morn and just have one of the radiologists do it, hopefully that day or the next.  At least I work right by there. 

Until then, I need to work on getting through a big family party tomorrow without talking or thinking about it.  I don't want to tell my parents or kids and have them worry for what will hopefully be benign.  

Laura - I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time with the LE.  It's so bizarre how some people get it so bad, and some not at all.  I hope you're getting some relief.

Mak - Congrats on finishing the trial!  I'm sure life will be a bit easier not having to fly back and forth so much now.  

Iago - I love art fairs, maybe I'll try and check some of those out.  Good Shepherd Hospital used to put on a really nice Art in the Park festival every year.  I haven't gone in years, but maybe this year.  

Sorry I can't join you ladies for the luncheon next week.  I'll be either working or getting my boob hole-punched again. 

Oh Rene.....you post is so resounding for me.  I am off schedule  on my mri and my mammogram as I wanted to wait until after the New Mexico trip so I could just have FUN!  Damn it!  Well I had fun but now I face all the stuff that I need to face. I think because I delayed it, I too am feeling not so great about it all.  My onc once said that if it comes back it doesn't really matter how long you wait...treatment is the same.  That is the lousy thing about cancer....it plays terrible mind games.  I pray and feel you will be fine.  I am set to go myself in a few weeks.  There are so many reason to put it off.....to sum up....it is called being happy with life events.

With that said, may I suggest you look about that table with family, soak in the faces and the conversations  and just enjoy the pure love of being with them.  Soak it all in and try to breath deeply, knowing that you are now alive and can just feel in tune with them.  Easier said than done.

Susan

Stay warm.
Susan

Great Saturday morning today.  We had a really nice little rainstorm with sound and light effects and as a result.....it is cooler outside than inside.  I'm thrilled.  It is also nice as the Komen Race for the Cure is taking place in St. Louis today......it will be nice for them. 

I'm so glad it's the week-end.  No special reason except that I always feel a bit more relaxed about my work.....though it doesn't really make that much difference when I show up.....as long as I do.  Do have to make sure I'm over to Maggie's early.  She has been back in hosp. for a few days and I have to get the dogs as early as possible. 

Rene'.......I hope you can relax ( though so often it feels impossible ) and enjoy the week-end.  This is sort of like counting money you haven't made yet......you will give it far more credit than it deserves, but another person said it best --- it is what it is, just totally meaning to me that nothing can or will change it.......so if you can manage a good time, by all means.  No matter what happens this week-end won't come again......so enjoy.  Susan is so right.....get as deeply in tune with your family and what is going on as you can ---- shift all the emotion and power to them. 

I hope you all have a great week-end....and hopefully a bit cooler.  Well.....I never phrase that right......heat I don't truly mind all that much.  It is the draining humidity that I don't like.  So....a great week-end with no humidity. 

Thinking of you Laura........feel better soon.

Hugs, Jackie

I'm not posting "I'm so happy when it rains" Today is a song for all those about to go for tests and/or waiting for results:

linky

Hi everyone,

Jan - Sorry to hear about the ants, and the shingles. Hoping the meds work quickly for you.

 Laura-Is your LE better?  Been thinking about you and hope you're feeling better.

BustersMom - Hi and how is Buster doing by the way?

We are enjoying our pontoon boat. It is so nice and relaxing (well, not mid day on weekends on the Chain but we live close enough that we can go on the water in the morning, get off when it's crowded and go back out later).  Got tired of putting things off to a "better" time - decided to just do it and I'm glad we did. Thanks Rita for the nudge!  Our dogs love the boat too.

Hoping those going through tx have a good week and hugs to you all.

Hope everyone is doing well.  It has been a busy week/weekend ...trying to get everything in place to be gone for a few days and great niece got married...so today I have to get packed etc....

We will be heading to Lombard Monday morning....I'm excited to go...but I'm such a worrier ...Leaving my dog and care of inground pool and house to a couple college girls has me a little nervous..

See some of you soon.  Nana Marsha

So much going on... hope everyone is making the most of this weekend. Chilly is good for my arm...it has helped bring the swelling down and lessen the pain.

I really appreciate your concern and thoughtful posts and cards. It really has helped.

Irene - Everything is crossed for you. I am so sorry you have to deal with it all. Damn! Hugs to you...hang in there...you know we're all here for you.

JulieC - How are you doing?

Jan - OH NO! Shingles! What a pain in the you know what! I hope it's mild and clears up soon. Sorry!

Mich - So glad you checked in! And nice to "hear" you're enjoying your boat.

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Alot of things going on in addition to my arm...SIGH...one day at a time.

EVERYONE - Hugs!

Good to hear from Laura and Mich!  DH and I had fun in Wisconsin  today.  I always come home feeling great after being in the country.

I need to get a one-liner on who is joining Nana and  me on Tuesday. I actually have not been able to talk to many of you as many of you are the "new" people and I have been cancer free for a "number" of years.  Yeah! We will alll make it!

Susan

Thanks again Susan for taking the lead and organizing the outing.   I will be there on Tuesday, and very much looking forward to it!  

Thank you for all the good thoughts.  It's nice to be able to share this stuff with a group of ladies who understand how deep the concern is with stuff like this.  I'm crossing my fingers that they can do the biopsy tomorrow for me.  I may have to use a little pull if necessary.

Laura - Glad to hear the LE is feeling better.

Jan - Okay, first lago then you with the shingles?  I guess I'll put it on the list of things to ask my Onc about too.  Feel better.

I can't believe this was only 2 weeks ago.  I miss my ship... 

Laura....hope you are getting better and better with your LE.  Jan Clare, I hope you too are making some progress with those darn shingles.  Now I'm wondering......is it just a co-incidence that they come......meaning, would you have gotten them anyway....at this time in your life.  That is probably a great who knows question and nothing else.

Still coolish here -- meaning it is nice and warm, but we do not need the air conditioner which is great.  That is my kind of day. 

Nana.....maybe you should "pack" less and buy a little more when you get where you are going.  I hope you all have a really great time. 

See you all later.

Hugs, Jackie

Rita, I find the whole health insurance scary!  We are okay as they retained the BC/BS HMO and that is what we are on.  Living in a big city, we still have great options on doctors, yet I read and reread all that  information four or five times to be sure I got it right.  Then Paul and read and reread it again.  I got my last reminder today by email.  The thought of changing  doctors is just so troubling for me, but it looks like we are okay THIS TIME AROUND. Thanks for bringing it up as it has been a worry these past few days. Think of all the OLD (I do not put us in that category) teachers who have trouble keeping up with changes and emails.  I hope no one gets hurt, but of course some will fall through the cracks.

Zap I know that Rush accepts Blue Cross & Blue Shitshield but I don't think they accept their HMO. I know you don't go to Rush but I thought that was interesting. I think that changed just this year… unless they finally came to some agreement.

As you can tell I am not happy with Blue Cross & Blue Shitshield. They reject everything. I've had to have my doctors recode just about everything. This company doesn't want to part with their money.

Can't wait to see everyone tomorrow! Hope I don't get lost. Who's cell should I call if I do?

Hi Adey

Hi everybody.  I have been without an internet connection for several days and finally back on-line today.  Count me in for lunch, Zap.  Lago, I am not from the Downers Grove/Lombard area so if you get lost I would be useless to help you!

Looking forward to seeing everyone tomorrow.

Navy

Thanks Lisa. Got it. I do highly recommend you remove your cell # from the thread. It's too public.